Group pic, most of my bros friends, mybbro n Ron are in the front row with Emily

Family pic -frm left Wayne, Papa, me, mama, kohkoh

Tiff, Michelle and me after a few drinks :p

Pink ladies - me and Jess

My childhood friends frm Primary school - Gail, Michelle and me

My soul sister - Danae and I

Tiff & me tipsy O_o hehehe

The day of the party had started off with me waking up at 6:30am, my body and mind started to work straight away…because I knew it was going to be a long day! So much to cook, to prepare made me crazy! At one point I was left home alone to cook and then I heard a noise. I ran so quick into my room, locked the door and phoned up my dad. The house was just sooo quiet and I thought there was a robber in the house! My heart must have been so jumpy that day cuz it was beating so fast and anxious about the party’s turn out. Silly girl!

Tiff and Yo came over to help me…and without those girls I could not have such an awesome party! I was so glad they came, it really made me feel like things were in control. The weather looked bad, cuz it had been drizzling and I prayed to God for it not to rain at night. My mum asked me to sleep or take a nap in afternoon because I would be staying up quite late. I could not! With so many things to worry about!

We went down town to pick up the sushi platter and last minute groceries and liquor at 4pm. It was also a dilemma cuz Tiff was not able to find someone to take over her shift at work! And she is one of the most important people of the party…in the end she stayed anyway. At 6pm my friends shooed me away from the kitchen to get myself prepared. I just couldn’t leave until the cooking was all done. But I had to cuz my family was coming over to take photos with the cake. Then people started to arrive and I really begun to let myself enjoy what I had planned.

Gail was on the DJ mixer, Tiff & Yo with the new Kenwood smootie mixer. Hehe It was so nice to see everyone there. Having a good time! I didn’t eat much but drank a bit. So sorry to those people who I could not attend to during the night. I felt bad for leaving some people bored. I was soon legless…haha as predicted, but not fully smashed! Gail got me to make a speech and I could hardly remember what I said! My older bro was there and so were his friends. Everyone was mingling and that was great! Ron came over and mixed up his flaming Lamborghinis which left many of us sick! Haha. My poor boo had 2 to himself! We cut the cake and sang happy bday..got pressies. But the main thing that made this so memorable and happy for me were my friends and saying that they had an awesome time!

By the end of the night most ppl had gone home, Tiff, Michelle, Gail and Fernando stayed over and helped cleaned up in the morning. Those 3 were probably the most ill from it all..haha Tiff can hold her drink as usual! I was sick early but sobered up during the night so it was a memorable 21st ;) One thing I do remember most was me and Michelle crying, it was funny but sad at the same time. We have been friends for 15 years and haven’t been in contact very much. But I will always love her and we will be friends forever. Whoever is my friend will never be forgotten! Then I was crying also cuz my bro’s friend told me to tell my bro about going out with Fernando, as it is almost a year. I felt bad for not telling him..and my parents too. Maybe it is not as bad as it seems. That was enough to trouble my mind the whole weekend. :/ But besides that I had a wicked 21ST birthday thanks to everyone who showed up :)

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My bros and I at suppertime, notice the new hair??!!!

GO GIRLFRIEND IT'S YA BIRTHDAY! GO GIRLFRIEND IT'S YA BIRTHDAY! :P hehehe sounds funny coming from me...but if others were saying it and cheering me on that's another story. ;) It has generally been a good day. I have been running around non-stop and haven't had the chance to let it sink in. It doesn't feel like I am one year older (???) It will prob hit me on saturday when all my fam, friends and so on will be there to celebrate with me and get legless.hahaha. But I am hoping to keep so sort of sane manner... see how long it will last ;p

But today was nice, warm..i got the day off. hahaha! I mean what better reason to take the day off? I have not took a flex this month and feel I deserve a bit of "me" time. So I went to the HOuse of ernest to get my hair done. HELLA posh place in PERTH!!! All these rich, snobby ladies flashing their credit cards just to get a a spa, mud wrap, highlights, manicure etc and coming out like it didn't improve very much! lol! Why do ppl spend so much money on these things? I know it makes u feel good, then again it sucks when u have to spend hard earned $ on a service.

