AustinSoty
Age. 35
Gender. Female Ethnicity. White
Location , PA School.
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I never thought you'd last
I never dreamed you would
You watch your life go past
you wonder if you should
If you should be my punk rock princess so I would be your garage band king
you could tell my why you just don't fit in, and how your gonna be something
If I could be your first real heartache, I would do it over again
If you could be my punk rock princess I would be your heroin
Tears run down my face just like the last
No different from yesterday
Sick from the mirror
Do these payers feel sincere
The dirt never washes clear
You were good, so good
I grew to love your lies
Until I put you in the past
Love was lust until he revealed
The man behind the mask
Will the scars go away
In this world I have no place
Forgive me Jesus this time I cry
I rip my heart out to give to you
Alone it never did me any good
Hold me close, wash my mind
Destroy the me that lives inside
Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
what creates my own madness
and I'm addicted to your punishment
and you're the master
and I am waiting for disaster
I feel irrational
So confrontational
To tell the truth I am
getting away with murder
it isn't possible
to ever tell the truth
but the reality is I'm getting away with murder
I drink my drink and I don't even want to
I think my thoughts when I don't even need to
I never look back cause I don't even want to
and I don't need to
because I'm getting away with murder
| Thursday. 12.2.04 3:58 pm from Curt today.. ha.. it was a green envenlope and card thinger that he got from one of his buddies there.. woot woot.. it was cute.. i cant wait for him to come home though,, the 24th yeahh cant wait til then.. well mine and Ananda's boxes arent together yet, but they will be tomorrow,... and we are doing a pookie pot to.. NO not a fucken cookie jar.. that girl is just annoying and i like it when ananda tells me her stories.. haha oh yes.. yeah but other then that.. today was kinda boring.. yup yup Comment! (2) | Recommend! Wednesday. 12.1.04 5:49 pm today was kinda boring and all.. but directed was all good with ananda and all.. our pervertedness is now going back to those good ol times..haha YES.."let me wet this" "lets stretch this out a lil, its to tight" haha oh god... good times good times..English report sucks basically, and i dont feel like doing it.. but the good thing of today was.. Devon was back.. haha i love that kid.. hes funny.. and wrestling season basically starts in a week!! woot woot.. Ananda.. we gotta go to one of them again this year.. bc the one last year was too funny.. hey stud, where you going.. haha oh good, always good times with u Comment! (2) | Recommend! Tuesday. 11.30.04 2:41 pm and well.. today kinda sucked.. 164 people were absent.. haha that cracks me up.. but in Directed today me and Ananda went to the ceramics room and we are gunna make some nice boxes.. woot.. go us.. it brings back all the good times.. Earing Holder.. haha good one.. its our little secret!!! yeah, but other then that.. today sucked.. but it will all be good tomorrow hopefully Comment! (3) | Recommend! Monday. 11.29.04 12:14 pm In towanda at my ma's work once again.. oh how i love this so much.. haha yeah riiight. ive been putting holes in a buncha papers for her binder and what not.. but as soon as i got here, some lady that works with my ma gave me a sleepingbag and i layed on my ma's floor and slept for about 4 and a half hours.. haha it was great, well i had to make up not getting much sleep at maga's some how ya know.. so this was the place to do it.. then when i woke up, all the people were like.. " oh the green blanket monster is back" i was like.. yeahhhhh.. but staying up a little later last night was all worth it, i got to talk to Brandon on the phone.. which made me happy  yeah yeah.. well back to work i shall go  Comment! (2) | Recommend! Sunday. 11.28.04 5:10 pm Was one of the best ive had in a long time...Saturday i went over to maga's and Kait was down from her big bad NY home, and we spent most of the day together.. we went to the mall and got our pics taken with Santa and then we rode the escalators up and down many times.. but that number will remain nameless bc we dont want anyone trying to beat our record.. even though its not possible, yeah it was pretty great.. then when we got home, we put this really dark cover-up on our faces and it made it look like we were black.. ha it was fun.. and then Kevin and Kris came over and we watched a movie and chilled.. then we took them home and we went to bed, all 3 of us fit in maga's bed and it was quite comfy.. about 4 hours of sleep though.. yeah yeah
Sunday morning Kait left.. it was sad and then me and maga went for a morning bike ride down to the pantry and got some food.. then we waited for keaton and we went and played indoor soccer.. and now im home.. wooot Comment! (0) | Recommend! Friday. 11.26.04 10:20 pm at the mall is fucken crazy.. theres so many ppl there.. Gezz it was hard to get around to go to different stores.. but oh well.. i got my indoor soccer shoes so im happy and well.. we put some Christmas stuff up.. so yeah, this vacation is kinda sucking, but oh well.. nothing new Comment! (2) | Recommend! |
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Pterodactyls
Love
Maybe love will find us again, but there is always tomorrow, sincerely til, the end, close my eyes, just for tonight, the sun still sleeps, when she wakes
Sleepwell
Count on me to say that everything thats good is gone, just force a smile somehow
UnderOath
Can you feel your heart beat racing
Can you taste the fear in her sweat
We've done this wrong
Its to far gone
These sheets tell of regret
I admit that i'm just a fool for you
I'm just a foor for you
Brand New
We saw the western coast
I saw the hospital
Nurse the shoreline like a wound
We paint a lover's tryst
We're neither clear nor descript
We kept it safe and slow
The quiet things that no one ever knows
Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop down
Give up my body in bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lowercases and capitals
I contemplate the day we wed
Your friends are boring me to death
Your veil is ruined in the rain
By then you like to do without
There's nothing new to talk about
And though our kids are blessed,
the parents let them shoulder all the blame
Razorblades
Yeah, Yeah
Walking example of you
Wait for the silence
Talking backwards to you
It meant nothing to me
Watching the world fall on you
I'm keeping my eyes closed
Now I can see what this means to you
It meant nothing to me
This wasted so many nights and again
Ive wasted so much time on a friend
Too young, too proud to understand
So this is the end
Perfect timing for you
You'll run 'til your legs break
So here's my reminder of you
It meant nothing to me
I'm lost at sea
The radio is jamming but they wont find me
I swear its for the best
And then your frequency is pulling me in closer
Til I'm home
And I've been up for days
I finally lost my mind
And then I lost my way
I'm blistered but I'm better and I'm home
And I will crawl, theres things that aren't worth giving up I know
But I won't let this get me I will fight
You live the life you're given with the storms outside somedays all I do is Watch The Sky
"And if you've ever said you missed me then dont say youve never lied." |
