title: unkown
made by: me

i wonder wha it'd be like to be in another place
to go away from my problems
get away from life's eternal race

if i was born in another country
would i still be the same person i am?
would i be more funny or even hate ham?!

sumtimes i wish i could run away
and go wherever i wanna go
and i often wonder what is my destiny
but i guess it'll be awhile 'till i know

there are times when i feel so alone
i can't even express how i feel
and i'm too scared to tell anyone
cuz im scared they won't understand the deal

i still dont know where i fit in to this world
or anything for a fact
it's like everyone's tOo gOod
and they have everything i lack

this would be a gOod time to say some optomistic things
or how i can improve
but this time i won't say anything
i wont make any new moves.

--->[edit] 5:19pm
gosh i am so annoyed 2day, right now. this morning started off bad cuz my stupid dad always gives me a hard time! all i asked was if i can go either today..or 2morrow to get my track shoes and then he all asks why they dint tell us earlier and that we should speak up and ask if we need ne thin en im like we fxckin did!! ((minus the cussing)) and then he's all dint i tell u b4 to get ur teacher's fone number or email ((in this case, coach)) and annoyingly mad i sed "mhm" and luckily the frikken doorbell rang and i was saved from the likes of him. gosh. is it so hard to ask to jes take me to a damn store to get sum fxckin track shoes! geeeeze. gotta make a big deal out of everything! why can't u jes keep things simple fxckin gayass! errrr! who the fxck asks their teachers for their contacts ((sorry if YOU do)) i'm so mad now! workin up my anger rah now. ok..ne waise..then i went to my room en finished reading this gay book ((literally..not that i am but yeah)) to kinda relax myself en blah then i had piano jes a few minutes ago..i really dont have time to practice piano ne more..i'm so busy wit skOo and now i have track practice..goodness. en jes now my mom was all yellin in bxtch mode cuz sum1 put ketchup on her pot/pan in the sink blaming it on me. well actually my brother got in trouble first and his stupidass always blames me wen he gets in trouble he's always like "i dont know..ask ate!"....man FXCK YOU! stupid bxtch. always blaming shxt on me! fxck that man. so not in the mood right now. and agen this is another saturday stuck at home. every1'z annoying the fxckin shxt outta me! sumtimes i feel like i give more than i get in return. which would be a gOod thing..except not in this case. it's like u put in a lot of effort and every1 else dusn't seem to be doing ne thing. ..jes like how i felt yesterday morning. gosh! im sick of staying home! and no1 understands me! i kno mah frenz try tah understand but they dont. but who could. it's like who do i turn to if i have problems?! sumtimes i feel like sum of my frenz aren't even listening to me. sumtimes i wonder if they even really like me. do u ever get that feeling? i wonder bowt it all the time. cuz u never kno wen sum1'll turn ur bak on u. i've seen it happen. i try my best to listen to ppl more than i talk and i try not to interrupt them and wait till their finished talking. i dont like being center of attention ne waise..makes me feel conceited..and i always think they're prolly annoyed cuz i'd prolly be if i was them. i ges im jes being selfish. but im jes so bothered. it bothers me everyday. and dont u hate it wen ur in a good mood and sum1 that's in a bad mood jes ruins ur gOod mood..AND ur day becuz they're in a bad mood and they rub it off and take it out on you?! i hate that. it's rare that i ever feel totally good. and wen i do, wen i'm finally happy..sum1 jes hasta go ruin it for me. i hate this.

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today was jes an ordinary day. it kinda started out ruff during fourth period. then 5th period came and it was arrite..watched To Kill A Mockingbird..black & white but it was still alriight. it was waaay different from the book. oh well. that's wha movies do. stupid movies. then it was lunchtime and i ate orange chicken & rice for lunch! yeeuuh. total yummness =) ((insert a nutang smiley here..haha too lazy to look)) then 6th period was boring. same crap. then..

track & field baby! it was an easy day. agen. no running stuff. well jes a little. mostly worked on long jump and sprints..and relays. duude there are so meni guys. well duh. track & field. hahah. but ne who..so yeahh first i did the long jump..only couplea times cuz then the rest of the guys who practiced the sprints started comin towards the long jump so i was like neh i'll do the sprints...then after that me, mylene, shaina, and this other girl..din't get her name..hahah...but yeah...we all worked on the relay wit the baton thing..it's actually quite fun =) then after that me en shaina decided to go bak and do the long jump cuz every1 started practicin the relay..i dint wanna practice the long jump wen the guys were there cuz i knew they'd never lemme go..jes cuz they're guys and i dont really kno them...and i dint want them to watch me ne waise. so yeahh...duuude i suck at long jump!! soo bad omg and i guess i dint notice but i ges i wasn't givin my all? cuz david g. asked me if that was like my strongest or whatever en im like hahah iono. i was kinda surprised he ACTUALLY sed sumthin tah me. haha cuz like yeah he dusnt really talk to me. in fact, no1 really talks to me. hahah. so yeah. it's kinda kew tho cuz the guys dont really talk to me yeno.

ne waise. IQ test on tv today! yeeuuh! let's see how smart i am. pwahhaha

i have an IQ of 118! yeeuuh baybeh! ..it coulda been higher if i only answered that one question i dint answer! dint gimme enuf time! grr. oh well! the average is 90-110! which makes me practically a genius! lol siiike i wish! im jes above average oh like i dint kno that alredi. lol jk. and also did yeno human brains start shrinking when u reach adolescence. and boys' brains shrink faster than girls..no wonder they're so stupid! hahaha it was fun dude tho. 8) brotha got an IQ of 112. hahah