I'm happy with my haircut, it's much shorter than before,but my family say they don't see any difference. hahaha. They always say that. Maybe one day I will go the shaved head like Fernando..then again he would kill me :p I also went to buy some MAC cosmetics which I don't usually splurge on... Quite happy at the end of the day :) And to top it all off I got to see my bf....we went grocery shopping together to get some supplies for sat night's party. Felt really nice...just to hang out there hEHEHE.

Then come night time at 11pm my family all went down to China town to have supper. It was great! Very filling! :/ I didn't get any presents this rnd...but I am so happy to have received so many birthday greetings, sms, friendster, email, e-cards :) I felt so loved and remembered that that is enough to make my birthday the best! We took a few photos at Billy Lee's restaurant and went home. What do you guys think of the new hairstyle? :)

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Petronas Twin Towers - a significant figure in KL city

I was appalled when reading the recent articles concerning Malaysia, my country of birth, which I still have a love for. I just could not believe the way how the Chinese Malaysians are still being treated. Even though we are in the modern era ‘Post-Mahatir’, I would finally expect equality among the groups. But no…we chinese & Indians are still considered second class citizens! Malaysia is always going to be an Islamic state period. Here is a statement taken from human-rights lawyer Malik Imtiaz, “the "Islamisation" of Malaysian society and politics has gone too far, and is eroding the country's once-liberal traditions”.

Now Anwar Ibrahim is out of jail, I fear there is not going to be much hope of Malaysia becoming a more democratic country. He is a well-known Islamic politician and if he was to regain power, what hope is there for Indians and Chinese? Maybe it’s because I am in Australia and I read about these articles, I get so furious how human rights are so disgusting! And now I am Australian…and many would say these matters do not concern me. But it concerns me as a human being and a fellow Chinese… not as a Malaysian.

Working at DIMIA has allowed me to read these issues and be aware of what is going on. How can a country that is so modernized in its technology, economy, intelligence and have hard working citizens – can have such a poor political system and rising corruption rates! It is multicultural nation, why can everyone recognise each others’ differences and live harmoniously instead of dictating others! I’m sooo mad! Plus it is ‘Harmony Day’ here in Australia. It shows that we value everyone’s differences and actually celebrate it! I appreciate being here in Perth, but then again I wish I could make a stand, for my chinese bros and sis out there in M’sia.

In Malaysia I will not have a chance to voice out such an opinion…I would probably be beaten or put in jail. :/ For just saying what I feel. The Chinese will never forget the day in 1969 of the bloody racial-riots between the Malays and the Chinese. I was not born then, but my parents recall that horrific day, they were only children at that time. When will there be a time where all citizens in Malaysia are given equal rights? That is the day when Malaysia can truly show their true potential as being one of the greatest nations in this world! I truly respect those Chinese who still choose to stay there – work hard and who are so tolerant, you are the reason of Malaysia’s development and you should be proud!

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mood: laid back

It's great to have my big bro back in perth! We just had our traditional yumcha session the weekend that he comes back, nice.. but now I'm feeling like a big piggy! My bro made a comment today which made me feel really good about myself, he says I'm looking nicer. I KNOW it is NOT normal for a brother to say that, cuz we usually kid around. But I think he is accepting me as an adult and giving me a good word. I don't take good words all that easily...I tend to say "not i'm not...there's so many other beautiful girls out there" instead of "thank you". *blush* Im just average. :) Happy being that way...for once in my life!

My family is doing stuff together again! It can never be complete or nothing will be done together unless the last member is back in perth. When kohkoh is not here, we are going on about our lives, never have sit down meals like we used to. It's nice to sit down to a meal and chat about stuff. :) My bro wants to get a new car, maybe a BMW 5 series...and I'm hell excited :p Not that I'm one of those girls who look for guys with nice cars, but I would love to be able to drive one myself ;) A lot of girls often get the bad rapt about liking guys only with HOT cars...but that isn't the truth! We wanna take it for a spin ;) hehehe. Then again there's the occasional bitch who likes to milk her man. NOt saying I know anyone personally!

