today was CST Math testing. and i can honestly say i was practically sleeping the whole damnnn time!! like seriously, all i wanted tah do was get it done& over with. i guessed on like half of the problems. and i guessed on practically all but one for the CSU thing. damnn. hahaha i bet i did so bad. but i did try on it tho!! i think the 2nd part of the test was easier for me. but i could be wrong& have jes done so terribly. i bet i did. like man my eyes were so heavy. the only words goin thru my head..especially wit the last 15 problems was i wanna get this over with i wanna get this over with

ne wayy. after that. well who cares.

i went home. watched two episodes of passions. that shiit is gayy. hahaha they take forever to get to the point, i swear!! iono why i keep watching it. i kno why, i jes wanna see what'll happen in the end. blahhh. the writers suck!!!! then i went to sleep for the longest time. ok, not really. but it felt long. i was so tired. and i woke up so now here i am.

well gbye suckersss.

HAPPY BiRTHDAY SHAY!!

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i woke up this morning at exactly 6.30am. ..well i woke up physically..as for my brain& eyes it was still seeing the sun. uhh dus that make sense? well i dont care what you think.

drove to school. cuz i had no choice. i had my AP ENGLiSH LANGUAGE TEST today& it was pro hour& the test began at 8.55 ((well it dint really cuz yeno how it is..they never start on time!)).

as for the test..im not really allowed to discuss these matters with you becuz they're very strict. but i think i did ok on both the multiple choice& essays. i can only hope for the best and except the worst. i better get a frikken 3 dammit!!!!! i have confidence that i at LEAST passed!

then wen the test was over the stupid fuk'n receptionist ppl were being lil fukers and wouldn't let us go even if we had a note! they were being lil stupidheads& took like a fuk'n hour jes to get out! damn them! they hadta dial ev'ry1's fuk'n parents to verify that they let us leave early. stupidasses i say!! swear man, they piss me off!

but ne wayyy they finally let me go& since me& shaina parked in the bak we hadta take the long way so it wouldn't look like we were ditching. i brought mylene along with me& drove her home. but first we made a stop for GAS and man it was hilarious! i couldn't open the fuk'n gas tank thingy!! and neither could mylene!! but luckily there was a man nice enuf to help us and he opened our lil gas thing =] THANK YOU SO MUCH OLD MAN! and thenn we almost had trouble pumpin the gas cuz it would stop periodically but we..er mylene realized u hadta put a certain pressure on the handle. haha it was quite funny. im still not confident enuf to pump gas by myself. i'd die of embarassment X_x ..so after the gas place we went to JAMBA JUiCE at eastlake. got my mango-a-go-go. i have yet to find my favorite jamba juice flayvaa. but the mango's good too. we saw jaybea there. it was kinda embarassing cuz i looked all shiiiittyyy cuz first of all..we came from school ok..and if that's not dorky enuf..iM BREAKiN OUT like a muthfukaaa!! and my nose is all discolored. lol. and my face gets all shiny. ewwww. i jes looked all crappy& i knew it. so much for always lookin ur best. then we went to mcdonald's & got shaina's fries. i think that's her favorite. she says i drive slow but i say im followin the speed limit!& im on the slow lane! lol. there's a bunch of police cars over there& i dont wanna risk a ticket!

and then we went to MYLENE'S HOUSE at otay and dammnnn her house is HUGE! she has her own frikken bathroom! luuucckkyyyy. her house is sooo niiice! then after chillin there for awhile it was time to go home. &my car almost dint start again. my greatest fear. hahah. but shaina got the ignition to turn. sometimes i think my car jes dusnt like me. ideno man. i think it was issues. lol i sound psycho. ne waaayyysssss.

that was my day. catcha laterrrr!

