I'm debating seeing a therapist.

I just don't know where my insurance card is at...
Sometimes I feel like I could cry for days and it simply wouldn't be enough. I believe that's why I often don't cry. What's the point of starting something you can't finish? When i do cry it's merely like an overflowing tub, filled beyond capacity.
Truth of the matter is, I'm only debating seeing a therapist because I don't have anyone else to talk to. I feel as though there really isn't anyone I can be honest with, be myself with, or who would even really care. No one listens to me anymore. And I have no one to go to. It seems that my fears, my worries, my emotions are too much for anyone to handle. So, I guess I must pay someone else to hear them out.

I just hope they don't try to give me meds. I hate meds.

Psychiatrists give you meds; if you stay with a therapist, they shouldn't be able to prescribe you any.
I went to a therapist for a while. It gets worse before it gets better, I think, but it's worth it.
» Unicornasaurus on 2010-05-23 02:27:28

I think it would be good to go to a therapist. It seems like you've been really depressed for a long time. :

I was writing this story about a world where the weather was always perfect outside but weather happened inside people instead, based on their emotions. If a person were sad and never did anything to make himself feel happier, and never cried, his whole body would just fill up with tears until they made him heavy and started leaking out his eyes when he was tired. While I was writing this story I was reading your blog and I imagined that if you lived in this world, it would have been snowing all this time instead of raining... so that your whole body would be filled with the frozen tears that you could never cry and they would slowly cloud your eyes so that you couldn't see, and freeze around your heart.

All that aside, I bet it would help to get some kind of unrelated party to hear you out on everything. I hope you find someone! Or, you know, we can be your free therapists, but you probably can't really say everything you would say on Nutang, either.
» Zanzibar on 2010-05-24 12:46:28

my experience with a therapist was pretty awful, but i also take into consideration that i'm the type of person that thinks their expertise is bullshit.

that was just me. also, it was me in my younger days.

...perhaps they can help you, if you really think that they can. otherwise it's gonna be a waste of time, energy, and money.

zanzi's right though; we're here for you if you need help with anything!
» thaitanic on 2010-05-24 12:10:01

Definitely worth at try, I think.
While I have not personally been to a therapist, from what I understand, they do help.
And, like unicornasaurus said, they can't prescribe you medication - that's psychiatrists.
» invisible on 2010-06-04 02:53:08

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