Plus I scored tickets to go watch the new movie 'Miss Congeniality 2'...I love Sandra Bullock, I would luv to be her! hehehe. She's just so laid back, funny, pretty and confident. Or maybe it's her characters on screen. But I would have to skip uni for that on monday...hmmm...decisions.. hahaha of course FREE MOVIE!!

Work ain't too bad anymore, I can handle things much better...manage ppl. And it feels good. :) Being alone in the Finance section this week has also made me a stronger player. My supervisor sees it in me ;) Can't wait for pay increase on Mar 24th! My birthday!! hahaha! I think this yr is gonna be a great yr...for everyone... *wink* Have a great weekend pplz!!!

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You Will Die at Age 85

85 Congratulations! You take good care of yourself. You're poised to live a long, healthy life.

Hopefully this is true ...

Don't you just hate it when you are in bed, tossing and turning, trying to find the best possible position to fall asleep. But no matter what position it is, it is not the physical that is bothering you...it is those ANNOYING thoughts! I must have stayed up for about 2 hours last night, kept up by possible situations and equations of how to make life more easier, calm doubts, and stress over failing myself. I did not get back from uni till 8:30pm and had gone to work at 8am yesterday. So it was approx 12 hours of physical and mental work...

But why am I complaining? I think about my friend Gail and how she has to work 12 hours out at the mines. Maybe cuz she is paid well for her hard work...whereas I don't have many rewards. Does anyone have any sleeping tips? How to calm one self to sleep? Well after the 2 hours of tossing and turning, I gave up fighting my thoughts....and wrote them down in my diary, cuz it was time to let them out! I also had chocolate in my other hand...and even though it was unwise of me to eat choc at such a late time...it certainly helped :)

This 20 yr old feels up there with the 40 yr olds. :p I mean my peers are married, having babies..geez! And being so serious! A lot of my friends speak too much serious stuff and are just getting old and negative and depressed. Pllluuuezzeee guys don't let life get you down. These days when I am feeling stress I take notice of the simpliest things (friends, sunny days, sleep, tv, food) and it makes me smile :-) Like my last entry, I re-read it and it just sounds so "old" "grumpy" and not like me... I mean the complaining bit was 100% me...but the negativity destroys us inside...

My bro is coming back this Fri and I'm so glad!! Hopefully I will be cheery then :) You know he said my little bro (18) needs taking care of and I don't need it cuz I'm independent!!! I have been independent my whole life - forced to - cuz I'm middle child!! But I wished there was someone to look after me, and care for me like that, doesn't everyone wish for that feeling? Sometimes I feel like I could've been the oldest...heehe! I just realised it is very unfair in families with 3 or more children.. :/

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mood: energised

There is one thing that people know about me and that am a quiet, too nice, too polite, too lienient a person. But with this new job, comes responsibility and the authority to kick people in the butt when they miss handle money. My supervisor has told me that I shouldn't feel bad for chasing people up, making them stay behind at 5pm to correct their mistakes of taking public money. It is ok to become assertive, it is ok to have a voice and make a difference.

I am developing that skill of being assertive and I don't give a FUCK when people don't like me or not. I am kind but I am also STERN. ;) I just can't stand it in these environments how people assume a new person is a timid person, who knows shit all! But I showed them. Now many of them look to me for advice, help...and I am willing to give. I'm glad to have this new found knowledge and it feels damn good - to be important. To have a specialized knowledge within an organisation :p

Some may try to push on their work to you...asking you to correct it. But the best way is to shove it right back!!! Cuz it's their shit and their supervisor can deal with it. Hehehe. In a big organisation - you look out for yourself! Not for others, always have records to back you up. That's my advice to you. Have a strong shell, keep personal stuff within. ;) Therefore they have no opportunity of breakin u or bringin u down. I have learnt a lot in the past couple of months.. and I hope everyone appreciates the change. Thank you :)

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