I had a hard time sleeping indeed.Waking up almost every few hrs and start remembering things.
I like recollecting memories from the past, i like to reminisce parts of my life while waiting for my bus, traveling in the train, during the last 5 mins before i slip into my sleep, or while waiting for someone at the place where it used to hold memories.Somtimes even replaying the scenes over again and wonder if i've done something different, wld my life be changed?

But i hate having those thoughts forced on me like what its been doing since yesterday.I aboustely hate this feeling.If only i can rewind time.

I want the level-headed me back, i want my mind to be a total vacuum by the end of the day.

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I saw him,at the previous sos, the current club momo.Maybe its seeing him once again in front of me, it doesnt matter even if he dont remember my name. which he did btw.
as much as i hope i will never see him again so i can keep the memories as good as they were, i never regretted going down club momo tonight.

man..this is gonna be a sleepless night

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Three screen names you have had :
incomplete
white_fossils
lostintranslation

Three things you like about yourself :
Learnt to accept myself and everything around me
my taste for films and music
having born into my dysfunctional family

Three things you dislike about yourself :
my nose
being too cynical for my own good
short-changing myself for others

Three things that scare you :
ageing, and knowing i've not achieve a single freaking thing at all
not enough sleep
bumping into my ex

Three of your everyday essentials :
my nokia 6230 with mp3s stored
Matching earrings
Clinique's 'all about lips' and moisture handcream

Three things you are wearing right now :
hairband
shorts
cotton singlet

Three of your favorite songs :
Blonde on Blonde - Nada Surf
Misread - Kings of Convenience
Ai no Uta - Every Little Thing (Currently)

Three new things you want to try in the next twelve months :
getting an advanced diploma for mass com in mdis
successfully getting on to pursuing a degree for mass com
try to kill myself at least once

Three things you want in a relationship :
understanding
maturity
love

Three things you can't do without :
music and films
sleep
nice clothes

Three places you want to go on vacation :
italy
japan
HK

Three things you just can't do :
going tanning at sentosa
eat anything that contains papaya
finding someone

Three kids' names :
Tommy
Johnny
Bianca

Three things you want to do before you die :
start an animal shelter for stray dogs
travel italy
direct a movie or music video

Three celebrity crushes :
Jay Chou ( do i have to actually say it)
Stephen Chow
Keanu Reeves

Three people I nominate to complete this exercise :
Geri
Kejin
Greg ( do at the comment box)

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Dont think i've ever been 'away' from my blog for such a long period of time.
Anyway i decided to blog today, not that i have anything special to talk about.
But in case you're wondering hows my trip from mars, i wld say it gd.lol.

Things i've been doing the past 1 month:
+ sleeping ( i shall conclude that nuthing, absoutely nuthing can be better than having a good night sleep)
+ minimal shopping, but when i do it usually hits 3 digits
+ tv ( it's like indirect suicide to your brain cells)
+ Having a strict no chicken + seafood diet
+ Having awkard convos with ppl i dont wanna talk to, im surprise to find myself so anti-social, or you might use the word plastic as well
+ Stealing my sister's ipod shuffle to work every morning
+ anime.cartoons.inuyasha
+ Determind to stay withnin my comfort zone
+ Trying to meet up with my bestie and gang
+ Nursing my chicken-pox wounds
+ no im not seeing anyone special, i just am too lazy to blog
the rest is rubbish

caught mr and mrs smith earlier, awww it's like the battle of the pouty-lips.weak plot though.hmm wat else.went down mdis.seems like i were to get any studying done, i'll have to kidnapp some rich brat.

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I'm actually thirsty for human contact, lol im no pervert.But i kidda wish to be out there having conversations with my friends.I didnt get much calls, which is okay i suppose, i've learnt that being sick doesnt give you special privileges, and i dreaded the work im gonna face when i get back.Most will think i've gone for a long break so they'll tend to give you more when you're back:: Usually what happens to 'long-breakers':: but what they dont know is that most of the time you're probably to sick in bed to enjoy ur 'long break' at all.

Other than following my sis and milo down during their late night strolls, im haven been out of my house, not even 7-11.Im worried for the aftermath of this, the scars...*looking at the hanging tube top not far away*



Yanli if you're reading this, i hope you're feeling better, i know its not easy for you and your family, knowing ur character, just want you to know it's okay to grieve, it will even be better if u can talk about it, sorry for not being there when you're lowest, although ive graduated as cynical witch who dont believe in anything everlasting , you'll always remain as one of my close friends in life.

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haha! thanks to my chicken box i've finished the entire book. Berinice!

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********************Live Updates on Pam's Condition*************************

Commentor: So how are you feeling now Pammy?
Pam: Well the fever is gone but the pox getting extremely itchy now

Commentor: What precautions are you taking to stop the itch?
Pam: Coming up with stupid entries like this to get myself distracted

Commentor: Heard the pox grows everywhere...even *cough* even there?
Pam: yes but the weirdest area as i mention is my armpit.i find it sick enough

Commentor: Ho ho! So how are your folks and family members taking it?
Pam: Basically my little sis keep trying to convince my mum every morning that she got chicken pox so she can skip sch::dimwit she got it before:: My sec sis, being the vainpot she is, is feeling so paranoid abt getting them on her face she boycotted me for 2 days, but she eventually got bored and decided she want to share her love problems this morning.My mum looks desprate cuz she is running out of ideas what to cook for me.

Commentor: I've heard chicken is a big nono for chicken pox patients, how about eggs?
Pam: According to my mum i cant eat eggs too cuz they will give me bad breath in the future?

Commentor: Erm..oh okay.Thats new.Well..thanks for the interview pam, hope you're on the road to a speedy recovery! Coming up next is katie homles on her new beau tome cruise!
Pam: yea rite

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i feel so awlful.
Chicken pox sucks.Give me back my work.

First it's the fever, then comes the pox, or these little bubble-like rashes popping out everywhere, it's really everywhere, it even pop out at weird places like under my armpits? plus they are unbelievable itchy.Followed by the sleep factor, im usually awake for less than 3 hrs before im back on my bed.And too much of this sleep is giving me a really bad headache, i cant even roll my eyes now.Then it comes to the food.Its pathetic, and yknow wat, im feeling tired already...........can i stop here?

ciao

feeling sick
pam

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