I revoked my password again today.unintentionally.although i have the intention to.(there's a difference).and i can remember clearly his replied email

Hi pam

I've reset your STARLIGHT, this is the default password xxxxxxxx

Best Regards
Dxxxxn

see he actually used best regards and not the short-formed best rgds.LOL.i really wished i can put the full name though.it really made a difference.
Of course all sweetness are followed by bitterness.I saw him sharing a packet of Lays with his gf right after i checked my email.oh well.thats me.pam.
even bridget jones is luckier than me.i really liked what yoanna said. " i never made prom queen, im was never in cheerleading, im just there" (or something like that, trying hard to remember).

Yeah im always just there.
Goodnight guys.im going xmas shopping tml!

Best Regards
Pam

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pardon me.i really don't know whats got into me.im so cynical about everything i find myself living in damnation.i don't blame you if u hate me.i
could see myself cooking children in my pot and riding on a broom 10 years later.im just like a witch in making.

but on a lighter note.i got my first xmas prezzie!! from rus and geri! they are so sweet geez.i love the shirt.really.thanks girls : ) i'll put it up on after i got it back from alterations.maybe i still not that cynical afterall.

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hes on leave today.well..
at least i don't have to keep gulping down my whole mug of water in order to pass his desk for the water cooler.or to think of ways to revoke my password so he can have them reset.lol.or! at least! i can wear my comfy market slippers around the office instead of the toes killing heels which i 'assume' makes my legs look slimmer.hah.and most imptly! my heartbeat is rhythmic today.hah hah hah

is anyone too old for a crush? wats the age limit then?

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No this is not a fansite.lol

YES! im a jay chou fan! i love jay chou! laugh all you want hah!
yesterday concert was superb.its like a big sing-a-long session.so soulful.
i swear im gonna get the front tickets next year.
jay chou.he's simply awsome.

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S U R P R I S E!
You must blog-surfing and doing your usual routines,and reading ur daily blogs while you think..i bet pam's wont be updated as usual.yet you just feel like checking::

Heres your finding.

Pam's blogging.At Last!

Hi guys!!!!!!!well sorry for the sudden disappearance,but if you're working 5 days a week, 8 hrs a day, you left ur hse at 7.30am and only got back at 8.30pm i dont think you'll have much time to write or even have ur brains working straight.so here hws my tracy* days goes.

Get up> Off to work> Working> Lunch> Working> Off from work> Home> TV> Sleep

in fact i dont think i will ever get to blog except today and thats becoz i took a half day leave and is blogging frm my ex-school.anyway everything is finalize.im out of school for good.

(ignore if not interested)
okay to summarize my life during the past 2 or 3 weeks i went missing:

+ i got a job in singtel.working in their customer managment department.

+ i attended a birthday (kjs) and my class chalet

+ i watched at least 6 movies during the time i went missing

+ i practically lost touched with the outside world.i haven been clubbing since the invention of lightblub

+ i passed my exams

+ i missed my friends

+ i miss the days

okay let me explain abt the last point.though i hate school more than anything else,i kidda miss the days when i just take my own sweet time to wake up,get cheeky with my classmates,meet my friends up,the daydreaming sessions, the late night chatting sessions,the clubbing sessions, the nights when i blog my guts out,the way i used the fuck word,the feel of sneakers,and the nice bus-trips from school i just simply miss the freedom i had.and had took for granted.

In fact i got abit depressed when i know i got the job.i want to yknow enjoy life after school,but my life doesnt allow me to.

but as miss super-recovery pam.i used my super power to convinced myself it's only right for me to move on.i was jealous abt the girls initially,i want to party i want to be happening i want to be those screaming young girls i want to be like those brats i want to get indulge in those sickenly innocent teenage love i want those cute boys in caps and *censored*!lol but then pam ah pam why be jealous when you've been young yourself too.so i decided, at least for me, it's time to move forward.i've been 17,ive been 18 and 19 myself too ay.now its time to embrace being a twentysomething well i gotta live my age and not fight against it.
note. i do see some kidults and i totally repect that too.everyone has a path for them or a road they've choosen.and whatever it is..............i just wish my ex bf is suffering now!!hur hur hur!!!!*BLEAHX*

to all the young girls out there.auntie pammy wish you all the best, have all the fun u want ay!just get a condom handy or if u wants it alnatural well..just practise on whipcreams first though they taste much better.LOL!!!

*Tracy
Definition: Typical Office Lady

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in reply to kj's blog.
well girl ruiyi me and yanli will be watching u grow old tml! i swear we will try our best to spot any tiny signs of wrinkles.haw haw!
anyway i know how you feels.its really sad to see how people are so self-adsorbed lately.putting themselves so much ahead of others,even their close frens.
they goes "so wats the big deal? birthday only ma! im so busy yknowi work 5 days a week man! i dont have time!" like a few hours of birthday dinner will kill you!!!!!u can afford a few hours of weekend sex and u cant afford to attend ur fren's birthday which happens like wat? once a year!? wait till its ur birthday.you will know how it feels.i will come up with the stupidest excuse like bringing my dog to the park!!
i know one by one lesser people are signing your cards.lesser people are attending the celebration, and lesser people are remembering your birthday.
Maybe i might changed too,into those ulgy people above,maybe i will read back this thing and laugh...maybe...but for now i just want you to know..even when one day i cant hold a pen,u will still have my signature on ur birthday cards : ) i'll ask my grandkids to write.and i hope when we're all old and saggy we two will still be blowing our candles with our big hunchback and big plastic spectacles.

so once again happy 20th birthday girlie.love you.

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i know this is so overrated.i know there might be 10 million people saying this same exact words at this very second.i know some people just say it out of habit, a very bad habit. but...im so fat.
dim sum for lunch and steamboat for dinner.this is insane.im someone who never goes on diet.i just eat whenever i wanted to? but seriously im getting worried,at my increasing wasit-line.and starting work tml as an OL is not going to help any further.

Get to have a 'real' conversation wif rus last night, and we bothed agreed we really miss each other.im just..nvm.just touched that she understands.

okay pics frm the resturant.i miss my photoshop.

the boy in blue is my obnoxious cousin.he's a rich-brat in making.


my mummyyyy



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