why is that everywhere i go i see things in pair?
why do i feel so out of place being single?
whats so wrong about it?
i feel like leaving civilisation for awhile.really.

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thanks to jx,melvin and hari who came over to resurrect my com,
even though jx ,hari and i are busy taking pictures the whole time lol.

you must be wondering what i've been up to PC-less.
i've been watching lots of movies and tv,went for interviews::im starting work next week::got a haircut and my eyebrowns trimmed,clubbed last nite,basically alot of vcds.

i just found out arts central show japanese cult anime late at nights *sparkles*, and i found my new love....bollywood movies....*brighter sparkles*

yes..im surprised by their production scale...they have got great plot, funny lines, awsome music, and yes! kickass dancemoves,but what i loved most is the thick indian culture injected in the movies.the indians knows their music more than us i tell you...

the two bollywood movies i watched today: Munnabhai MBBS and oscar nominated Lagaan, i watched the latter before, and i can say its my fav indian movie.someone please catch it pls....so i wouldnt look weird enjoying an indian movie..the next bollywood movie i wanna catch is Bride and Prejudge.any takers???

caught two jap movies, Hanna and Alice,Quill.
i cried my eyes out on Quill.i dont rememeber crying so hard every since my grandfather passed away LOL.in fact i think i cried harder than that.hahah
i watch free willy i cried, sames goes with lassie, bingo, wild africa or sumthing which features two cheetahs.i cant watch any shows that gotta do with animals dying.i can die.

one thing i hate abt my newly reformatted hard drive...i lost my photoshop!!!!!!
ARGHH!!!bear with all the badly paintshop processed pics until i can find a copy of photoshop.



::me makeupless, acting stupid::


::screen shots from the movie quill which make me cry buckets::


Maybe to you he's just a dog, but to him you're everything.He has no control of his life or destiny,you are the one who control them.i dont know but if i have the power to change his life, ill make sure he has a great one.

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My com is down.again..

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im done with the trial, waiting for the death sentence.

life is all about trial and errors.somtimes i feel like shouting out loud.whats' wrong with failures?! wats wrong if things screwed up!?its not like i murdered someone and got death penalty!? even if i did i can always pull the renee zellweger stunt in Chicago!LOL!

well..i know deep in me i wont get killed with my constant failures.it's the thought of letting your love ones down thats so fatal.im someone who seriously wouldnt give a fuck about what everyone thinks and feels about me,who are you? this is my life not yours, so much as i hate living for others and the society, the thought of mums disappointed face just kills every single living cells in my body....

at the end of the day, i still cant live life my way.....or can i?


visuals from last sun lol...i know it comes abit late.
i need a haircut.urgently.and someone please tie my right hand.
kejin adorably pretty as always, yanli getting so errie,she's starting to look like sun yan zi to me::who happens to be her all time fav idol::and ruiyi,the pearly royalty for the night.

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taking a break in my sch library.stupid noono is not working again.absolutely stupid.

just heard on the radio america had re-elected mr bush as their president.i cant quite put a finger on whether i like bush or anot.he acts like a cowboy to me.it's proven in surveys that woman voters like kerry while men vote for bush.im in the statistics too.i prefer kerry.maybe its our woman instinct,kerry looks less stupid.

okay im not into politics,but i know america is the world's most powerful country,
so is the president,someone who can end sufferings and saves lifes in the world.however the people who are going to decide who the most powerful man is are the americans.and i feel that americans lead a relatively shletered life to even know what sufferings is.i just hope they made the right choice.its not just a president,he can just affect whether a afgan child get to eat that day.

okay...i hope i wont get bombared with comments like what do you slit eyes shit who eats every part of a pig and lives in china knows anything abt elections.
okay firstly i dont have slit eyes,..i love to have them though,almond eyes..like lucy liu! secondly im a singaporean,singapore is near australia and nowhere near china, not all chinese lives in china.and lastly,i do eat every part of a pig.haha try the intestines they are niceeeeeee...i shld join fear factor.lol
but most importantly guys im not racist! *peace*

okay i shld get back to the books.

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i want to publish a book "Bloggin for Dummies:How to make them stop and read"
LOL
im working on it.
one of my findings: more pics, less text ::guilty of tat?::

anyway back to studies tml.

gonna sleep...goodnight

*jk uoy knaht*

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First of all gotta wish ruiyi happy 20th birthday....and then my bestie...happy....hmm happy sumthing day! *wink*

everything happened so fast i dunnoe how to react! lol feels like a father giving away the daughter down the aisle.hahaha

Its feels really weird how things around me are going at a highway speed while i'm still on my little bicycle.i looked at ruiyi and the girls today, they have experienced so much since the moment we left the table at crystal jade last year for ruiyi's birthday.yes i may have my fair share of thrills but they are just pebbles on the curb compared to their roller coaster big humps.

i would be lying if i say i dont feel left out, but aside that evil feeling im truly happy for everyone.*i swear* *shompa* espo my bestie::he's simply a sweet chocolate muffin being drop onto ur dinner table.lol!::

i never like to think ahead ::other than planning my work schedule for the following week:: i just hate to think about the future cuz whenever i did, somthing terrible will happen without fail.and judging from the current situation, the further more i hate thinking about whats ahead of me.i might me a walking tragedy waiting to happen.i dont know...i find it really hard to put down all my feelings in words the past few days,and i wonder why the glint of happiness whenever its time to go home.
maybe its because my current attidude

when you dont know wats gonna happen tml, when you dont even know how you're going to feel and think tml,why bother to say and explain anything that might just change in another 24 hrs time?

i'll update the pics from the birthday later!

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As you can see, im undergoing intensive photoshop training from this secret shifu heheh.Met up with kj for awhile..
*embedded message*
!etuc si lesnah


this is one of my fav qoutes...

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the eternal optimist is down today

she knows she had let everyone down

she feels like a terminally ill cancer patient whos living to die

she never believes in god but herself

and she still does

but today is exceptionally hard

she should have know it earlier

please dont console her

she dont deserve it

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