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well today was an ordinary day...oh yeah 2day was picture day. i 4got. but thankfully, jonnie lemme borrow her shirt. it was reeeally cute. it was off the shoulder..baby blue..and it sed "surfer champion" on it or sumthin. duude the person who took my picture was kiinda scurry. well not scary SCARY but kinda weird? hahah cuz like yeahh he was all friendly yet not a happy friendly..more like a sarcastic friendly. haha iono its hard to describe. not like u munchins care ne way.

track & field practice was kinda ehh. dint do much. it was a kind of easy day. practiced the long jump agen. i kno i did it wrong cuz i ended up jumpin..landin on one foot wen i should landed wit both feet. and it was scary because the coach was all jes lookin at me all weird and dint say nothin. so i was like whaat did i do sumthing wrong?! was it that bad?! but it was jes so freaky that i dint getta say ne thing..my mind went in2 panic mode.

ps: please read my last entry! =)

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well skOo was same o same o...uhm during ELP i went to mr. saaco's ((sp?!)) classroom cuz he had this lady come to splain to us bowt the little fundraiser we're doing...i thot it was gon be kOo but it's not really all that...hm does anyone wanna support our COLORGUARD and buy sum CHOCOLATE liike:
-Peanut Butter Melodies ((like a reese's))
-Chocolate Mint Frogs ((i think imma get me summa those))
-Cup O' Cheddar Cheese ((ok that's not chocolate but it's in the same brochure thing))
-Summer Sausage ((that too))
-Personalized Stamped With Legos ((well u can't even EAT that!))
-Sour Poppers ((not chocolate but hey it's CANDY))
-Music Note Push Pins ((u SO canNOT eat THAT!))
-Tote Bag With Photograph Holders ((ok where's all the chocolate?!!))
-Ghiradelli Camramel and Milk Chocolate Squares ((mmm ghiradelli is always gOod (= ))
-Chicken Enchhilada Soup Mix

..or subscribe to a MAGAZINE..((i kno u ppl read magazines! liike:
-YM
-J-14
-CosmoGirl
-TeenPeople
-Elle Girl
-Motocross
-PSM: Independent Playstation 2 Mag.
-BMX
-American Cheerleader
-Essence ((do u ppl read that?!))
-Disney Adventures ((haha or for ur little sibling))
-Sports Illustrated for Kids
-ESPN ((for all u athlete fanatics out there))

..etc...orr for ur parents..
-parenting
-TV Guide ((hahaha))
-Time
-Entertainment
-Fitness
-People
-Health
-Family Fun
-Vogue

..jes to name a few..there is still much more..
..or buy sum BATH WORKS stuff?! ..((maybe this is more towards the ladies..or guys u can getcho girl sum stuff u know!))

-Strawberry Shortcake Bath Gel
-Soothing Lavender Body Butter
-Sweet Ginger Peach Body Lotion
-Relaxation Candle Set
-"Peace" Mini Spa Kit
-Basket of Bath Goodies
-Pamper Yourself Pedicure Set

please SUPPORT us so we can go to disneyland..get warm up suits..and get lettermen(s?) jackets?!! please! we need your SUPPORT! please IM me if u will thanks =)..yeah that bath works stuff is unfortunately NOT bath & BODY works..oh well...whatevah. sum bath crap. but im gettin myself a magazine....heyy...help me get 30 items ppl so my group can get a limo for 2 hrs!..c'm0o0n pleaase SUPPORT SUPPORT SUPPORT! if u love me u'll support me! oh but u must be able to actually give me the money u kno..like right then and there..so u must be around the neighborhood or able to meet up sumwhere or willing to come over mah hizZouse u kno! aroight

ne who track & field practice is getting wayy better well kiinda. still running kills me. hadta stop to walk for a couple times. but issalright..getting better..getting easier..today we kinda practiced the long jump..it's F-U-N!..even tho i'm not really gOod at it..it really is fun tah do...too bad i can't really jump far..i can't jump high either..at least i dont think so...bleh im not good at ne thing in track & field...oh well who cares..it's all bowt fun rahh...yeahh and then i'll make myself look stupid by being last place pwahha. yeah. ok. i'm really sore today..more than the other days

tfc is really annoying...well particularly cuz i hate the song that goes "i'm so cutie cute cute cutie cute cute" ERRRR I HATE THAT SONG with a passion!! wha dus that mean ne way? with a passion?!

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today was like ne other day..school school school...oh and i found this cool site where u can ask HITLER ne thing..it's tiiight u should go cheggit out ((click HITLER if u dint kno!))

ne who at track practice...it was pretty kew..like it's gettin kinda easier...i did stadiums..agen...TWICE!! yeeuuh. and remember lass time i got tired jes goin halfway. maybe its cuz i walked sum of it..but i mean i did my best goin up the stairs..cuz thats wha really matters..fesho..aroight...well thats all foe now..laterZz!

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omg watched passion of the christ today wit my mom and dad. it is such a sad movie..but i dint cry. i jes got the chills and was so devasted. it was sooo....woah. like how can they do such a thing?! so brutul..so unjust! i mean if u jes saw wha they used to beat him! omg it was disgusting and so hurtful! jes imagine if that was you. i wouldn't be able to take it man! and omg satan was frikken scary! gonna give me nightmares for life!! i knew it was a girl playing the part..man and those little kids..well it was actually the devil..omg that is so scary!! i believe in God and love Him tOo! fesho fesho =)

ne way, was planning to jog this morning b4 church...but i was tOo lazy and changed my mind..and went bak to sleep for another 30 min and woke up on my own ((oOhh skilllzz hahaha))....((i think i'll go up and down the stairs kinda like stadiums in a few min.)) so yeah went to church while bro went to ccd..then went to maharlika to eat lunch then went to mcdonalds so my bro could meet up wit his mentor..and i hadta stay dere wit him while my mom and dad bought tickets for passion of the christ. so yeahhh that was my day..end.

happy birthday jayrell!

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