I will never understand the life of Britney Spears. I will never step a foot in her shoes and feel what it is like to be scrutinised by the scope society, being brought up in the media. And I would never want to....She practically blossomed as a teenager while being introduced into the world of bright lights, cameras and tabloid magazines. I feel sorry for her...people take her the wrong way. Even though I don't know her personally, I think she is just a hard working young woman who is just misunderstood.

First of all...she was an idol for young girls. Those who played with barbies, took part in sleepovers etc. But now Britney is an icon of the early 20s women. A person who can be honest and confident about her sexuality! Ok ok...ppl must be outraged by the lastest video clip of 'Everytime' when she bares her cleavage! My first impression was OMG! Buy why are we scared to see bare skin. It seems bare skin is associated with pornography but it is us - human flesh. Britney expresses her sexuality as many young women do...but it has become such a norm that it is no longer talked about. In a way I thank Britney kicking-starting this phenomenon of openess about sexuality.

Then again..many will not agree with me. :/ It doesnt mean everyone has to take Britney's way of expression, but other ways. That's why it is so fun being a girl...do girly things, have a great time and we can be so sweet...our powers can bring any man down to their knees. hahaha!

I love her new song...the lyrics of her songs relate closely to our lives! Honestly...I'm sure some must agree with 'toxic' :p Who has never ever fell that way for a dood? LOL! Now I have her new lyrics 'Everytime' on the lyrics of the moment sec. They are so goooooddd.... :)

Feel so sorry for her to be on the cover of this tabloid with pics of her overeating etc. It's just sad...cuz this happens to all girls. We have the right to eat...and it sad when ppl make a fool of us when we do...and when we gain a lil weight on the thighs!!! *sigh*

Being a woman is so hard. hahahaa...Oh welllz... just got a call from my honeyz..they taking me out to metros tonight. I'M SO SCARED! I should be studying!!! :/ Have a good one everyone!!! signing off - VON! xxx

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mood: fat!

Mon: 9.30am hair appt, to permanantly straighten my hair like all those azn chiks out there. I know I promised myself never to follow fads...but I follow long-term fads. ;) I'm smart...cuz I don't believe straight hair will go out of fashion, maybe seasonal curls but straight is always in! OMG the lengths women have to go through for beauty!!!! It took about 6 hours of steaming, ironing, washing, tugging, cold paste on my scalp, burning of my earlobe cuz of the straightening iron (arrrggghhh!!!) such pain!! (Don't think I'll go through it again!) hehehe but then after 6 hours I am done...got home just in time to see June and Gail at my door...(*exhausted* - ass hurts from sittin down so long!! lol).

The girls took me out in my old car FINN (June's dad has him now) and we went for Baskins, these couple of days I haven't been eating properly and all it is is sweet stuff (DAMN winter!). After that 'supersize me' movie you'd think - I'd eat healthier haha but no...just promised June and Gail I would stay away from KFC, Maccas, HJs, etc (we made a pact!). I got to drive FINN home, it felt so good to drive my first baby - missing BOZ as well. Funnily how I treat my car like my children :/ At my house I sold an IPOD to June - LOL!!! She was convinced to buy one now...after showing her my bro's IPOD and talking bout it. She said:
"You could sell a fridge to an eskimo" (I was flattered) "You could sell anything, becuz you have that manner of lying/persuasion" hehehe yeh right!!! Lying..definitely no - suck at it!

Then Tiff picked me up straight after! You can imagine my body by now...:/ Then headed to Oriels in Subi. It was raining too *grumbles* BUT it was so nice to sit and chit chat - girl talk. These are my GFs and time with them is an absolute MUST! So expensive to eat at Oriels - cost an arm/leg!! Just for coffee and cake is bloody rip off. Never again (haha always say that)! I think our tastes run too high-class sometimes. Oops!The night ventured onto Yo's apartment down at CBD and we just sat in Tiff's car to chat about everything!!! I told them about my insecurities - bout the times I look in the mirror and I scare myself...becuz I used to be a pimply, fat, ugly duckling staring back at me...and even though I was fine with her I think others weren't. Now to see the me today...I'm confused. :/ I know that's me, but I haven't accepted it yet but others have...

Tiff said "You're looking like a model but you have a personality of a fat girl" - and that somehow touched my heart. :) Hearing...I haven't lost myself, I'm proud of that. Becuz I don't want to change my personality (nerdy, anime-freak, knitter, comp geek, immature with my friends, laugh at stupid stuff), I don't consider myself any higher, I treat everyone with the same care and friendliness I always have :) Then again, when I try and meet new girlfriends esp. in Uni, they just shoot me down. Why is that? When I looked like my usual 'grotty' self it seemed to attract more female friends. :/ I hate that, ppl place labels on you - when they don't even wanna get to know you! Just talking to them face to face you can tell by their expression - "look at this dumb, chinese, fashionista" - who thinks doing her nails is more important to her work!! (Pfft as if, my nails r just like that haha!) I just can't help being put under the scope of society that way!

I still consider myself fat/ HUGE...which girl doesn't? And even though I have a great bf, who looks absolutely gorgeous both inside and out I cannot accept that fact he chose me to be his gf. :( It's an inner conflict I have to resolve...*sigh*

Wahhhh such heavy thinking at a time like this...man have to concentrate on exams! :p

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listening to: Roses - Outkast
mood: socialized to the max!

This feels weird typing my weekend out on TUESDAYS! Becuz it is routinely done on Monday... but I guess it is cuz of the long weekend that kept me bz. What a long weekend!!! Something that I will never forget...becuz I got to spend time with my girls. :) Even though it was raining the whole weekend and I was upset about sunday's accident to Boz I am feeling sorta better...

