Whoa.... have u ever gotten bored and just started listening to music randomly? Well that's what I started doing yesterday & I figured out that I really like A Perfect Circle. My fav. song is Counting Bodies Like Sheep to the Rythem of the War Drums. Well, my day was pretty blah. The only new thing is that now I'm admitting that I do like him, even tho I've only told a couple ppl. Well, I've g2g. Night. <3 Monkey

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This weekend was pretty boring. Yesterday I didn't do anything other then lay around, watch tv, and do homework. Yes, I actually did my homework. I even started writing a story. I haven't gotten much, but I'm gonna be adding more on tonight when I get off. So.... here's just the first bit that I have. It might not be the greatest thing in the world, but it's what I felt like writting.

She was terrified of going to school the next day, because she knew what she had done, and she knew it was wrong. Her fears built up inside, as she sat cradling her crimson drenched arm. The seering pain suddenly hit again, as the blood returned. She didn't want to resort to her cravings, but Alexandria couldn't handle the pain any more. The fuse on her internal bomb ran short. And she just exploded.

Sawing away at her arm she could feel her flesh tearing. Layer by layer. And her pain was eased as the blood came. Appearing from beneath the blade. She tore at her skin viciously. Again and again, until her entire arm was engulfed in a shimmering crimson. When all was emptied of hate and her frustration was gone. Alex sat in the middle of the room, and cried as the carpet around her turned from white to a bright puddling crimson.

A sudden 'ring' shattered the silence filled with tears and barely existant sobs. Slowly Alex pulled herself to the phone. She picked up the phone and brought herself to a whispered "hello?"
"Hey Al." It was Bobby,"How're ya?"
"I'm fine I guess. Why?"
"Okay, what's wrong? He's there again isn't he?"
"Uh..." Alex peered through the blinds out the window. "Uh, yeah he is."
"Alright, I'll be over soon."
"No! Bobby wait!"

It was too late, he had already hung up.

Well, that's it for now. What do ya think? Should I keep writing or is is not worth working on still? Please comment! Love, Monkey

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blah -> that was my day. AND I WANNA BITE SOME ONE DAMNIT!!!!!!

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today was..... bla. I have no other way to explain it. It was fun at some points, boring at others. Pretty much the fun time was lunch & P.E. Cause in P.E. we didn't have to dress out and we got to play volleyball. I've gotten alot better at volleyball, so playing is really fun. hmmmm..... i wonder if the background thingy will work. Well, that's pretty much it..... so byez for now! Love, Monkey

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Cutting. Your depression can be found lingering on
the edge of a razor. An easilly hidden little
habbit that's often used as a subsitution for
crying. The blood is surprisingly hypnotic...


How do you deal with your depression?
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not anymore tho.... especially not w/ my promise to Mitch today. He had good reason behind his reason for my stopping.

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I'm not sure which I should do... but I'm doing my best to keep a smile becasue we are friends(Steph and me). And as I watch from a far I wanna be w/ her even more.... when we're hanging out, I feel like she owns my heart & my mind. And yea... Steph gave me another note today. Basically saying that she's sry & that she didn't want to hurt me. She also said she did it cause she thought it was the best thing & she wants me to be happy. oOoOo... I like this song. Breathe No More from Evanescence's new cd. I've gotta get this cd.
I think I'm kinda going insane for my emotions right now.... cause I cry over even the littlest things and I have no idea why. Maybe it's cause along w/ what's going on right now the past and everything I miss is slowly creeping up on me too. I dunno.... I talked to Mr. Cooper about it the other day and kinda gathered myself a bit. But last night I just fell apart again, so I guess it was kinda useless. All in all I am losing control of myself slowly... and I don't kno how to regain it either. I hate this soooo fucking much. I'm putting a poem thingy on my gallery that I think is really sweet.... and a funni quote thingy too. So check em out if ya want. The poem thing fits how I've felt lately, and the quote just made me laugh. Well, I'm gonna go for tonight... I'm glad I got time to put a desently long entry on here for once. Goodnight *hugs* Love, Monkey

and nvm about the poem thingy.... it won't show up big enough to be readable. The quote thing is there tho

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