I slpt at 2am after watching a Hk drama, The Academy. It brought bk alot of memories of me as a Staff Sergeant in NHSS NPCC. I miss those days, the shouting of yes whoever, drills, camps, being scolded, having fun. Hiaz, how fast time flies. I may seem weak on the outside, becoz i look fair, uhem thin then, but i think i was quite good actually. I m more of the quiet one, but i was quite cooperative rite? Melisa rite?

Anyway, feel very tired now. I dun feel like going to sch anymore, got projects to hand in this wk, tutorials to do, readings and notes writing. Hiaz, so much to do, but i have no motivation. However, i jus feel happy that D.D. is bk. At least, i feel that i can tok to someone of importance to me and D.D. wont judge me. I feel touched that he bought so many things for me in Taiwan, he is not selfish, and he even thought of my mum and bought her a jade pendant (S $50). He is going over to my hse 2dae to see my mum n pass her some gifts. I could nv do such things, visiting mui mui without D.D. It feels so scary and of coz i will feel pai sae. Dont noe wat to sae. Anyway, D.D. i really love you, n i hope to really see u in september. That will be my best 21st birthday present ever. Muacks.

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Been waiting for D.D.'s call and sms for daes, felt so sad. Was thinking abt the past times we had, then i started tearing. Luckyily, while i was slping, he called. he forgot to take bk his phone while asking his fren to help him charge it. So happy and relieved to hear him. Glad that he is enjoying himself over there. He bought me a $100(sing) playboy bag, haha... He spent so much on me and even bought me 3 pairs of earrings. Even thought i could only imagine, i m already appreciative of his thoughts and efforts. i was craving to buy a bag yesterday, haha, luckily D.D. got telepathy, i saved $40. Thx, cant wait to see and hold it personally. fast er send hor.

yesterday, i went for another haircut, $56 after $10 off. It is sort of funky, the top is really short, after she helped me style, i looked like a honkie (HK) lion king. So not me, so i pulled n pulled my hair till it look better. Hehe... I also bought a pair of black skinny leg jeans, was a steal, $35 only. Yeah!!!

Anyway, i cant wait for D.D. to return finally after leaving for taiwan,i want to see him on webcam n hear his stories. Muacks!

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Didnt really slp well last nite, dreamt that i was marching n asking for permission to fall in. haha... Anyway, b4 the start of my "International Management" tutorial, there were abt 6 of us, me being the only asian. K, there were 2 grp members complaining abt their China grp mate. Saying how useless he is, cant read english or watever. Then when the tutor came in, they started saying like how Adelaide uni let This kind of ASIAN students to study. A gal replied that coz the uni wants oversea students' money. I was quite pissed that they were jus assuming abt all the things. Hello, i have more experience in this course, coz i have studied most of the subjects in my SINGAPORE POLY. Wat bullshit, they think we r stupid, cant converse in english ah?

Wat's more, we are studying abt the diverse culture ard the world, n they have the courtesy to bad mouth asians in front of ME. Idoilts! I kept quiet for the whole tutorial. To that particular Aussie, go to hell lah. U r not the smartest in the whole,k?

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How Can You Not Even Speak Clearly?

Think of something else
But in your eyes what do you discover that flashed passed
How is it like loneliness?
Thus I will be even more silent

Things that have not been spoken
The whole world nearly understands what that is
And I get out of the way while embarrassingly smiling
I can only pretend not to understand

How can I expose your differences?
OH but yet
This world just has to be so crowded, so small and so thin

The sun intentionally shines so fiercely
Why did you appear after he appeared?

How can you not even speak clearly?
That tender tone, I can hear clearly

I stand by his side
You stand in front of me
How come my heart will feel sad like this?
How can you not even speak clearly?
That tender pain, I can remember it clearly

He stands in front of me
You pass by my side
Suddenly my heart feels sad again
Why?

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I feel quite sad and depressed. I feel left out. I m not called to join them in some stuff. Every thing is not rite. M i being too sensitive or petty? But its so clear and apparent that i m not included, not close anymore. Ever since A came, B and A are inseparable. I nd to tok to my D.D. really miss him alot.

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Suddenly, thoughts of couples looking like each other appeared in my mind. Was jus looking at kit's blog, when i saw her pic wif her bf. It seems to me that they look quite alike. The eyes especially. Hehe... I think i look like D.D. Oval face, wif no double eyelids (more so for D.D.) hehe... I miss him.

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