Fri: out with Gail, June and Heidi to Hoyts to watch 'The Day after Tomorrow' which taught me a lot of things about how our weather is changing so drastically now a days. Our winters in Oz are getting warmer and the north of the world is getting colder. Hail was in M'sia last year! Pretty scary...becuz I am starting to believe the theory of that movie. That we maybe nearing the next 'ice age'! :/ Prob not in our generation anyway but maybe our grandkids. Freaky..

Anyways...after the movies we just sat down and had a good chat at Fast Eddys and it was so nice to just catch up with these girls...even though the news from us weren't all good. We were there to support one another. That's what I missed from them... but DAMN everytime we go out we have to eat! Hehehe...not doing favour to the thighs :/

Sat: Didn't go to Chinese school...lazy BUM! But yeh I had to do some other stuff hahaha...help mum clean the house cuz it is a MESS! Partly my fault with uni books and my bags everywhere! Worked and that was ok...I saw my old P.E teacher the other day, Mrs. Barnett. She was a bitch in hs, then again she seemed nice outta school, she treated me as an equal/adult. hmmmm... Sat night did sh*t all, stayed at home and found out about BOZ, had a lil cry but then got over it. :) Did plan to go out...but raining too much..

Sun: Went to the gym, had the most vigorous workout and felt like I was gonna faint, but it felt damn good at the time! :) I luv the feeling of pushing myself to the max, becuz it gives me a good feeling that I have a 'can do attitude'. Gail and June came over and we went to Leeds to watched 'SUPERSIZE ME' which changed my perspective on fast food chains and swear an oath to never touch any of that stuff! It was really funny and interesting...worth a watch. But if you luv your fast food and junks don't watch it!!! Ate at Hans Cafe and we were THAT close to checking out the Leeds/Groove party but felt sick with food and tired...so we went home. I think Gail really wanted to go - missed her clubbin and rnb. But that was a nice night too...even though it raining it didn't stop us from going out. :p

Ahhh...now have to settle down to studies...might do some organising and clean up first. Get the head all organised too...best wishes to all! Make sure you drink plenty of water and get a good night's rest! :) Enjoy the rest of your week peeps!

*p.s/ I placed Mon in the next entry cuz it's not really a part of the weekend yeh?

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I'm just so pissed off, angry and upset at my brother, Wayne right now! He is such an IDIOT! Because he is irresponsible, doesn't give a f*ck what I say, thinks he is hot sh*t on the road and guess who has to pay for all of his actions on the road? My poor car BOZ. :( Last night he was driving me home from work and although I did appreciate it, I didn't appreciate that he was going faster every time I would say 'Could you pls slow it down the roads are wet'. It has been pouring here in Perth and the roads are dangerously slippery. He only thinks I'm some kinda ignoramous who is a old granny and nagging him to take it slow. But it is more than that...it's our lives...

Then I came home, safe thank god! I had planned to take BOZ out to go clubbing with my friends but passed. Some how I wished I took BOZ out last night so then to avoid all this from happening. My bro took him for a drive with his friend. Two boys, under the age of 18...driving in the night with heavy rains...my bro under one yr of experience...tried to turn a corner and the wheels failed him. He was fine - that's the main thing I asked. But once I found out he was ok, hit a curb and my car was F*cked, it couldn't be driven home, I was so mad....I cried! Stupid enough but I was so mad I haven't spoken to him till now. BOZ only got repaired a month ago! Now...it's such bad luck to have this happen to him again.

My bro is so selfish in that he doesn't think before he acts and now my car...is f*cked...and it's exam period...and it's study period...and my holidays are coming...I need BOZ!!!!!!!! Omg WHAT an !#@$#%$^# my bro is... I could not be more annoyed by my brother's stoopid and irresponsible actions!!! The fact that he would drive that way with another person in the car too....I'm signing off...becuz the more I talk...the more I wanna kill him!!! *grrrrr*

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mood: relaxing for a bit...

I'm done with my assignments! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! lol! I'm jumping for joy now...because I know I'm just that tinsy insy wittle bit closer to being a free woman - well hahaha I'm taken, got a boo, but you know what I mean yeh?? FREE I TELL YOU! Can't wait muhahahaha so many friends to catch up with. :) Ahhhhh what is a person without their friends???...especially the true ones...they are the ones that make life worth living ;)

It'z sooooooooooooo good to finally drop that psych assignment in the box, have my last accounting class and come home after one hour hehehe. It's like I never left the house! Hmmm...what to do now..start studying for exams *~_~* nehhhh...hehehe too excited becuz Gail is coming back to Perth tonight! The girl is absolutely INSANE to come at this time. She plans to go to the movies, clubbing and yeh there goes my study plan. LOL! Ah wellz...still got time. :p But I feel this weekend will be just what I need ;) A lil taste of the holz (to motivate me) and it will also calm my exam nerves to be surrounded by friends...

Hmmm...Spoke to Gail last night and she can't wait to get in...missed her a lot! Also Won called to see how I was...I was like my friends are so nice to see how I am. AWwww... can't wait to see them all. And also get a chance to hang with my boo a bit more. :) Maybe winter holidays won't be so bad afterall...One person will surely be missed - who I won't prob see on the holz and that's my girlfriend Shelz, she and David are going to Phuket. :/ When I wanted to talk to her about "stuff".... *sigh* Can't wait to see Tiff and Yo too! YAY! We only get to catch up once a week and even those times we are rushing to classes or what not.

So last time I'm gonna say it - I CAN'T FRICKIN' WAIT!!! It's like worse than waitin' for the weekends to come. Hahaha! ^_^ peas out ya'll, study hard and play hard as I always say...most important keep it in check ;) That's my final word (LOL!)

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