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Lately I have been missing a lot of things...maybe that is what has been making me feel so down lately...

1) Fernando (my bf, who I get to see only once a week...briefly)
2) My Koh koh (who is coming back from Canberra soon)
3) Summer (2 months of winter left)
4) My Grandfather (who passed away 2 yrs ago)
5) My old self
6) Sleeping in
7) Malaysia (feel like going back and seeing Kim)
8) Kim Lee (my 3rd cous)
9) Michelle & Yohana
10) Sleepovers (those were best times...ehehe)

*..the list goes on...but these are the main people, things I miss...

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My thoughts have been running through my head in circles and it is driving me nuts! I dunno I'm starting to go all confused and crazy again. I get these thinking patterns every 2 months or so... and it just leaves me exhausted, depressed esp when I tend to overanalyse things. I hate being a human being cuz our emotions and mood are so unpredictable. I just want to stay contented and happy forever but that's not possible when I think of other people who don't have the same luxuries as we do.

Holidays give me so much time to myself...that is becomes dangerous. Cuz my mind just constantly thinks up scenarios, both negative and positive when I have to come to make a decision. It is good to be with friends around this time so they can distract me. Like I have been spending time with my muddities, lumeners, Tiff and they make me feel comfortable, happy and just live life without worry. Then when I get home I have to face myself. I go to sleep quite early now to avoid thought.

Sounds a bit insane huh? I assure u am I sane, is that the first sign of insanity? Denial? lol! I dunno I need to make a change to myself some how to eliminate all this negativity and ambuiguity about myself. :/ I wish I could talk to someone but I know I can't becuz when I express myself it never comes out right esp when it has to deal with my feelings...Holidays should be happy...must be this damn rain...

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Tiff & I at the Paramount


Me, Kylie.P, Erin.P, Cassandra, Brendon and Junie (front) at the Paramount


This is Gail, Jess and Mel across the road of Leederville Hotel on Wed night. Stylin' girls ;)

mood: psyched!
listening to: Let's get Retarded! - BEP

Hmmm...to be working and enjoying the holidays at the same time is a rather difficult task. Last night after the events of the weekend I sat down to try and develop some ideas for my designs. I am beginning to design again...yes...just warming up my creativity but my brain was blank!!!?? Usually ideas come to me naturally. :/ But...Guess what? I bought a brand spanking new set of 36 textas to start my colouring in, hehehe...remember those days when you were a kid and the thought of newly laid out textas placed in their dictinct colour scheme was enough to make you the most popular in the class and make you so happy?! Everyone in class would wanna use em :) That's how I felt buying these textas...ahhhhh the forgotten feeling. Many of u should try that again, if u have free time - DOODLE...sparks ur creativity. ;) Plus it makes me happy hehehe

Lemme start with Friday: Not really anything interesting, but a full day at work for 9 hours. It is difficult to work such long hours in the customer service industry because your smile tends to turn upside down once the first 3 hours have passed. In my lunch break I bought a new top on SALE! When work was over my parents were so nice to come and pick me up. Friday night I think was a quiet one at home. Long time since I have spent time with the family. Feet too sore to take me anywhere lol!

Sat: No chinese class. WOOHOO! So got a chance to sleep in. YEH! Ummm...work at 2, nothing new really... but at night I got into a lil dispute with Wayne over BOZ. Who was gonna take him out tonight?? I mean he got to drive BOZ last sat nite so I was frustrated he planned take the car again. In the end I got the car and June came to my house. I picked up Tiff and her sis, Vira and headed to the Paramount. I was such an IDIOT! You wanna know why? For the bloody 5th time, I forgot my license...After reminding the girls at Tiff's house 'Hey everyone got their license?' Stoopid me! It always happens to me, JUST ME! Or does it happen to you guys too? Hmmm...short-term memory...or aka Absentmindedness (Such a word?)

At the paramount it was June's friend's going away party. I caught up with some of my old lumen friends.They are still the same, nice and friendly, even Brendon is still his "homie G" self. Had a good time with a warm atmosphere at the para. Even though I was one of the few asians there, I loved being around multicultural places. Was thinking about heading to church but instead we headed toward Freo Metros to meet up with Gail, Jess and Mel. The line was too long and it was freezing outside. Ended up at a Fast Eddys joint around 1am for supper. :) Had no drinks tonight, good girl and I don't plan to these holidays...in great need for a major detox! All said, never done...hahaha

Sun: Went looking for a fridge for my kohkoh by driving around with my parents who were looking through the 'second hand' readersmart paper. I haven't really done this for ages, just tag along with my parents. It was nice. :) Though I was a bit blur from last night. No luck...went home and napped and had to get ready for work. Work -I had a bad feeling about that. Cuz so much shit went down, got so many crazy customers abusing our staff it was a BAD DAY! One of the girls got abused by this aboriginal lady and she got really upset. It could've been any of us...fuck sometimes it's damn scary working in the city with all these freaky characters.

