Damn cold, windy, icky weather to Hell!!! I hate it so so so so so so so much! I think I'm getting sick again, mom thinks it might just be allergies. I dunno, but it's horrible. My throat is all scratchy and my voice isn't it's usual sound. I got off the phone with Chris not too long ago and he said that he might come over, but he looks nasty cause he fell off his skateboard yesterday. Just bruises for the most part, but he said his face is pretty messed up too. Oh well... I'm gonna go. I just woke up not too long ago. And I might be able to fall asleep on the couch if I'm lucky. (I would go to bed if I wasn't babysitting.) <3 Monkey

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Okay, well I'm a bit better now. Hmmm... it's been like half an hour since Jimmy left. He came over to see if Jr was home yet... cause he was supposed to be home around 10 and it was almost 10:30. I didn't even let him say anything at first... I just told him Jr wasn't home yet and went to close the door. Something told me not to tho... so I didn't. And we ended up talking and actually making up. Obviously... he came over at about 10:30 and I ended up pushing him out the door when I heard the car pulling into the garage at about 10:50. Jr thinks it's "cute" that we made up... I find it as a bit of a hit of guilt cause of everything I said. And what went on before he came over, when Kittie, Rikki, Chris, and all them were here. I'm actually kinda glad we made up. But there's still the whole factor of Chris coming over tomorrow... and I'm not too sure about that. Or what I'm gonna do about this whole thing. I mean... it's not like I'm going against anyone cause I'm perfectly single. But I still feel a bit guilty. Well I'm gonna go. <3 Monkey

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well, at least for the most part it was. The only bad part was me deciding to tell James (Jimmy) exactly what all was on my mind about him and how I felt. So, basically.... that he's an asshole and that if he's gonna be an ass toward me then I'm gonna be a bitch to him. Just plain out, that's how it works. Anywho... to the funner parts... before school was nothing special... I hung out w/ Seth and all my other crazy friends as usual. (Maxi's shirt was awsome! It was a zip-up... and all she had on underneath it was fishnets.) Classes were pretty normal. I got to grade tests in 2nd period... so I gots extrama credit in there now... and I'm not quite sure what my overall grade is in there. Fourth was kinda boring but still kinda fun cause me and Tori joke around in there. Okay, so skrew school... it was just another day in school. The pep ralley at the end was stupid. (-haha- one of the dancers fell on her fat ass!!!) Then after school it wasn't too great, cause of the whole Jimmy thing. But just about an hour ago I got visitors. Kittie called and said she had a suprise and that she'd be over soon. When she got here she knocked and so I went outside for a couple minutes. She brought over anthony and a bunch of his friends (I was the only one not stoned out there.) And I knew one of them from lunch cause he works in the kitchen... but he was the only one I recognized when I first walked out (his name's Rikki). Then guess who I saw...CHRIS!!! My ex like... 3 times.It's so kewl seeing him again. He still likes me too. I think that's a bit weird tho, but o well. I'm used to that cause Taylor still does too... or at least it really seems like he does. Thennagain it probably seems like I still like him so... I really can't say anything. Well, I'm gonna go at least for now. Wuv-oo! Monkey And he said that he might be over more often now that he has his blades. And... I think I finally got the glowie-ish thingy to work... and if it does, isn't it just soooo kick ass?

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Gir!!! I'm here all by my lonesome ~ and I'm freakishly bored by it too!!! I hope this thing works... if not then oh well. This is supposed to ba all 'shadowie-ish' and kewlionessful looking. Dude... damnit! I have to go to bed in like 5 minutes... so not cool. I don't wanna go to bed tho ~ I'm not tired!!! Okay, well I'm gonna go and mess around w/ some stuff for a while. Hope this works!!!! Night; Love, Monkey

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It looked better on the camera... but this is a pic Erik took of me like... a week or two ago. It was during one of our many late night conversations out on my back porch. I love sitting on the wall ^.^ it's actually really comfortable. But yea, it's not exactly what I look like (I'll try to get a better one) but now no one can yell at me that I need to post my pic anymore.





O yes... and the headphones/ wire that you see ~ I stole Erik's mp3 and was listening to Voodoo ^.^ I love that song. Or maybe it was Arms Wide Open (best/ most memorable song by Creed ever to me.)
And no it wasn't 6:33





and this one was just earlier today... I figured I'd add it onto here just for the hell of it

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Okay, lately things here have gotten a lot worse. My parents found out about me and James (Jimmy) being, kinda, in a relationship and they got mad and now I'm not even supposed to talk to him. They also found out that night that I've still been cutting... just hiding it all under my wristband. It's been about a week now since my last (the night that they found out about him and I), but I still see the scars and..... yea. Anywho; as well as that I feel like I'm slowly losing all of my friends. Whether they're here or in Florida it doesn't matter ~ just a major feeling that I get. Erik and Sadie are officially over now, after going out twice, and since they've been apart Sadie suddenly want's to be my friend again now that she doesn't have to worry about him and I doing anything. I don't see why she seriously suspected me of anything in the first place... she just turned to a complete bitch and I'm not ready to become her friend again. Plus I'm kinda becoming my usual flirty self again and I'm not too sure if that's good or not... cause James and I aren't too sure if we're still together cause of our parents and us being the reason of my family and his family (our moms to be more specific) fighting. Well I'm gonna go ~ I don't really know what else to put on here and I'm gonna add onto my other blog.
Luvoo!
Monkey

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