welp woke up early once agen to go to shaina's house. wen i wuz at shaina's i read up to chapter 4 of The Wedding ohh mann its good alredi...altho it dusnt seem to have ne romance thing goin on yet...it's so SAD..makes u think kinda..well it makes me think..cuzzz...yeahh..well i dont wanna say wha happened cuz SHAINA mite read this! hahah..so yep ne waise...

at practice today it wuz so frikken BORING..we dint even really do ne thing!...and pplz keep complaining cuzza the routine the coach taught us..((i hadta "teach" dem it but iono--this happened after lunch)) en like yeahh..oh en they were planning tah do a car wash en iono all this otha stuff....alyssa dint go!!..tsk tsk and i brought my FRENCH BOOK for NOTHING jes for HER! geeze. hah oh well. hmm ooHh yeah for lunch me and shaina ate spam and rice hahah it wuz koo. en dis morning she thot she had too much rice..turns out she dint have ENUF rice! pwahha. i told u, shaina! hahahaha....well ne waise after lunch we went to the field en did our litel formation thing..en the ppl at the bak so i hadta TRY en HELP THEM...but i dun think they got it..oh well...its cuz they weren't here yesterday so maybe they'll get it more after a couplea days after..if they get SERIOUS....then b4 we left..mr saaco wuz teachin the drumbois sum beats ((i think they're called cadences or howeva u spell it))....it wuz COOL it sounded soOOo coool! i wuz like oOoOohh

well yeah now im at home. bored like woah. ohh yeahh en at practice me en shaina were discussing possible careers for the future..shaina THOT she wanted tah be a pediatrician but her heart's not really in it...UNLIKE LIKE MINE! im being a PEDIATRICIAN! heck yeah! every1 knows i love little kids ((well if i dont hafta stay wit dem 24/7 if they're really bratty en annoying..but STILL!!)) hahah yep! hmmm yeahhh...iono we discussed lotsa intresting stuff..pwahhah. like afterskoo..but wen we were litel..hahah yeahhh..member wallball?! hahaha that wuz FUN!!
--yeah kae thats all for now so bye for now kiddos!

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life's only gay if u make it that way
hahah jes thot that sounded cool since it rhymed. en it dus kinda make sense riggh? well ne waise yeahhh im frusturated ((in a way)) yet....neutral...i dont kno wha i feel...so meni EMOtions at once...yet..im trynna START OVER and be "happy"...at least wit my personal life [slash/] social life..im trynna at LEAST jes be myself and not let things getta me en if sumthin bad happens i'll jes let it go cuz there's no point in holding myself down rite? i wanna jes be "happY" and outgoing ((er at least TRY to!))....and jes be the one to "cheer every1 up" or sumthin....YENO?! but i hafta work on myself first. jes accepting things the way they are. and realizing thats jes the way its gonna be..and i hafta learn how to not care so much bowt what other ppl think i kno thats gonna be one of the hardest things tah do but if i wanna be "happy" then i can't care what other ppl think. it really dus only matter what i think..and if i can do that then i believe i can be a more happier person. -it's jes iono where tah start. like..wha am i gonna hafta do? to change the way i am. bowt myself. my life. everything i feel. how will i do it? how will i start? i dont kno. but i'll jes see wha happens along the way en try tah stop myself wen i kno im doing what i dont want myself to. i kno i also can't let other ppl influence me into doing this i dont want to...or doing things at all en that it should be of my own decision. en i shouldn't be afraid to speak my mind..i mean..unless..yeah i hadta hold it in..like if they asked for my opinion en lotsa ppl like sumthin ((even frenz)) i hafta go wit wha i feel..not them. i kno im starting tah do that. still needs work tho. i dont hafta agree to the majority--yeah well jes needed to get that out of my mind en put it sumwhere. so i put it here. ok.bye.

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so today hadta wake up early to go to shaina's house ((she was still sleeping! left me out there for days! hahah..luckily her SISTER got the door!)) for colorguard practice..it wuz ok..jes learned sum setup step thingys out on the field...whew man imma have a hard time the first set..gotta take BIG steps for 16 counts..en lemme tell ya its pretty damn FAR for my litel legs! en i wuz walkin normally...but really im sposed to cross walk..((cuz im goin bakwords diagnoally)) deng man thats fxckin hard. --and mariel dint even go! that loser! hahah..well after that jes chilled while the band learned their steps. uhmm...then jes chilled. then it wuz lunch. saw the losers that go to intersession. pwahhahah. uhmm...i ate en apple for lunch...its not too easy eating an apple if u have braces! hah. so then after that went bak to the classroom. jes chilled for awhile. lookin over at other uniform options. but i still like ours :-) then we took pictures ((<--if u dint notice..CLICK to see PICTURES))....yeah then i went home en watched passions and ate spam en rice. then continued wit my hw for ms. love. en now here i am

--i also have pictures from my party..so yep

errrrr im BREAKIN OUT! this frikken sucks assHXLE! ne waise..man im really really tired rite now i think i wanna sleep. yeah. k. laterdudeS.

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went to church 2dae like alwaise =) en once agen, the priest spoke of the importance of children. remember this..this is what God sed: "amen, i say to you. for they are the ones who will enter the kingdom of heaven"....well sumthin like dat...meaning that..well Jesus loved children verrry much...en u kno how we alwaise seem so irritated en annoyed ((by children)) wen we're in a "bad mood"...well Jesus surrounded himself with children rather than pushing them away..think about it!...if every1 jes stopped to think of the children then maybe the divorces wouldn't happen so often..and jes maybe this world would be a better place...becuz ultimately the ones who suffer are the children...children aren't the ones having a war..the adults are. yeap. so remember the children!!

hmm so yep..then went to seafood city. i hate it there. but ne way. i got tired walking around. kept walkin and walkin. uhmm..mom saw one of her old frenz ((er my dad's actually))...who i dint see since i wuz 3 yrs. old!...((i dint even kno who she was. --i still dont really kno, by the way))...en yeahhh uhmm..then typical filipino talk when they see frenz' children they haven't seen..saying that "i'm big now" but i guess since she hasn't seen me since i wuz 3!!then she wuz like ((jokingly)) "she stuck up now??" en then my mom sed "yeah"!!! wth? hah i am NOT stuck up, arrite! geeze. ne waise...today's gonna be another BORING day....oh yeahh..i liked my hair today=)..pwahhah. cuz its actually NICE...well thats cuz i blowdryed it ((ahh killing my hair!))..2morrow i hafta wake up early..i think i sed this like for the millionth time...for colorguard practice...whoo..wonder what that's gon be like. wonder who's actually gon sho up. ppl besta remember man shoot! en i still hafta do hw! denggit. this is gay. maan last week of skoo nex week. that suckass...i dont wanna go bak to skoo!..ergh. oh well. whateva......so LIKE..thats it for now! LATER DAYS ::quik salute::

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so here i am. new nutang! hahah..cuz i got tired of gurl_chadis_cool so yupp..here's my new one =)

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well today was really boring. i dint nothing. and no1 wuz really online today. i cooked meatloaf! hahaha well kinda. it turned out very yummy. hmm..2morrow gotta go to church. nex week have guard camp...gotta wake up early..boohoo..en i still have homework..that sucks. --er its so boring WHERE IS EVERYBODY?! out having fun i bet. ::sigh:: ne waise...yeahhh jes needed tah kill sum time so i jes wrote in here. yup. k. CIAO ;)

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