This entry is for you kj.

take care girl.pls.go see a doc the first thing tml.no one can afford to lose you, although there would some peace for awhile,im too used to calling you biatch......so bottom line....go see a doc.

thats all for my entry today.i've been knocking off early these days! enjoying my evenings....

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I can sum up my life with just 3 words.

im so tired.

Can you believe im actually on standby? It means im just like a freaking soldier who can be activated back to work anytime during this weekend.I have never been activated ever! in my entire lifetime!
I've got a birthday to attend and energy to be refilled again and they can bloody well destroy all i ever wish to have on this weekend.
Talking to your manager is futile.They will only get the impact when you resign, but then again, they might just replace you with someone else too.

Went to meet up this lady friend of mine who is a half mongolian, and had this convo which is perhaps the best convo in this past few weeks even though im making convos every once in 15 mins to stupid customers.Its been sometime i can talk to someone like her...it just so right i wish it never stops.Maybe of her heritage, and her life experiences(being twice my age) or just how similar we are

We both agree we dont need a man to have children, or maybe we need a man just to have children, provided we cant meet a man who we want to spend the rest of our life with.Feminist? Extreme? Not really.But i know guys beside our table are giving us really nasty looks.

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Turn up the speakers....

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I was surfing the net for insurance when i realized we have all kinds for insurance, from pets insurance to this stupid golfer insurance to protect you when you got hurt playing golf, but there not a single insurance that protects you when you got hurt in love.

Im practical and cynical.A real relationship needs enormous amount of energy, time and at times money is involved as well.Why arent we protected and provided coverage against all the losses we incurred during that period of time.Why should our youth, energy, money and love go in waste once a relationship ended, resulting not only in those losses mentioned but left you emotionally crippled for the following years.

I know this ideal will create a controversy.Coming first, wouldnt love lost all it's value when money is invovled? wouldnt people absuse this policy to hurt others?
Everyone has the rights to keep their own views, as for me...i keep wondering...wouldnt it be great if only there's a policy which can protects us from love.

I would be the first to buy.

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I know it been centuries since i last blog, to tell you the truth, this is the first time i log on ever since..............ever since............i even lost count.

I spent both Christmas and New Year withnin my neighbourhood, in fact i spent both eve at my cousin's place which is 5 storey's away from me.Im just too broke and tired for any kind of parties thats going around.I enjoyed my christmas shopping though, my best xmas present is the army green bikini for geri, i didnt know it'll fit so nicely::good job pam::Bought kejin a pearl earring, lip balms and shower gels for ruiyi, mudan braclet for taurus, retro mug for collegue, a watch for Jan, and lotsa bodyshop gifts packs for others.lol.I love my xmas presents this year too...thanks everyone.

Went for Yanli's birthday last weekend.Never know chalet can be so fun haha.Image three nutty 20 year old women and a 19 yera old army boy in a room with two beds, we just didnt have a mass orgy cuz the amry boy is my bestfriend's bf.hahahahahaha kidding.in case you're reading this bestfriend.
I a m k i d d i n g.Yanli is really pretty...geez...if i can only sell love as noruishment, im certain i would have turn rich overnight.love really makes you blossom like nobody bussiness.damn it.i'll post up the pics soon when i have the time

Work is fine if not stressful, i've learn to do my best and not die for the company.seriously im like at the super end of the foodchain.i dont think i'll make much a huge difference if i work like a freak and in the end got fucked at the back by others.go fuck it.i left work almost on the dot today.

2004 was eventful.yes.i've met the worst walking human liar i ever know so far.Two of them in fact.2004 is also the year i truly hate someone to the extent i really have thoughts of killing him.It was the year i had a fight with my bestfriend, the first in the 7 years we knew each other.And i've finally complete my so-call studies and left for a total different era.W O R K.lol

I wish i can write more...but im actually fighting with my sister verbally so i'll sign off here.what a great start for the new week of 2005.

i just wish 2005 will bring me to somewhere better, or least if you couldnt help me, make asia a better place for them.esp the thais, arent thailand the city of angels?

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My Xmas Shopping List

+ Geri
+ Taurus
+ Kejin
+ Ruiyi
+ Jan
+ Kat
+ Company
+ Teammate
+
Plus two xmas dinner.

Total Amt of money in Bank = Less than 3 digits.

Im..im just speechless.I somehow hope that by the time i wake up tml my bank account will mircaleously increase itelf.
Like everyone else i love xmas, i like the ambient and the merry spirits that goes around when xmas is coming.i like watching xmas movies and thinks Love Actually is the best xmas movie ever.I absoutely love xmas songs,been eyeing Jazz In the City xmas songs thats in the commericals myself.I enjoy the food ,drinks and parties that comes along on xmas and lastly i believe love is all around during xmas.lol sounds corny ay.The fact that xmas is so magical, it will only makes sense if you share it with someone special, thus also leading me to believe that for some souls out there, xmas eve might just be the loneliness night for them throughout the 365s.

I met someone unforgettable on the eve last year.Im not hoping that history will repeat itself.i hope it doesnt cuz it wont make him that special anymore.But i wish...i just wish my stocking wouldnt be empty this year either.

In the meantime i gotta thank the girls esp KJ, without her i might turn into one of those ppl i mentioned above.sames goes with taurus and kat for getting up a hse party last min.well..not to worry im not turning into a grinch.YET.lol

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I refused to surf because my com is so fucking slow and is being attack by pop ups
Im very very particular about my computer.i can never stand an unknown file being station on my desktop or anywhere in my C drive.i empty my recycle bin when it exceeded 10 items.I scan my com faithfully and organize all my files and pictures in according folders.And now my two stupid and super retarded sisters just gotta screw my preciously maintained com up.I wish i can sign them up for computer managment class.Or sign myself up for anger mangement before i start hurting anyone.
Since things had already escalated to this stage,there's only one solution.
Reformating.
Im gonna reformat my com.I know it might be harmful to the harddisk but fuck it.
Its 3.43am and i've got work early tml morning but im so paranoid to the extend i backing up my com so i can reformat them tml.This is how crazy i am.I just cant stand it and wants to get it done ASAP.

you're witnessing an average 20 year old woman going insane.lol.stay tuned guys for the showdown of pam and her dark side..........

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im so bloody full. river valley = bloated stomach. i wanna live there though, i agree with geri the houses along that stretch are awsome, one of my top choices right after the patersons.

work is really stressing me out though i tried my best not to let it affect me after office hours.told tm sunday was my last day at work with them.im so disappointed with my current situation.stressed, broke, edgy, and ugly.

argh

all charity workers with any kind of donation box along the streets during this time are clearly warn by my 'leave-me-alone-' stare.im sorry but this is how pissed i am.Its a friday night and now im preparing to sleep cuz i've got work early tml.ARGH.who can i blame.im so diappointed again.

the only warmth i felt from this world today is seeing my young niece choose her xmas present and watching this cucasian toddler listen to the xmas carol outside paragon,he's really cute, swaying away to the music while sitting on his dad's shoulder.

hmm

cute

Signed
Pam the 'Pissed Off'

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