Turns out, I AM insane...

I don't know what's wrong with me, but this has been the most stressful, busy, lack-of-sleep, intense, running-around, and all together rough past couple of days... and I'm loving it.
I'm starting to fall in love with these people, with this neighborhood. I've been an outsider, and probably always will be, but I like it. I like them. It's a neighborhood full of history and heart, taken over by cultural indifference and misunderstanding over the years, causing nothing but discord, poverty, drugs, gangs, and violence. Yet despite everything, there's people that really care, people that really look out for one another.
It trully is amazing!

Oh and hey, I'm officially a paid youth leader now. That's right, PAID. I never thought it would happen, mostly because I never expected to get paid to do something I love to do. Well, God be with me as I do his work.

So WHAT if I have no time for me???

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I must be INSANE...

So, everything's going pretty well. Alot of stress here and there, but I'm fine as long as I realize that God's with me. I'm retarded at all other times. If there's good then there's bad, right?

Well, I accepted the offer to be the youth leader at Pastor Lo's. So that's a whole NEW bunch of kids to tangle with. You would almost think that having to stop a fight every other day at my job wouldn't be enough... Nah. The kids aren't all THAT bad... sorta... I mean, so WHAT if they go to court every once in a while and go to alternative schools and are constantly starting arguments and pulling crap every day?? Does that REALLY make them THAT bad? I mean... they're not drinking latte's and complaining about the car that daddy got them or how it's SO unfair that their best friend is going to the Bahamas while they're going to "stingy ol' Paris". It's nothing THAT serious. lol. But seriously, though, am I massochistic?

To top this off, my boss offered me to become "full time". By that she means becoming the new C.I. worker (the food bank handler that distributes food to those that are in need). I would work from 8:30am until 1pm as C.I. and from 1pm to 6pm as Act III teacher. That's right. From 8:30 am until 6pm. Everyday. Monday through Friday. 47.5 hours a week. For 9 bucks a pop. A rational normal human being would say, "HELL NO!" automatically. I, on the other hand, am considering it... I mean, I DO need the money... BADLY. Prostitution was starting to seem like a nice alternative. But I figured that would kinda conflict with the whole youth leader bit... Manwhore by night and spiritual youth leader by day isn't one of those things that would seem to work well... lol. Oh well. Maybe another time! lol.

But it's all in God's hands. So we'll see in time.

yup.

Deuces.

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