My eyes are leaky tonight and I have no clue as to why. O well... maybe it's the candles. Mom's at work, I'm home alone and I have all the lights off and two candles lit. It's really pretty, but I don't think I'm supposed to have them lit. Damn, I'm sitting right by one and it's starting to get really warm. I want 9 to come so I can use the phone ~ as it stands I think I just barely went over my minutes... but I'm not sure. I sure as hell hope I didn't, cause I don't wanna lose my cell phone; but if I did then I blame it on Chris cause he ws calling me so much. O yea, and haha!!! Tony rejected him and now he keeps telling me how much of a mistake he made breaking up w/ me and how much he misses me being his girlfriend. Oh well, it was his choice and he chose "bye-bye" so he lost me. Taylor knows I'm single again and so he's already started trying to get at me again. I'm still working up courage to meet James. He's way taller then me; I realized that at lunch today. Cause I went up to get my sub and he was in that line right by me.
When I first got to school I got a really nice greating -smiles-. I walked into school and hugged a couple people and said hi and then Seth came out into quad. So I went over and said hi to him. I hugged him and he said "Well, you look really pretty today. And you smell really good too." Cause I have my hair up a way I've never had it b4 (i wore it as an experiment today) and I had just put on perfume. I also have a really strong feeling that this guy Juilan from my chorus class likes me. We have PE the same period and whenever our classes are together (outside or in the gym) I notice he stares at me a lot. Or maybe it's cause durring PE I'm with more of my friends then in chorus, and so I act more like the hyper chick that I really am and he might be a bit weirded out by it. And in PE there was this really hott new guy (hottie emo skater look)so Sadie went up to talk to him just for the hell of it. {and we were in a state of pure and complete boredom} All we did was say hi and ask him his name and he didn't even look at us. When I asked him his name he just walked away. He walked away!!! Now if you as me... that's fucked up. Okay, well I'm gonna go and do my algebra homework and stuffs. GOODNIGHT!!! ((hugs)) Love, <3 Monkey

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And if you know what I mean by the title I know what you're thinking, but at least I was gonna wait to do anything till tomorrow. But noooooooooooo, he just had to do it today b4 I could. And the pic thingy ~ Erik you know what I mean by it. And for every one else who doesn't know... it's aimed toward the guy on the football team that I wanna meet. But I don't want to just go up to him, lose my voice or don't know what to say, and walk away embarassed and looking like even more of a fool/freak then I am. I dunno if it's good or bad, but I'm kinda just waiting for him to say hi. Or just as it says; for him to notice and just smile back. But hey, can't really hope for a miracle now can I? I've given up on "my" miracles. Right now I'm just really happy for Erik and Sadie. And who knows what's gonna happen to me. I mean, now I don't have anyone holding me back from doing anything... so now I can flirt and I can do stuff w/ Kittie (kissing w/o anyone getting mad at me). Okay, well I'm gonna go ~ it's almost nine and I owe Erik a call back. Skrew Chris... if he does call then I'm probably not gonna answer. Goodnight ~ Monkey
% o, and Aimee - no I didn't catch the blue collar the other night. I'll catch it in a rerun sometime tho. %

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Right now I'm hyper and bored... and I want beef jerky. I also wanna talk to somebody, but no one's on at 3:30 in the morning... 6:30 in Florida. x.x Boredom................ya gotz ta love it. NOT!!! YAY!!! Mommy's kicking me off the computer cause she's tired! lol ~ Goodnight

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Okay, I have a myspace now. But I'll only give it to u if you really have nothing better to do cause I don't think I'm gonna be going onto it much. Myspace is just nothing like this and... well it's weird and I don't like it. Anywho... today was weird for me. I was fine b4 school, and durring first period. But when I got to second period I sat down and went to do my study guide and I couldn't concentrate at all. I felt really quiet, and almost depressed... and the freaky part to me was that I my hands just kept shaking. I left class after about 10 minutes & went to the bathroom and splashed water on my face. I was kinda hoping to see Chris too.... I thought that if I talked to him it might help a bit. I would've gone by his class... looked thru the door to get him out, but I don't really know exactly what class he was in. It didn't get much better till lunch. Lunch was insane, cause it was raining... and I think it still is. (It has been since before I woke up this morning.) I'm gonna go. <3 Monkey

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I dunno, so... what's up? Right now my thoughts are already set on Monday. Probably another V-tine's that I spent sitting in a corner upset and alone while everybody else is happy and "in love." Yup, just like every V-tines for the past 4 years. I know, that's pretty damn sad. I just don't have too much luck w/ relationships, I guess that's why. But right now I'm not sure if Chris is moving or not... I'll find out over the weekend probably. Today wasn't really anything special... except after school. At 2:30 was the hacky sac tournament... I'm not sure who won what, but Stephanie L won endurance. I was sitting up on the wall w/ Seth, Erik, Nicole, and Sadie the whole time pretty much. Walked home w/ Sadie and Erik, had some weird conversations. Then after being home for a while I went outfront cause Van was out there skateboarding and while I was out Erik and Sadie came back. Just so I could hang out w/ them, cause I couldn't leave Matthew inside alone, I took Matthew to the park and hung out for a while. It was alot of fun. Ok, well I'm gonna go. So, goodnight. <3 Monkey ((hugs))

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