mood: bored/tired
listening to: JZ/LP (Collision Course)

Ya kno what really sux? I've been on the computer so much lately that I don' even kno what to do. It's 2 am and I'm freakishly bored listening to the jz/lp cd. It's actually pretty good. ('nd it's funni listening to them mix songs w/ the music.) I'm hungry... but thennagain what else is new? (lol) I'm always hungry... but right now there's like nothing to eat. This is a major suprise to me. Ya kno how sumtimes when u think about something sumtimes you associate it w/ a smell? Well that's what I do alot of times... mainly w/ one person: CJ. Iono y, but I've been thinking about him alot lately... I don't really hate him anymore (or at least it doesn't feel like I do). Actually it's almost like i miss him. I kno he hurt me really bad and all... but I'm seriously begining to miss him again. Just sitting here at the computer the past few nights I've realized that a faintly familliar scent cames across.... cigarettes mixed w/ a really nice cologn. Yea, that was his smell. Maybe it's cause I've been listening to Linkin Park while I'm online. We used to walk around the neighborhoods & he'd have his cd player and we'd be listening to Linkin Park... Hybrid Theory or Reanimation. I guess that the whole missing him thing is also y i still can't listen to Crossroads (Bone Thugs 'n Harmony) w/o crying. I remember the day I went over to his house and he led me into his living room and put that cd in his sterio on Crossroads and said that he was listening to the cd the night b4 and when that song came on he thought of me and really wanted to be w/ me but couldn't cause it was so late. {that was b4 I started going out @ night} Does all this mean that I still have pretty strong feelings for him? I'm fucking confused about it all.... u would've never guessed would u? <- sarcasm. Am i the only person that's gone thru this? I mean... this is way more then just mixed feelings and major confusion. I'd describe it as worse then major confusion, back-fired feelings/ thoughts, and me being completely clueless and even scared about it. What if I go to Fla to visit and he's back there and we run into eachother? Last i heard he was back in florida I told Sean, Abe, Jonathan, and all of then to tell him that if he came around me he best watch himself... and if he tried anything on me that I'd kill him. That whole month I never left my front yard w/o my knife. Yes... I even brought it to school most of the month. (but not the whole month cause I was afraid of getting caught.) Maybe I'm just getting mixed up w/ all that's going on. I'm not sure, but I actually do really care if I do still care about him... I mean-> it's not like there's a 90% chance that I'm ever gonna see him again, and if I do who says we'll recognize eachother... right? I think I've dragged on about my confusion and lost feelings long enough. I'll end now for your sake -> ur probably about to fall asleep... if not then I'm actually kinda suprised. Goodnight.... ok, well goodmorning since it's 2:30. <3 Monkey

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B:

Your Beauty lies
in Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl next
door. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actually
very beautiful. And you have plenty about you to
set you apart, but more that
lets you blend. People love the stability you have
because as others may come
and go, you will always be there and you may always
be the same. You like simple
things and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things most
consider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort
of thing and are very friendly
and probably have many friends. You are sweet and
kind and that shows on you,
but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a
rather well-rounded
individual. Even though some people pass you off as
just another girl, shrug it
off because they don't know what they're
missing.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color:
Pinks, Blues, Browns Song:
Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple
Smile

Gemstone:
Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox
Demon, Hobbit Planet: Jupiter Hair
Color: Light Brown Eye Color:
Brown

Quote:
"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."

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You are an angel!
Positive-
You are sweet, kind, and gentle.
Negative-
You are sensitive and can be hurt easily.


What is your inner magical being??? lots of results and all that good stuff!!!!!
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ok, sorry all about my quiz-craze. I went thru quizilla on most of this one girl's quizzes and liked the results/ pictures... so i put them on here. Plus I was bores and it was three in the morning. Of course it's only been an hour... but i'm not throwing any more on here. Night.... or morning. <3 Monkey

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You are a cat woman. You are independant and very
self-rigious. You have a mind of your own and
are not afraid to show it. You tend to hide
your true feelings and get frustrated (easy).


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you represent the dreams in life. you are laid back
and also dream alot.


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You have a beautiful soul. You are helpful and are
kind. You put others ahead of you. You are
bound to get far! You tend to put yourself
second though and that's not good either.
People sometimes take advantage of you and you
don't want to want them to know that you know
so you act as if nothing is going on. Don't let
people walk all over you; draw the line. But
over all you are a very nice person. ^_^


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