AustinSoty
Age. 35
Gender. Female Ethnicity. White
Location , PA School.
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I never thought you'd last
I never dreamed you would
You watch your life go past
you wonder if you should
If you should be my punk rock princess so I would be your garage band king
you could tell my why you just don't fit in, and how your gonna be something
If I could be your first real heartache, I would do it over again
If you could be my punk rock princess I would be your heroin
Tears run down my face just like the last
No different from yesterday
Sick from the mirror
Do these payers feel sincere
The dirt never washes clear
You were good, so good
I grew to love your lies
Until I put you in the past
Love was lust until he revealed
The man behind the mask
Will the scars go away
In this world I have no place
Forgive me Jesus this time I cry
I rip my heart out to give to you
Alone it never did me any good
Hold me close, wash my mind
Destroy the me that lives inside
Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
what creates my own madness
and I'm addicted to your punishment
and you're the master
and I am waiting for disaster
I feel irrational
So confrontational
To tell the truth I am
getting away with murder
it isn't possible
to ever tell the truth
but the reality is I'm getting away with murder
I drink my drink and I don't even want to
I think my thoughts when I don't even need to
I never look back cause I don't even want to
and I don't need to
because I'm getting away with murder
| Wednesday. 3.9.05 3:01 pm i hate troy so much, and i hate the ppl in it, all the guys are ass holes and need to grow the fuck up.. but besides that, no school yesterday and well, school today sucked really badly.. due to the stupidity of guys and their jerkish comments, i hate them... but for the bright side, maga is coming over tomorrow, so that should be good, we havent got to really hang out in awhile, we think its a new record or something, but it will be done Comment! (5) | Recommend! let me keep being a stalker Monday. 3.7.05 5:38 pm well, its a monday, and its sucked.. went to gym this morning and had to play stupid volleyball, which no one in our gym class wanted to play besides Adam, what a moron, but its all good.. so yeah.. then came history, and then spanish.. in directed mr brann came in and since everyone knows hes going on the mexico trip, they were all like, bring me back a sovineir.. and i was like.. if you never come back, that'll be my sovineir.. yeah im mean, but who cares, i hate the guy.. hopefully the sub is much better, but since hes gone, im gunna me living it up at school, woo. well that about wraps it up for school, im hopeing for a 2 hour dely, but you can never be certain with the weather man.. Comment! (2) | Recommend! Sunday. 3.6.05 9:34 pm well lets see.. saturday i went to Brooke's cheerleading competition in Sullivan and Tony and Steven came along with us, yeah that was pretty awesome.. and then when i got home we went to the mall. there was a bunch of ppl there and i was mostly getting stared at bc of the shades.. but who cares. and i saw Brandon tehre, but to him im just a stalker, ya ok.. considering me adn faith were up there first.. yeah w.e.. and then sunday i had soccer with maga and we saw fag face right at the last moment.. blah.. so ya.. the weekend wasnt to bad, but the luck wasnt to good.. i hate most guys, they are ass holes Comment! (2) | Recommend! dont let the birdie hit the ground Friday. 3.4.05 8:28 pm yeah, so this morning in gym class, me and val planed to dress alike.. with our long red socks, black mesh shorts, and white soccer shirt, we were ready to go. Even though we lost our games, it was still fun.. a woot woot.. and then the rest of the day went on, me getting yelled at by mr. brann and so on.. then Darren came over tonight and we hung out for awhile.. yeah, that was fun.. i still find it funny that the cheerleaders in our school cant spell "competition".. or as they say "competion" hahha, that makes troy look sooo stupid Comment! (2) | Recommend! Thursday. 3.3.05 9:10 pm yeah.. well today i went to school and all, me and val played some badmitten in gym, we were really getting into it and all, sliding on the floor and what not, that was the only exciting part of my day really.. and the rest went on from there.. i did manage to get yelled at some more in Spanish, but thats just an everyday thing for me now, no matter what i do, i always get yelled at and called obnoxious.. fun fun.. and after school and what not i went to the student faculty vs. Lettermen thing, haha that was some great and entertaining stuff, so yeah.. that was my day, and now im bored.. so ya Comment! (0) | Recommend! I wish we could find the end of the Rainbow Wednesday. 3.2.05 7:59 pm haha.. ya, so today we had a 2 hour delay, which was nice and all.. and then i went to school, and well that went by fast thank god.. and then after school, meho, maga, and myself went up to the middle school to see mr. grega for a couple mins and then went back to the high school and meho left and then maga and i went to her ma's office adn then went to her house.. we got around and went to our indoor game at the Y, which we lost, but who really cares, its done with for now.. and now im home, not feeling to good and hopeing we have another 2 hour delay tomorrow morning, that would be really really nice, and then wa la, its friday again.. soo woooo
And a happy birthday to my brother Ed, who is now big bad 12 Comment! (2) | Recommend! |
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Pterodactyls
Love
Maybe love will find us again, but there is always tomorrow, sincerely til, the end, close my eyes, just for tonight, the sun still sleeps, when she wakes
Sleepwell
Count on me to say that everything thats good is gone, just force a smile somehow
UnderOath
Can you feel your heart beat racing
Can you taste the fear in her sweat
We've done this wrong
Its to far gone
These sheets tell of regret
I admit that i'm just a fool for you
I'm just a foor for you
Brand New
We saw the western coast
I saw the hospital
Nurse the shoreline like a wound
We paint a lover's tryst
We're neither clear nor descript
We kept it safe and slow
The quiet things that no one ever knows
Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop down
Give up my body in bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lowercases and capitals
I contemplate the day we wed
Your friends are boring me to death
Your veil is ruined in the rain
By then you like to do without
There's nothing new to talk about
And though our kids are blessed,
the parents let them shoulder all the blame
Razorblades
Yeah, Yeah
Walking example of you
Wait for the silence
Talking backwards to you
It meant nothing to me
Watching the world fall on you
I'm keeping my eyes closed
Now I can see what this means to you
It meant nothing to me
This wasted so many nights and again
Ive wasted so much time on a friend
Too young, too proud to understand
So this is the end
Perfect timing for you
You'll run 'til your legs break
So here's my reminder of you
It meant nothing to me
I'm lost at sea
The radio is jamming but they wont find me
I swear its for the best
And then your frequency is pulling me in closer
Til I'm home
And I've been up for days
I finally lost my mind
And then I lost my way
I'm blistered but I'm better and I'm home
And I will crawl, theres things that aren't worth giving up I know
But I won't let this get me I will fight
You live the life you're given with the storms outside somedays all I do is Watch The Sky
"And if you've ever said you missed me then dont say youve never lied." |
