After another low mood day...my lil bro suggested we go check out 'Matrix Rev'. I was first reluctant because of the moodiness and also that I had heaps of study waiting for me! To add to that...my empty pockets. He was nice enough to pay for ticks, I felt so touched because he only earnt his first pay check a week ago...and to spend on our outing, esp when I'm heartbroken *sigh* Brothers are great! My spirits lifted! I was really pleased with how they ended the trilogy...even though there was heaps of lovey dovey crap (which I don't need this moment) there was also a lot of KICK ASS scenes of the war between the humans and the machines. I enjoyed the movie very much! I won't say anymore incase I am spoiling it for others...

My lil bro knows when I am down. Siblings have that gift to ask 'What's up?'. They can just tell when your heart is really heavy by reading your face. I appreciate the care very much. To all those ppl who have been by my side, making me smile and just liking me through these ugly mood swings I THANK YOU! I hope I won't be like this for long. I don't usually let things get me down. I'll be back...soon...soon.

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Yesterday after reading that mail I went to work. I was quite surprised at myself for keeping a happy face on, but I glad I did...it kinda made me feel better and forget about my anger. I am not an angry person, I don't usually hate people. Cuz HATE is a very strong word... but anyway I am gonna wipe that person from my head, from my memory and look towards the future. If I keep living in the past I will never come to realize what is waiting for me further along the path of my destiny.

Destiny...fate...is it really a design of life? Could my heart be hurt now and recover later? What do the gods have planned for me? I should sit here and wait patiently and not to hold back and be scared in every new r'ship because of the last. But easier said than done...I will never forget how someone treated me in my first experience and that will possibly scar me for life...

I have sooo not been in the mood for study. I know my exams are on thurs...but I cannot bring myself to open my books. I just feel so drained emotionally and my body is feeling it too. I went to the gym yesterday to run and clear my head and it did work...but only for a few minutes. I am working on myself atm, trying to get a nice tan ready for summer and just bought myself a pair of sunnies. Quite spanking! So spoiling myself, YOU DESERVE MUCH BETTER!

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I am one of those ppl who will be sulking in bed tonight regretful of not booking a ticket for the hottest release in town tonight! THE MATRIX REVOLUTIONS! The finale of the trilogy which has opened our minds to the possibility that life isn't as sweet as it seems... a lot of us who blog comment on our daily lives and how we wish it could be better. Blogging is an escape which is prob what Zion is to 'the real world'. I wish I could go on this mind blowing trip once again with NEO N TRIN to finally see how it ends. Will humans win the battle against the machines? Will we ever get back our freedom? I'm beating myself up right now to the thought of others finding out before me!!!! If anyone has watched it, DON'T U DARE SAY A WORD!!

I did the blonde today but DAMN it was disastrous! I did it myself...clap clap me... I look like a tiger. I swear! The part line is like orange...and the rest is a darker colour! Crapps I have to work tomorrow too. Oh well. I tried to change the part to the side so it will hide some of the orange, it helps but DAMN I screwed up! Me...the cheapo got quotes today and most of the bleaching = $100+. I am quite strapped for cash atm and so I did the bold thing and self-multilated myself. Yes it is mutilation...because it is emotionally draining! The hair is such a nuisance! Anyways...I will try and make do with what I have and post up the horrible pic! Feel free to comment


Taken a good look?? I was bored today...

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9 days till my first exam and I haven't even begun to open the books. Errr...a bit over confident huh? No worries...tomorrow is always another day. I am such a procrastinator! Every sem I lecture myself on early prep for the exam will equal HDs! (HIGH DISTINCTIONS). I'm not too sure whether they use the same terms in the US but that is the Aussie grading system.

HD- High distinction
D- distinction
C-credit
P-Pass
CP-conceded pass
F-Fail

Plan to at least score C & Ds. Never got a HD in my life! Those are for the people who really study their butt off and deserve it!

I tried styling my hair today to take a photo with the digi, but it ain't good. So it wasn't worth the embarassment by posting it up for the whole world to see! Until I get the nerves to do it...pls be patient ppl! Not many comments from ppl about the 'do' so I guess it is a 'don't go there EVER again cut'.

I'm over-fretting about the hair...I realise...but your 'do' makes a big first impression. Anyway I haven't had much time to learn about html and update my blogsite. Hoping to upgrade it after the exams...need all the space I have in this brain for important theories! So all to come at a later date

Saw my girls today, Tiff and Yo and just hung out. It was nice...just down in freo to have lunch at Joe's. In the evening I saw Jason, he came to my door and met my mum! Scary mate! I was meant to go out tonight to hang with him, but mum insists I started on the books. I think so too. So we just sat on the garden bench to chit chat. I knew he wanted to pour his heart out, but I was so scared cuz I don't know what to say that won't ruin our friendship. He says 'I still feel the same way as before', I blabbed something he didn't want to hear but he accepted it anyway. I don't want to lead him on...I am so not ready for a new r'ship, it's too fast! I'll be happy with a platonic r'ship but I know he won't... back to platonicism (such a word?) again...

Still pondering about the 'blondage' but bro told me I will look 'ugly'...hmmm...

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