AustinSoty
Age. 19
Gender. Female Ethnicity. White
Location , PA School.
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I never thought you'd last
I never dreamed you would
You watch your life go past
you wonder if you should
If you should be my punk rock princess so I would be your garage band king
you could tell my why you just don't fit in, and how your gonna be something
If I could be your first real heartache, I would do it over again
If you could be my punk rock princess I would be your heroin
Tears run down my face just like the last
No different from yesterday
Sick from the mirror
Do these payers feel sincere
The dirt never washes clear
You were good, so good
I grew to love your lies
Until I put you in the past
Love was lust until he revealed
The man behind the mask
Will the scars go away
In this world I have no place
Forgive me Jesus this time I cry
I rip my heart out to give to you
Alone it never did me any good
Hold me close, wash my mind
Destroy the me that lives inside
Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
what creates my own madness
and I'm addicted to your punishment
and you're the master
and I am waiting for disaster
I feel irrational
So confrontational
To tell the truth I am
getting away with murder
it isn't possible
to ever tell the truth
but the reality is I'm getting away with murder
I drink my drink and I don't even want to
I think my thoughts when I don't even need to
I never look back cause I don't even want to
and I don't need to
because I'm getting away with murder
| Friday. 12.10.04 2:46 pm im so disconnected.. and some how, i feel like i am haunted to be wanted... yeah so last night (thursday).. i went to the wrestling match against sullivan county and saw ol benny boy from sullivan.. and of course we won.. damn did i ever miss those matches.. but i hate the way all these preppy girls go just to see guys in spandex basically.. and yet they have no idea whats going on.. it kinda pisses me the fuck off.. but i came home and waited around and then finally got to talk to Brandon for a little bit.. but yeah.. its good 
Friday..finally..the week went by really fast and it was actually a rather good week. i went to school and this morning during first period we took hammers and nails and pounded holes into cans that had ice in them.. ms. nelson thought of this brilliant idea ya know.. for a christmas present.. woot woot.. haha but it was good then shes like.. take this stuff off my desk.. and so we did and she took a pinecone with this salt on it that we made about 3 weeks ago.. and she lit it on fire and all that good stuff.. shes like.. i need my lighter back for when i go smoke a cig during lunch.. haha shes so funny.. and so the hallways were all foggy and smelly.. but it was greeat fun.. yaya.. and during directed Ananda and I finished our boxes.. woot woot.. finally.. now they have to fire and get glazed and fired again.. yea!.. and i finished my english and during last period me and Sierra made these awesome bracelets out of tin foil.. ya know ya know.. it was great.. i love that girl..
Charity Jones.. me and Sierra miss you muchly and we hope you got our letter! I miss seeing your beautiful face every morning standing at my locker.. and i really do picture you playing with the shiney balls on the christmas tree near the office..WE MISS YOU! Comment! (5) | Recommend! Wednesday. 12.8.04 2:42 pm fill you in about the last 2 days.. well yesterday and today basically.. yesterday i went to school ya know.. great fun and all, and well i went through a day of school and came home and decided that i wanted to go to the basketball games and i met up with maga there and tehn she came over to my house and spent the night last night.. yes on a school night.. it was great fun.. but we watched Road Trip.. and thats just to funny and all.. and last night i kept asking maga to do all these random things, like take the batteries outta my clock and all... haha it was great.. but we didnt get much sleep because there was a stupid fly in my room that kept running into the wall and it was fucken annoying.. grrrr.. but yeah.. and Brandon called me last night... you know how that goes.. and haha.. our basketball team lost last night by about.. 60 points.. talk about sucky.. i went to school today and it was.. well.. it was schoool. not very fun, but me and maga wore our pjs so it was all good.. she has my pjs, a shirt of mine, and my socks.. gezz.. and of course directed was fun with ananda like it always is.. and that craig hall kid.. haha ananda made him think a lil.. haha yeah yeah.. woot.. not to bad of some days.. but tomorrow is the wrestling match and im so excited.. FOR DEVON Comment! (0) | Recommend! Monday. 12.6.04 4:19 pm and thats all there is about it.. but today wasnt to terribly bad.. just long.. had directed iwth ananda again.. woot woot.. yeah thats always fun, and well i dont think much else happened today.. besides the fact that it snowed and all. woot woot.. and it was so cold in our school bc we cant afford heat.. god thats so stupid.. pisses me off that i have to wear a hoodie and winter jacket everyday.. but oh well.. w/e i suppose Comment! (4) | Recommend! Saturday. 12.4.04 9:07 pm this morning and i ordered my shirt to support devon this year for wrestling.. then i drove home.. and here i sit still.. havent dont much today.. talked to maga and brandon on the phone and had some good convos with ananda on here.. yup that about wraps it up Comment! (4) | Recommend! Friday. 12.3.04 2:51 pm Friday. 12.3.04 2:45 pm And my day has been gooood for a change woot woot..Well, i woke up this morning and there was no electricity and i was like.. wtf.. but it finally came back and i was able to get a shower and all.. thank god.. then i went to school and first period was funny yet boring.. but its always interesting with Ms. Nelson and all..then 2nd period, we had this speaker for Drivers Ed.. and everytime she looked at me.. i just laughed, she had a weird tone to her voice and it was erking me. then of course trig and lunch.. nothing much there.. and then english
In english we've been doing our report and we had to write something about the way it connects with one of the stories we read in class.. and of course mine is the stupidediest.. yaya.. ya know.. and well we were in room 149 fooling around and what not and Charity Jones is one of the funniest people i know.. and i love it..
And well.. im home know waiting for Brandon to get on like he said he would.. hes great.. and i hope i get to hang out with him soon  Comment! (0) | Recommend! |
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Pterodactyls
Love
Maybe love will find us again, but there is always tomorrow, sincerely til, the end, close my eyes, just for tonight, the sun still sleeps, when she wakes
Sleepwell
Count on me to say that everything thats good is gone, just force a smile somehow
UnderOath
Can you feel your heart beat racing
Can you taste the fear in her sweat
We've done this wrong
Its to far gone
These sheets tell of regret
I admit that i'm just a fool for you
I'm just a foor for you
Brand New
We saw the western coast
I saw the hospital
Nurse the shoreline like a wound
We paint a lover's tryst
We're neither clear nor descript
We kept it safe and slow
The quiet things that no one ever knows
Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop down
Give up my body in bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lowercases and capitals
I contemplate the day we wed
Your friends are boring me to death
Your veil is ruined in the rain
By then you like to do without
There's nothing new to talk about
And though our kids are blessed,
the parents let them shoulder all the blame
Razorblades
Yeah, Yeah
Walking example of you
Wait for the silence
Talking backwards to you
It meant nothing to me
Watching the world fall on you
I'm keeping my eyes closed
Now I can see what this means to you
It meant nothing to me
This wasted so many nights and again
Ive wasted so much time on a friend
Too young, too proud to understand
So this is the end
Perfect timing for you
You'll run 'til your legs break
So here's my reminder of you
It meant nothing to me
I'm lost at sea
The radio is jamming but they wont find me
I swear its for the best
And then your frequency is pulling me in closer
Til I'm home
And I've been up for days
I finally lost my mind
And then I lost my way
I'm blistered but I'm better and I'm home
And I will crawl, theres things that aren't worth giving up I know
But I won't let this get me I will fight
You live the life you're given with the storms outside somedays all I do is Watch The Sky
"And if you've ever said you missed me then dont say youve never lied." |
