Or rather, our perception of it?

Why is it okay to just let people come in and out of our lives
so superficially?
I understand if you're in the train full of strangers
you probably wouldn't introduce yourself to all of them.
You say hello (if at all)
and that's it.

But sometimes great friendships start in the train,
or elevator,
or another country,
or a website ;)
and I feel that if we keep being so superficial about everything
and fake in every conversation,
those friendships
or bonds
will never form.

The reason this came up
is because I've become pretty friendly with the employees at my hostel
particularly this one girl who speaks the same dialect that I do
who isn't a local but is working there for several months
but I've been noticing a sort of...
distancing that she does when we're in a group
careless(maybe) negative words, looks, body language
versus the friendliness she exhibits when it's just us
and taking the things she's said into consideration...
about how she doesn't want contact info for
anyone she's met and become "friends" with
even if they clicked and she was saying how much she would miss them.
I get the feeling that she doesn't want to maintain any sort of "friendship"
and I don't mean this in particular to myself
just a general feeling about her.
So I'm just going to back off from being too friendly with her.

I think whatever is wrong with our generation
isn't just in America
but all over the world in areas with money
and the ability to luxuriate beyond the necessities,
there is a lack of real communication skills
and this perception that friendship is superficial.

Sad.

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I am done with males.

Who wants to be mah lesbian loverrrrrrr? ;)

xoxo,

Silver.

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Silver. <3 Nuttz
xoxo
~Forever~

Now we need a nickname:
Siluttz sounds too much like...ya know.
Siltz?
NuttSilv?
NuSil?
Nuver?
N.S.
N.D.
Nuttzot?
NuDot?
Dottz!
I don't know...

No matter what we end up being called,
I DO know ONE thing,
we shall be on the front page
of all the gossip magazines!

Because we're born with it.
(it = stardom)

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[Re-posted from G+, exactly the same]

I just got some random call from a relative telling me to help her help a 23/24 year old cousin (several times removed, I don't know if she means mine or hers) find out how to come to the U.S. for college.

What he/she doesn't know how to use the internet? I highly doubt that.

Most likely, the kid probably doesn't know anything about his/her parents asking my relative or that my relative agreed to help without any hesitation. Why did she? It's all about face. After badgering me and her children to do all the hard work, she can say "I got all the information! Hehehe, now you will always remember how I helped you way back when and I'm such a nice person who elevated herself in the eyes of people who don't even matter by using the younger generation at my disposal."

I don't know. The good girl side of me still wants to help the kid. But man, her attitude annoyed me.

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In other news...

I just found Busty Girl Comics! (<--Just add the dot com) And I really want her Overhanging Cliff BGC T-Shirt!
http://www.redbubble.com/people/bustygirlcomics/works/8493645-overhanging-cliff-bgc-t-shirt

Who wants tah get one with meh? =D

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Before I get into it, here's a short update:
- I am currently unemployed, looking for a temporary job
- I am still considering going overseas early 2013, which is why whatever job I find will only be temporary
- I believe I have a cold. Symptoms popped up early this week and I took NyQuil last night. If anything, it helped me sleep all morning. I now have a stuffy nose, can barely breathe, and have an odd taste in my mouth. Oddly enough I don't think it's me. It might actually be from the medicine. I don't think I'll be taking it again tonight.

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This is my first relationship. Circumstances that led to it were definitely complicated beyond my imagination and it has certainly given me more life experience. (Finally. Thanks, life.)

Is it supposed to be this hard? What's the equation for good balancing out the bad?

Keep in mind I'm in a kind of "don't give a damn about anything" mood leaning towards pessimism.

Do we have fights? No. Disagreements? Kinda...not really. When things are wrong, we bring them up to each other and we talk about them. Usually in the car. Oh my, why do we keep doing that in the car? Anyway, that's irrelevant. We talk, I raise my voice here and there, he gets into a mood, we're both upset, I cry, silence, we talk more, somewhere along the way we laugh about something, he pinches my cheeks, I swat at him, and then somehow we're back to being okay. What do you call that? Whatever it is, it's only happened maybe two or three times counting last night.

