i never know my life will be turn upside down in a week...

last week was one of the worst in my life

im so overwhelmed i cant put them into words...anyway it doesnt matter anymore

i survived.

thanks to all my friends...i seriously will just die from my illness if you guys weren't here.


you all know who you are. thank you.

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its been the craziest two weeks, enjoying a little after storm at the moment...which explains this post.

my work life last two weeks:

(mon to fri)
5.30am - prepare for work
6.15am - hop onto cab
6.45am - arrive at changi airport to meet up my promoters
7.00am - shift 1 starts
11.00am - shift 1 ends, rush home to catch some sleep
1.00pm - 3.00pm - nap
3.30pm - to changi airport
5.00pm - shift 2 starts
9.00pm - shift 1 ends, dozing off in mrt on the way home
11.00pm - home, eat, shower, stoned
1.00am - zzz...
and the cycle goes....

(sat)
changi in the morning, drunk at double o at night

(sun)
4pm - 11.30pm - set up at expo

this week (mon)
8am - 6pm - rehersal for imbx opening ceremony
8pm - 10pm - sleep
11.30pm - 4.00am - set up for pillar wraps at changi airport T2
(tue)
4.00am - rush home to shower
5.30am - pick up the girls
6.00am - back at expo
9.00am - opening ceremony
12.00pm - END

im typing from changi airport now....

been asked this question alot recently "why you working so hard!?" which i know you guys actually wanna say "is it worth it"
frankly speaking im struggling with this question myself. i felt it from my folks, but i also felt the need to be strong in front of them, it was a choice i made and i know it too well i should not complain...

im so sorry...sorry for the not being there...sorry for not contributing enough to the family during this period...sorry for the delayed mother's day dinner and present, sorry for all the missing morning talks over breakfast...sorry if i acted cold because im just afraid i will break down if i were to tell you more.

i am not a quitter, give me somemore time, i will know when i have to give up.

i promise myself to give you the life you all deserved by next year.

i know i might not be the best to you, but i am me not you...

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my sis first electronic guitar


miss my dog


saving up for their concert


late night getaways with familiar faces

even sleep deprived

i slept well...

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yesterday was cherie last day with us.

had a nice talk with her the previous night when we were rushing for the project.

how i wish things can change and we can continue working side by side, me giving you my dont-know-can-work ideas and you turning them to real shapes and designs. but im glad for you as well because i am sure you will go further at your new place. maybe no one have said this to you yet but you're a great designer, colleague and friend. all the best girl.

pics fom yesterday

edited by cherie.


met up with jolin, cat, jace and edwin for dinner, drinking session follows. someone shld consider opening an account in german bank.



went Velvet Dragon at 3 to join sis, can you believe their baggage service is $3! i cant help but confronted the uncle who took my bag why its so freaking ex, he told me cuz my bag is big?? u mean its not a flat rate? too bad i was high then and just let it go. anyway i was inside for less than 10 mins...only remember looking at my sister's very drunk bestfriend and talking dewei into going to the Sodagreen concert with me....i must really thank this wilson's fren who called a cab to get us out of the stupid place at the end of it

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after marathoning till 4.30am in office yesterday, boss decide we deserve a toast, it was only 4pm and im having my first drop of alcohol. wats gonna happen tonight...

anyway i cant give a damn, ive work hard. im gonna play hard

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i hope its just a phase

the insecurities and uncertainties

i can take favouritism

but i cant tolerate comparision

because its unfair to begin with

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to sum the week im sane this week, no vomit, no crawling on the floor lol

Fun fact
Fri - Esther and me were in town and decided to park the company van at orchard building seeing their height limit being 2.05m (co van being 1.95m), but after we went thru we hear stratching sound above us so we got down to check the roof and to our horror found a dent in the middle of it. Not ur typically gu niangs, we went to the management to complaint and demand compensation. To cut the long story short, we eventually found out its the van's antenna making the stratching sound against the bars, and abt the dent..nobody really knows how it got there.

Laugh factor: 3 and half stars


Sat - Went to watch priates with the boys, cat, jolene and jace. Chilled at Millena Walk till 2am and decide to call it a night, edwin left his bag in greg's car so followed us back to the car to get his bag before sharing a cab with jace home, while doing it david and aaron got hungry and all of us went to bencoolen to have supper. After some satisfying pratas and nasi lemak we said our goodbyes only to recieve a call when we were reaching my place. Its edwin, the dude's bag was still in greg's car.

Laugh factor: 2 and half stars


Sun - it just happened a few mins ago, got the urge to pee after the last sentence above, so i went out of the room and saw milo with his dirty cloth on the floor, trying to outshine zhang zi yi in crouching tiger i attempted to jump over the cloth and milo, only im not zi yi. I slipped, landed on the ground, nearly killed milo, and got my sister rushing out to say this "haha i want to see how you fell again leh"

Laugh factor: 1 star

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lately i have been getting alot of truth from the exact people ive been trying to crack for the longest time...

the truth always hurts?

not to me...not knowing it hurts more.

hmm so what am i now...an empty bottle to be thrown into the ocean with your secrets....how romantic...lol!



when end of the day everyone is just lonely, even when you have someone next to you, lying skin to skin...then what are we all still searching for...

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