AustinSoty
Age. 35
Gender. Female Ethnicity. White
Location , PA School.
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I never thought you'd last
I never dreamed you would
You watch your life go past
you wonder if you should
If you should be my punk rock princess so I would be your garage band king
you could tell my why you just don't fit in, and how your gonna be something
If I could be your first real heartache, I would do it over again
If you could be my punk rock princess I would be your heroin
Tears run down my face just like the last
No different from yesterday
Sick from the mirror
Do these payers feel sincere
The dirt never washes clear
You were good, so good
I grew to love your lies
Until I put you in the past
Love was lust until he revealed
The man behind the mask
Will the scars go away
In this world I have no place
Forgive me Jesus this time I cry
I rip my heart out to give to you
Alone it never did me any good
Hold me close, wash my mind
Destroy the me that lives inside
Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
what creates my own madness
and I'm addicted to your punishment
and you're the master
and I am waiting for disaster
I feel irrational
So confrontational
To tell the truth I am
getting away with murder
it isn't possible
to ever tell the truth
but the reality is I'm getting away with murder
I drink my drink and I don't even want to
I think my thoughts when I don't even need to
I never look back cause I don't even want to
and I don't need to
because I'm getting away with murder
| Friday. 11.12.04 10:05 pm i suppose.. whats the point in typing in here.. not like anyone actually reads them and comments.. its just what happens in my life.. not like anyone cares about it   Comment! (2) | Recommend! Wednesday. 11.10.04 2:53 pm was just another day like always.. nothing excited has really happened this week.. The Spearfish Cafe has been the best part.. and besides that. its kinda sucked.. we got Report Cards today and im 90 and above in all my big bad 4 classes.. so im pretty happy with myself.. but yeah.. nothing else real eventful has happened.. school has just been boring. but last night i did go to Charity's house with Sierra and Miranda.. to practice our Spice Girls stuff.. it was great fun like it always is when im there.. but yeah.. that about raps it up... Comment! (0) | Recommend! Sunday. 11.7.04 12:27 pm Sunday. 11.7.04 12:12 pm Well.. i havent wrote in this since Thursday.. so i suppose i should.. well friday after school i went to Charity's house with Sierra and well.. Charity and we had a great time.. Aron, Charity's brother. hes really crazy and such. but he took up to canton to get pizza and soda. so i mean its all good.. then i went home friday night and talked to James for awhile..
Then saturday.. well nothing really exciting happened.. I went to the Old Shoe game.. and well of course troy won.. we are just that good.. and im glad we did so those cocky canton ppl will shut the fuck up about it.. then i came home and some of my family came over for a bit...then thats about it.. and i got to talk to James last night..
and now im here.. sitting.. tired Comment! (0) | Recommend! Thursday. 11.4.04 5:54 pm watching: Recess
listening to: Spice Girls
mood: Happy/annoyed
Well.. ive been on the phone with 5 different ppl so far tonight.. gez.. its all good though.. well tomorrow night me and seirra are going to charity's house to work on our spice girl routine to get ready for the Spearfish Cafe.. woot.. its gunna be so fun.. but yeah today kinda sucked.. went to get my permit and well.. i missed 4 instead of 3.. so i failed thats ok though, theres always next week Comment! (2) | Recommend! Wednesday. 11.3.04 8:47 pm And i am finally 16.. wooot for me.. yeah today was one of the best days ever.. Sierra got me Waffle Crisp.. and well its the greatest cereal and me and Kels ate about the whole box.. then i took a cake in for 2nd period.. and it was mmm mmm gooood.. and then well.. Steven, Ananda, Kristy, and Courtney decided to have the whole lunch sing to me.. embarassing.. but i love them all the same.. so ya.. i actually got to talk to Cale today.. yeah its been awhile.. on the phone anyway.. yeahh i miss the kid.. but oh well.. my fault.. wrestling season is coming up.. you know what that means Ananda.. woot woot. haha member last year.. great fun at the one match against Liberty.. what u doin.. haha fun times.. and he actually came and talked to us.. oh fun stuff.. gotta do it again this year.. maybe we'll see blanket boy.. ha what a fruit he is.. oh gezz.. Comment! (2) | Recommend! |
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Pterodactyls
Love
Maybe love will find us again, but there is always tomorrow, sincerely til, the end, close my eyes, just for tonight, the sun still sleeps, when she wakes
Sleepwell
Count on me to say that everything thats good is gone, just force a smile somehow
UnderOath
Can you feel your heart beat racing
Can you taste the fear in her sweat
We've done this wrong
Its to far gone
These sheets tell of regret
I admit that i'm just a fool for you
I'm just a foor for you
Brand New
We saw the western coast
I saw the hospital
Nurse the shoreline like a wound
We paint a lover's tryst
We're neither clear nor descript
We kept it safe and slow
The quiet things that no one ever knows
Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop down
Give up my body in bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lowercases and capitals
I contemplate the day we wed
Your friends are boring me to death
Your veil is ruined in the rain
By then you like to do without
There's nothing new to talk about
And though our kids are blessed,
the parents let them shoulder all the blame
Razorblades
Yeah, Yeah
Walking example of you
Wait for the silence
Talking backwards to you
It meant nothing to me
Watching the world fall on you
I'm keeping my eyes closed
Now I can see what this means to you
It meant nothing to me
This wasted so many nights and again
Ive wasted so much time on a friend
Too young, too proud to understand
So this is the end
Perfect timing for you
You'll run 'til your legs break
So here's my reminder of you
It meant nothing to me
I'm lost at sea
The radio is jamming but they wont find me
I swear its for the best
And then your frequency is pulling me in closer
Til I'm home
And I've been up for days
I finally lost my mind
And then I lost my way
I'm blistered but I'm better and I'm home
And I will crawl, theres things that aren't worth giving up I know
But I won't let this get me I will fight
You live the life you're given with the storms outside somedays all I do is Watch The Sky
"And if you've ever said you missed me then dont say youve never lied." |