Went home, ahhhhhhh...good weekend...bed...sleep...tv hehehe! I luv my home so much!! Man I sound like a hermit but all I wanna do is stay at home on a cold wintery weekend. PURE BLISS!!! Now it is Monday and so many plans for the week ahead! Catching up with my muddies girls on 'cheap tues'! Can't wait! ^_^ Have fun all! *MUAX*

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It's raining cats and dogs outside!!!! Winter is truely here in Perth. I have to also work today... :( I'm so not a winter person. It's days like these I just wanna curl up in my bed and float off to dreamland :) Past few days I haven't really been getting much sleep. Going out quite a bit and most of them are late nights...so body is totally hating me right now! Hehehe...I wanted to go for my 30min walk today but since it is raining I'll have to think up of some other exercise for indoors. Any ideas??

I was at Tiff's house yesterday after we had a pilates class at the gym. My body is fully aching from all the stretches, when I thought stretching would make you feel relaxed not painful!!! :/ Her house is becoming like a second home to me...hehehe it feels so welcoming :) First we were watching the 'cooking channel' on FOXTEL and that made us so hungryyyyy YUM! She let me try the detox 'chelating cocktail' (Beetroot, carrot and apple) and it wasn't bad. She's way ahead of me in the detox plan. Mine? Non-existant...I'm always saying 'next week, next week'! LOL! We had fun playing with her EYE-TOY! So cool the games!! We were jumping and dancing all over her tv room, so funny! It really reminded me of being a kid again hehehe. I WANNA GET ONE!! Cuz it will also save on my gym fees hehe, I found myself breathless after playing a couple of games!

Sooooooooooooooooooooooo fun! Those who have a PS2 I think it is a must to buy! :p Hehehe, so good for parties and having friends over to hang out. I feel like such a BIG kid! I feel like doing other things instead of just clubbing with my friends. It's always the same experience... same type of people and music also can be the same! At this age, when I am appreciating my PS2 it must mean I am sick of being old. HAHAHA! Me - 20 yrs old...my lil bro keeps reminding me it is an ancient age...he is 17! Dammit! :p

My work place just called me...want me to stay till 8pm tonight! I need the $$$ to keep up with my holiday outings hehehe and with all these SALES in the city...oooo it's so hard for a girl :) I guess being at work will keep me away from the rain and FOOD which has been my no.1 enemy these holidays. ice-cream, biscuits, cakes! ^_^ haha

*Before I go, wishing u all a great weekend! Sayonara Minasan! :)

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I'm crazy about this Hong Kong movie star atm - SAMMI CHENG!!! She is the coolest hehehe! ...but I am so frustrated that I can't find any recent websites of her. Most of the pics I can find is of her back in the 90s! From what I have seen in her movies 'Love for all Seasons', 'Good times, bed times', 'Fighting for love', 'Love on a diet', etc I cannot help but be a fan. It seems that now a days I have been watching VCDs just with her acting in it, my friends let me borrow, so I watch. It has made me admire her so much, cuz no.1 she just seems like a nice person. Maybe I am just blinded by the characters in her movies. hehehe. 2. She is gorgeous like all those other HK stars (she has the nicest skin - NO FAIR!! lol). Plus she has the coolest style...not too "out there" like other stars but fashionable.

Plus she is ditzy and cute at the same time. Hehehe... ok ok coming from me, another girl doesn't sound good. But can't a girl admire a girl sometimes? I just luv her acting...I think I may go hunting around for her cds, cuz I heard she can sing! :)

I've just doused myself in canto movies since the holidays started. I have yet to catch up with other recent stuff. But I can never seem to keep up with HK, they continue to make movies every month!! I'm so behind in the asian media world! :/ I dunno but now I feel like going back to M'sia or even take a trip to HK hehehe. But cannot, no money :(

Oh wellz...back to reality. I have a dentist appt today...I fear my dentist will tell me I have to extract my wisdom tooth. :/ Scary huh? Plus my older bro is coming back to perth on the 16th July! YAY! Can't wait! :)

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