Last night...or this morning, you could say. We got back to my dad's place before 2 AM (my curfew--yes, I have one now) and we got to talking. I am not going to leave in the middle of the aforementioned whatever it is when it happens. By the time we finally kiss one last time and say goodbye, it's almost 4 AM.

As I am writing this and re-reading what I have written, I am realizing...you know, maybe it's not as bad as I'd thought after all. In fact, some might even call it good. Yes, we have some problems here and there but we're willing to work on it. Most importantly, we love each other.

In conclusion, I guess I am finally living life. I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and see where life takes me. You'll have to keep tuning in to see what happens next!

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I am annoyed. Apparently, a grouchy middle-aged man serves as my building's security guard on weekday mornings. I have lost my package due to his unwillingness to be helpful. He is one of those who views the world as his enemy and thinks everyone is a critic. I'm just trying to get my goddamn package! It's been three days since it first came to my building! And it's now being shipped back to sender! What the grraaaaaah!

It's probably the first substantial thing I've allowed my boyfriend to buy me. I've been kind of against it because I don't want him buying me things. Neither of us are rich, ya know? But he really wants to and it was getting to the point of ridiculousness because I wouldn't even tell him what I like for fear that he would buy it and then it's kind of weird that my boyfriend doesn't know what I like or my tastes and it was just stupid so I gave in. Lo and behold! Stupid security guard messes it up.

I called customer service and although they can't intercept the package, they offered to place another order charged to my own credit card. Unfortunately, I can only get one of the items because the others are no longer available. The first order was perfect...

Anyway, such is life.

In regards to my previous post...

~Thank you, Randy & Nuttz. I apologize for almost causing regurgitation!
~Sank, I don't think it's a cause for concern as it's only happened a few times (2-3 counting this time) and we've only gotten closer after.
~Thanks for the encouragement, dont-see!
~ayl4life, haha! Yay~

Dotty sad about package...

Plugs: randomjunk, nuttz, thaitanic, dont-see, ayl4life

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The HTC G2 I've been using over the past year & a half inexplicably died last night. I was waiting for December or another T-Mobile "All Smartphones for FREE" 2-day deal (whichever comes first) so I could finally upgrade. Now I don't know what to do. Of course, being disconnected has it's pros and the biggest con I can see is my boyfriend not being able to reach me. So...I guess I could use a feature phone for a while until one of the two mentioned above roll around. I have insurance on the phone, but discovered through my research last night that it may be more trouble than it's worth.

Hmm...

Will respond properly to comments & previous entry later.

Plugs: randomjunk, Zanzibar, Nuttz, Katrina

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According to [reference to study referenced in article I read that I can't remember from where that I should give credit to], the average person takes 15-20 minutes to fall asleep. If you fall asleep in less time than that, it means your body is sorely deprived of sleep. Personally I'd always been one of those average sleepers and I knew my boyfriend was not one because he falls asleep within 30 sec. Also, he never ever has the appropriate amount of sleep. When you have to get up in a few hours it makes sense that you are exhausted and therefore, would fall asleep within 30 sec. After living with him for over half a year...I am no longer an average sleeper. Sigh. I of course ended up this way because I too took on this awfully unhealthy lifestyle.

I'm trying to get back on track. I need regular exercise (but it's so HOT!), yummy healthy food, and to do activities that I enjoy (solo or at least without him).

One full year down the road and I can look back with a smile at the crazy ride it's been. The tears, the laughter, the enjoyment of doing absolutely nothing and having the time of our lives...I think love is an educational institution itself. I don't think you can ever stop learning because there's always so much that is constantly changing. You can never say you've graduated and there's no piece of paper to be given during a long boring ceremony in which all participants are texting away on their smartphones. There can be surprises even in old age if two people manage to stay in the relationship until then. Just take things as they come along I guess...

Haha, how did I get so philosophical? I'm hungry. Off to eat some peanut butter! Bye~

Plugs: randomjunk, ikimashokie, thaitanic, Amelie, Zanzibar, invisible, renaye, Nuttz

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