My hands shaking
Heart racing
Blood thru my veins,
So fast it hurts.
I feel the pain,
Hold back the tears.
Feelings building inside,
It's only my fears.
They cause this madness,
Rushing thru my mind.
Calm down & find the wall,
I choose to stay behind.

Cause I can't be myself,
No matter what they say.
Behind the wall in my safe-place,
I'm practically forced to stay.

ok... so it's a work in progress. But do ya think it sounds ok??? I'm not sure -> I just jotted it down really quick & I'm not too good w/ the whole rhyming thing. PLZ COMMENT!?!?!? I wanna kno what u think.

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YES!!! I love this little pikkie thingy. It's sooooo tru about what I always say 2 ppl. And here is some of the little collection that I picked up tonight.








ok, that's all for the night. I've got loads more, but I don't wanna bore u to death. Love, Monkey

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Take the quiz: "What kind of teen are you?"

Multiple personalities!
YOU HAVE TWO PERSONALITIES! Welcome to my world! One side is nice and good and sweet. A perfect angel. That makes your other side sick. This other side is out to kill. It's your complete opposite. While you like cuddling with kitties or puppies, your other side is more fond of stabbing them with a knife and then drinking the blood. So hire a good exorcist and try to keep your other side under control when making some friends, cause I have a pretty good hunch you don't have many with your own personal Mr. Hyde (good book for you to read by the way). So I salute you, oh comrade of mine. You and your MULTIPLE PERSONALITIES.

I took the quiz again -> actually reading the questions this time and this (look up) was my results. The weird part is... yea I tend to be like 2 different ppl, but I have loads of friends. O yea... happy Thanksgiving every one. My day was really boring. The only person that I've talked to today that I'm not related to is Jr's g/f Cleo -> she's actually really kewl. She's going thru the same thing as me right now... she wants to go home (back to Hawaii) and so do I. I really wanna go back to Florida. And honestly... I ended up crying myself to sleep Tuesday night. Cause I was listening to Linkin Park's Hybrid Theory, and I used to listen to that when I sat out front or went walking around my old neighborhood. Ok, I'm bored. I might get to see Donovan again sometime this weekend, his mom suggested it to me when I called last night (Donovan wasn't home). I hope my mom lets me see him, cause James is probably gonna be going back to the hospital again. Well, I'm gonna go for now... whether I'll be back again b4 the night's up... I have no idea. Love, Monkey.

o yea... and I did my fourth holes on monday night and I'll probably be piercing my ear again at the top. Whether it's my left ear again below the first one or my right ear I'm not sure, but I kno I won't get in trouble for it cause it'll be w/ the peircing gun thing that Cheryl got.

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Why is it that I have trouble writing an entry w/o putting in a topic... yet I have trouble coming up w/ a topic? I find that really weird-> i dunno why, but I do. Ok... today was kool (besides the fact that Seth wasn't there). Me and Mitch got a lot closer @ lunch today -> *-LoL-* he figured out that he can pick me up and I don't try to stop him.... actually I don't even mind. I also found out that he costs 10 cents.... don't ask, yea lunch is crazy. I've given up on fighting ppl when they pick me up, cause most of the guys that I hug pick me up.
And today after school I spent most of my day at the park talking to Steven. Went over to his house for like... 5 minutes so he could get his sweater, then went back to the park. When mom came out {just after 6} and called Matthew, Jr., and me inside I kinda told Steven that I like him. Cause at one point he had said that it would be like a one in a thousand chance that a chick that isn't younger then him.... younger as in not in high school yet -> would like him. I hugged him b4 I came inside and kinda whispered, "You said one in a thousand... right?" , smiled, then came in. I dunno if he caught on to what I meant or not... but I kinda hope he did. Just so he knows. Well, I'm gonna go and surf thru a few sites. Goodnight.

Love Ya!!!, Monkey

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It's raining today.... poopy. I was hoping to see Steven today, but I guess I just gotta wait till tomorrow. (if not @ school then i'll probably see him after.) I finally got to see Joe! Or at least a picture of him; doesn't look half bad either . Last night was funni. Me and Ashley were outside until just after 6 "playing spies." We were running around saying that everything was suspicious ans we weren't supposed to smile or laugh or say something wasfun/funni. It was sooo beyond weird. And there was like 5 different murder cases. She ended up having to go inside cause her mom was home & she was supposed to be home b4 her mom. So I ended up staying out down at the park and talking to Nick and Christian about stuff. And today has been nothing special... all cause of the rain. Well, goodbye for now. Love ~> Monkey

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You cut yourself because you are constantly forced
to act like you are someone else. Chances
you're a Borderliner, maybe you're just afraid
of losing people. You try to be what your
friends and family want you to be, so they
won't leave you. And you look like it's the
real you, and you are very good at deceiving
people, but late at night, when you are all
alone, you take all the anger and frustration
out on yourself.


What Kind Of Cutter Are You? (~TrIgGeRiNg~ pics)
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~>~>~> the sad thing is... this is true <~<~<~

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