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wow. i've discovered a really weird fact about myself. well iono how factual it is yet but i think i tend to be "friendly" towards ppls ex's er whatever they're called. its weird i kno. but it's happened once& we're like frenz now. and it seems to be happening again. it was a bit fuk'd up i'll tell you that but she seemed pretty nice about it to me. but there's so much on my mind that i cant get things straight. so meni things i hafta say but cant. cuz ev'rything's rushing in my mind all at once. well he didnt do this. he dint do that. i wanted to tell him anyway. he's gonna hate me. he deserved it. is he a playa. like i dont even kno how to explain.

besides, if someone really wanted to be with me..they would straighten things out with whoever they were with "before" right? they wouldn't lie. i've been so honest like never before & i think i deserve better than that. if you cant be honest about me to other ppl then you cant have me! cuz i need/want someone who ain't afraid to tell the truth& who will be honest with other ppl about me. especially if they said one thing to me..they should say it to whoever they're talkin about. i kno to you i may not be makin sense..but to the person who did this..well he knows. i mean who else right? right. if u sed it was over. make it over. dont say it to me, sayin it to me wont make it over. if you really wanted me, u would have made it over. but since you didnt, obviously u dint realllly want me. or perhaps you were confused? cuz u dint kno what you want? is that it? well you could have at least made it clear to us both of what exactly wha went on in ur mind. if you dont like me anymore, i can deal. you dont hafta try& not hurt me cuz either way it's still the same. it hurts. that's 99% guaranteed. ev'rythin i'm findin out makes it seem like ur sum sort of playa? is that so? i hate to believe it. afterall, i've known you for so long. and i never took you for that kind of person. i still remember..ahh damn. hahah i gotta stop myself before i get too detailed. but u dint even like the whole "pimp" idea..even tho i was only playin around& meant it in the "ghettoness" in which we live. yeahh that was stupid..haha butchu kno wha i mean. or maybe not. ahhh who cares.

mann i feel like such a loser bloggin this all up.hahaha. what kind of person am i?! well i guess i jes needed to let it out now. i'll tell it to your "face" sooner or later.

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yesterday: HAPPPPYY BiRTHDAY MYLENE!!!!

yesterday, me& shaina went to starbucks &studied for awhile. saw a couple ppl. saw leizl b. who i haven't seen in YEARS!!! it was kOo.

today im goin bak to starbucks cuz ms v's gonna be there& have an english review thing. afterall, my AP ENGLiSH LANG. TEST iS TOMORROW!. aahhhh X_x i cant believe it's so soon!!

well i've been reading the book HE'S JUST NOT THAT iNTO YOU. and it's really quite interesting. im like halfway done wit the book& i jes got it yesterday!! it makes things i've alredi thot of clear to me. :: if a guy cant make time for me..not even for like five minutes out of his very busy schedule then i aint got time neither. yeno, im busy tOo. but if we can both be busy& find a few minutes to get in contact with each other..then that'd be great! &if u aint man enuf to tell me ur not feelin it no more& u jes up& leave in any which way..then fine. YOUR LOSS

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HAPPY BiRTHDAY COURTNEY G.!!!
we go allll the way bakk, my friend. and soon we shall have a reunion! and chill together like it was before! hahaha i sound all retarded. but really tho i'm glad ur hear ur day is goin jes swell! that's the way it should be!!

went to starbucks for the AP review thaanng. it was arrite.

NAiR READY TO USE WAX STRiPS really work!!
i suggest you get em!!

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today wasn't a minimum day. it was a full schedule. and maaann it seemed like school was taking foreverrrrrr. i swear maann. i was like dying! X_x so i went thru school. blah blah.

then afterschool i went to ms love's tutoring. and i was plannin on goin to ms v's but then she went into ms love's cuz sadly no1 went to ms v's cuz we were all gonna go afterrr ms love's. but ne way we're having tutoring wit ms v again on sunday. at starbucks. be there or be square. hahah. so yeahh did all that tutoring stuff.

then me& shaina decided we needed to do more studying. so we went to the chula vista south bay library. it was funny cuz we were talkin bowt the same library but we dint kno it. so we ended up takin my long way i guess..and it was quite funny becuz i dint even kno where it was..like i was unsure..i jes remember vague streets& stuff. like i remember turning right at sum weird looking street. and fortunately i did find it. but then the route looked unfamiliar so i was like oh wtf i think this is wrong. so i turned left at the stoplight..not realizing that that was the same street& on my left was the library& i dint even notice it! so i turned right into a neighborhood to make a lil u-turn& talk to shaina& tell her to go to her library ((not knowin it was the same one!)) and she's all "isn't that the library?!" &i was like is it?! cuz i dint even see it! and to my amazement, i was right! my instincts were correct! so great. we found the library. and what happens next? it's frikken closed!! sheesh. what a waste of gas im like at that line below the 1/2 mark. sheeeze i aint go no more gass!! and i depend on my dad to fill up the tank! lol.

