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 MidnightMonkey Age. 18 Gender. Female Ethnicity. freak ^.^ (aka~ me) Location North Las Vegas, NV School. Other » More info.                                | (it's really early in the morning...) (... I'm tired but if I wanna sleep I have to sleep on the couch...) (... and I'm depress-ed and lon-e-ly) Yea ~ I would be in bed right now cause I've been falling asleep since around midnight. But I just had to rearrange my fucking room. And afterwards David and Kevin came over, wanting me to go chill w/ them for a while so I ended up leaving my room a mess. And then David called me around 10-ish and fucking wouldn't let me go so I could finish cleaning up my room and go to sleep. Now there's still shit all over my bed and if I push it all onto the floor I'll get in trouble. Cause then my mom wouldn't be able to get to my bed to wake me up in fucking 2 or 2 and a half hours to babysit. They're lucky that I'm not complaining this time. (my parents are bitches for what they did to me...) (... I don't care if he had to go to the doctor) Monday ~ 20 June. I was woken up around 9 something so that I could babysit Matthew. Monday was also Anthony and my one month. It was also the last day I'd be able to see him until sometime in the middle of next month... but no, they had to go to the doctor's and make me watch Matthew until they got home. If they hadn't then I'd've probably gone over to Anthony's house around 12:30 or 1 and spent the day there. Instead I was stuck at home... and he had to go bring Chase his bike back *he stopped by on his way there though* and then he had to go get a haircut. So I ended up at Stephie's house for half an hour or so. Then went home to beg my mom to let me out until 6:30 so I could go see him before he left to his grandma's. (the TV just had to break that day) I lost my laziness and ran to his house so I'd have as much time as possible with him... and I don't run. I only got half an hour though. It sucked... I didn't want to leave his house. I just wanted to stay there in his arms forever ~ or at least until he had to leave. Just laying there on the couch with him ~ I almost cried. I felt bad about it cause I didn't want to make him feel bad so I held back until I left. I wish I could've just stayed... or that he didn't have to go to Texas at all. (he'll be back either July 12 or 13) (I hope time goes by quick... then slows down when he gets back) That night though, even though he was at his grandma's, he called me at about 9:45... I'd called him about 20 minutes before but he was fixing the TV. But we talked until just after 6am. I fell asleep a couple times durring the 8-ish hours... I just hope he didn't notice. (It was nice to be woken up by his voice) (...... if only he'd really been here) Now I wanna talk to him, but when I went to call him I wasn't sure if he'd be asleep or not cause it was 10 or 11 *12 or 1 in Texas* and that's when David called me. And what really sucks is I tod David I'd help him out tomorrow and now I don't know if I'll be able to or not cause I have to babysit... I just thought of that. Damnit! Okay, it's all falling apart now ~ it's official. (and Steph's gonna be leaving tomorrow) (unless their plans have changed) (... yea, I'm losing my lover ~ she's moving to Texas) It'd be funny if her and Anthony ran into eachother while Tony's down there. I know that I'd get at least one call about it. Hell... Steph would probably call me right while he was still standing there w/ her. "I see your boy-toy." Just like she did monday. She called me on her way home to tell me that she saw Anthony by my neighborhood... then she told him to get his ass down to my house. (... yea, that was while I was babysitting) I want to say it but I'm afraid to. I'm afraid that it's all gonna go wrong like it always does if I do. So... yea. Oh well ~ I'm gonna go. It's thunder and lightning outside.... I think I was right, it's gonna start raining since he left. Night all... loves ~ I'll be back later. *~>ANTHONY'S MONKEY<~*  Comment! (0) | Recommend! another one Monday. 6.20.05 3:24 pm City's breaking down on a camel's back. They just have to go 'cos they dont hold back So all you fill the streets it's appealing to see You wont get out the county, 'cos you're bad and free You've got a new horizon It's ephemeral style. A melancholy town where we never smile. And all I wanna hear is the message beep. My dreams, they've got to kiss, because I dont get sleep, no.. Windmill, Windmill for the land. Learn forever hand in hand Take it all in on your stride It is sticking, falling down Love forever love is free Let?s turn forever you and me Windmill, windmill for the land Is everybody in? Laughing gas these hazmats, fast cats, Lining them up-a like ass cracks, Ladies, homies, at the track its my chocolate attack. Shit, I'm stepping in the heart of this here Care bear bumping in the heart of this here watch me as I gravitate hahahahahahaa. Yo, we gonna go ghost town, this motown, with yo sound you're in the place you gonna bite the dust Cant fight with us With yo sound you kill the INC. so dont stop, get it, get it until you're cheddar header. Yo, watch the way I navigate Windmill, Windmill for the land. Learn forever hand in hand Take it all in on your stride It is sticking, falling down Love forever love is free Let's turn forever you and me Windmill, windmill for the land Is everybody in? Dont stop, get it, get it we are your captains in it steady, watch me navigate, ahahahahahhaa. Dont stop, get it, get it we are your captains in it steady, watch me navigate ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I could listen to this song for hours. I dunno, something about it... I just like it. Comment! (1) | Recommend! clickables Monday. 6.13.05 4:26 pm I'm gonna miss you Chris Saturday. 6.11.05 1:22 am I sit Friday. 6.10.05 9:46 pm Thoughtless toward why I'm here Clueless as to what's going on now Another mindless blur As again I'm torn apart. A love within me burns For each and every one Yet slowly the flame dies out As again I'm torn apart. Your words, to me, cause confusion Since you've always been there My calls and cries always answered by you Until now you throw me away A mere piece of your past now As again I'm torn apart. So you've pushed me away Again and again Yet now I've had enough! For again you shall seek my forgiveness And forgiveness I shalln't give As I build myself back up. Each time you drag me down With one apology accepted Shall now be never given You'll return as always with the excuse Of this or that in your life As I build myself back up. I find the strength within me And shalln't allow you to tear me apart again I've built myself back up A mindset not including you Turning you away now As you come crawling back will be no problem As I am again one piece. WITHOUT YOU! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ so I guess I truely have found my center, that I don't need him anymore. Give him time with his girlfriend, tho he'll still have to deal with me since her and I are friends. Things between me and Anthony are going fine, and getting better and better. His dad said he'll probably be back sometime tomorrow night from his aunts house. O yes, and we've moved again. The third time in less than a year. Well I'm gonna go ~ figured I'd update since it's been ages since last I took the time to. Loves to all of you, Monkey Comment! (1) | Recommend! |
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