Before I get into it, here's a short update:
- I am currently unemployed, looking for a temporary job
- I am still considering going overseas early 2013, which is why whatever job I find will only be temporary
- I believe I have a cold. Symptoms popped up early this week and I took NyQuil last night. If anything, it helped me sleep all morning. I now have a stuffy nose, can barely breathe, and have an odd taste in my mouth. Oddly enough I don't think it's me. It might actually be from the medicine. I don't think I'll be taking it again tonight.

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This is my first relationship. Circumstances that led to it were definitely complicated beyond my imagination and it has certainly given me more life experience. (Finally. Thanks, life.)

Is it supposed to be this hard? What's the equation for good balancing out the bad?

Keep in mind I'm in a kind of "don't give a damn about anything" mood leaning towards pessimism.

Do we have fights? No. Disagreements? Kinda...not really. When things are wrong, we bring them up to each other and we talk about them. Usually in the car. Oh my, why do we keep doing that in the car? Anyway, that's irrelevant. We talk, I raise my voice here and there, he gets into a mood, we're both upset, I cry, silence, we talk more, somewhere along the way we laugh about something, he pinches my cheeks, I swat at him, and then somehow we're back to being okay. What do you call that? Whatever it is, it's only happened maybe two or three times counting last night.

Last night...or this morning, you could say. We got back to my dad's place before 2 AM (my curfew--yes, I have one now) and we got to talking. I am not going to leave in the middle of the aforementioned whatever it is when it happens. By the time we finally kiss one last time and say goodbye, it's almost 4 AM.

As I am writing this and re-reading what I have written, I am realizing...you know, maybe it's not as bad as I'd thought after all. In fact, some might even call it good. Yes, we have some problems here and there but we're willing to work on it. Most importantly, we love each other.

In conclusion, I guess I am finally living life. I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and see where life takes me. You'll have to keep tuning in to see what happens next!

That sounds... like you're managing it pretty well.
» randomjunk on 2012-10-14 07:18:02

It sounds like you are doing well in the relationship/living life department. Now go away before I start puking =P
» Nuttz on 2012-10-15 06:49:18

how long have you guys been together? i think if you often are arguing to the point of tears, it isn't healthy... but if you're happy, then there you go.
» thaitanic on 2012-10-15 08:20:58

Sounds like any normal relationship to me. Good stuff.

Good luck girl
» dont-see on 2012-10-19 12:14:33

well, you've been kissed!
» ayl4life on 2012-10-19 01:20:25

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