so we decided to jes study at her house. and i think we only really studied for like 30 minutes. but it was gettin good cuz we were doin AP US History terms from this glossary thing ms love gave us& i like doin that. it's the only thing i really like to study. hahah cuz ev'rythin else requires reading& stuff en im like ehh dont really wanna do that. so yeahh.

then i drove bak home at about 8:40& arrived home at 8:58. whoopdeedoo.
and now im here.

and tomorrow i have a dentist appt so i needa go do my nightly routine like now! ahhhh i DONT GET ENUF SLEEP!!

oh yeahh &before i forget i have a new PERSONAL CELL FONE POLiCY:
-if i'm at home& u call my cell i wont answer it. i'll call u right bak..if i recognize ur number
..so if i'm at home& ur too scared to call my house& decide to call my cell, u can either: let it ring a couple times then hang up, cuz i'll getchu bak ((unless i dont recognize ur number)). orrrr leave a voicemail.
-if i don't recognize ur number i wont answer it.
__the reason for this "policy" is so i waste less minutes. cuz i went from $60 down to $9 in practically 4 months. got in trouble. so if i try this $60 thing again, i wanna use it wisely. soo yeahh fools. thats my new policy. and it is put into place NOW

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..till the AP English Language test!!
went to tutoring for that today. it was jes me, leia, and grant. i feel a lil more comfortable now. yayy =] it was worth it. but man after that wen we went in the asb room i left my umbrella in there!! booooo.

oh and today i took the CST Chemistry test. shiit was lame. all tests are lame. i think i did ok. not the best. but i hope i at least gotta a pretty average score! average joe! ahha iono that was all random.

ne wayy i was thinkin bowt wha im scheduled to be doin nex year. and i've come to realize that if all works out as planned i'll be doin lotsa performing arts stuff: band, colorguard, and airband. along with my personal piano lessons on the side. now, thats pretty a lot if u ask me. but im actually lookin forward to it! but i jes hope my schedules dont conflict!

hmm dont u jes hate it wen a guy says they'll do something. and then they DONT. yeahh that gets on my nerves. if ur not gonna do whatchu say dont say it! it only brings false hope. we'd be a lot better off if you didnt say anything at all!!

well ne who, iono wha else i was sposed to say cuz im not in my blogging mindframe right now so yeah. later days!

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this morning before school started me& shizzaiinaa took a visit to Mr. Sacco's &asked bowt colorguard tryouts and my personal Performing Arts problem. ((yeahh CG dint count! stupid biitches!!)) ..so yeahh colorguard tryouts are May 7& 21 and i'll see YOU there!.

today was CST testing for 2nd period but i have computers 2nd period so i dint have a test. therefore, we worked on our animations the whole day. and duude the day went by so fast! i feel like i barely did anything!! i'm only on my 2nd muhfuk'n scene and only on the first steps of movement. maan it's gonna take forever. might hafta spend sum lunches in there!

and then at lunch i went to the counselor &tried to turn in sum ELC paper thing i was supposed to turn in months/days ago. i'll try again tomorrow cuz i was sposed to turn it into to another counselor &she wasn't there. but ne wayy i was at the counselors& told her bowt my P.A. predicament ((oohh big word)) &so she put me in concert band. i swear man freshmen year fuked me over. so iono if i'm still gonna take psychology but i really wanna take it!! uuggghhh. dammit!! then i went to pay for my AP test but like the window wasn't open or somethin &they weren't movin& shiit. so i left. but before that i signed up for airband yayyy 8)

and so then i went bak home. and im doin sum nursing school research. im so confused!!!!! i dont understand!!! i'm so lost!!!! hahaha so i tried emailin sum institutions ((ooh another big word)). only got a UCLA autoreply bak. that was whaacckk. i'm so unsure of a lot of things. i'm gonna die! iono wha tah do! X_x. wish me luck.

well tomorrow i might go to Ms. V's AP English tutoring. test is only a few days away!! so i might be able to drive tomorrow yayyy. the car besta work! hahaha. well see you ppls laterrr.

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