I get excited at the anticipation of writing in a clean new journal every year. I get a bit unsure as to how to start my writings when I buy my book of clean white paper... but I just do the usual... write what I feel and have gone through my days in the year. This is not a dated diary, just plain pages, so it does not limit how many pages I should write per day.

It is just a nice, 'quiet' place to be yourself and pour out your inner thoughts and feelings. It is easier said on paper rather than lost in translation of verbal words. Every year my diary has to have a different look, it must be a representative of what's to come in 2007. I should post a pic of my journal cuz I really love and enjoy writing in it. As much I enjoy typing in Nutang.

Every year though... the diary becomes more expensive hehe. I dont know why, but I think I love to cherish my thoughts. I have not yet bought a leather bounded one, but I will in the years to come...maybe when I am more mature. I have written in a diary as long as I can remember, maybe when I was 8. It is my release and my escape...

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In my new unit at work I realise that everyone is so different. We are really diverse in immigration, everyone is from a different background. But also we all have personalities, and it relates very much to the way we do work. I think I am genuinely a quiet person, as much as I try and be an extrovert I can never feel completely comfortable in the presence of a large group of people. My last section (Finance) was only a close group of 4 ladies, now we have 8 people and I have very 'LOUD' colleagues. It is both good and bad...good because we never have a dull moment, always joking around and playing about. Bad cuz a few of us are quiet and dont have a chance to voice ourselves and we are not noticed as much.

I thought I would be able to have clever come backs and hilarious jokes to charm my colleagues but I dont. I am like one of the most boring workers in DIMA. Often labelled as the soft spoken, nice girl. It sucks...I want to be more aggressive and noticeable but also I want my personal space. I dont think I can handle being popular or talked about. For example, even when people comment on my appearance being 'nice' I often doubt their opinion.

Hmm...man...there is still so much time till retirement lol! I think I should be able to survive the office social scene, but I still cant accept it as a part of my life. It takes up 8 hours every day, quite a big chunk! But I can never be comfortable with it being a part of my life... it sucks. Maybe cuz Im not doing what I totally love, but just satisfied with. But there is no doubt I am working with lovely people...I just hope they can accept me for my boring self. lol!

Dunno what's up with the low self image at the moment, but even though I know I am boring guess I dont care either...I will never want to be the follower or sheep. As long as I am comfortable and being myself, that's what I should be proud of...even though I am the soft spoken, nice girl. It's better than loud mouth, bitch face. hehe.

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After waiting all Winter to get to the Summer weather I am not so sure I like it anymore :( It was so bloody hot today I kept on feeling dehydrated and also very sleepy. I think it may have been about 40 degrees. Lucky I wasnt working at the Salad Place cuz I would have died of heat! I know I complain a lot, but it was really affecting me that badly today!

My stupid boss forgot to tell me that the shop was closed on the weekend, so I took the bus down to the city for nothing! And not to mention, on Sundays, buses come once every hour. So I was waiting at the busport for 1 hour doing nada. I was really peeved off. Anyways Im gonna give him a call tomorrow and tell him Im quitting, cuz I'm just not happy with the way he has been lately with HR stuff.

The heat is killing me slowly and bringing on the moodiness...I cant believe the weekend is over already! It's like it never happened, no much time to relax and just too hot to do anything. I know jst got back to work..but Im looking towards a break already, probably Australia Day long weekend. It just sucks when you dont have air con...

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No student would wanna come across me when they are in Perth Immigration cuz I am one of those scary officers that cancel your visa and ask you to go home! MUhahahahha... well that is my new job, a cancellations/student monitoring officer. If anyone steps outta line, not attends class and fails their subjects, it is more like being a teacher! I didnt think I would be cut out for this job and even like it, but it is becoming more interesting each day. It is more about helping students find options to stay rather than to kick them out of the country for 3 years.

A lot of the clients I have come across look very desperate and depressed, it is quite hard to see that way but I must learn to treat my job as separate and not let it affect me. I have learnt from friends that you sometimes have to not be too sympathetic and listen to everyone's probs when you have to deal with your own first.

Anyways yes, I have to be more assertive and stick to my guns when dealing with these cases... so it is fair and just for everyone who applies for a visa. Well I just to practice on not being a softie. As I can be sometimes, or mostly.

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So it is 2007, big deal...it feels like every other regular night and day spent waiting for midnight and doing a stupid count down. Sometimes I wonder why celebrate it? Let's just sleep on it and then wake up to 2007, but people use this as an event to drink and be really stupid, make stupid mistakes and spend lots of money, wearing stupid hats and making loud noises.

Hmmm...well kinda similar to our Chinese new year lol, but that is so much better. You actually have to go and visit your relatives, making nice traditional food, also clean up the house and you receive ang pows (good luck money) from elders. :) You also get to see lion dance, chinese dances, fire crackers that damage your ears haha and all to bring good luck into the new year. I love it and can't wait for it to arrive (Feb 18th). If only I was in Msia with my friends and relatives, we would have a big CNY dinner on the eve of the event and the young ones stay up really late - so that their mother n father will have a long life. :)

2007 will definitely mean change for me, I will move into my new posi on monday doing e-visa work. Should be interesting and then I will also finish my 2 units to finally graduate! Hopefully housing prices in Perth will come down and I will also get to buy a place of my own. But till that day happens I will have to move back into my parents house and chill out for a while. Also I have quit my gym membership, cuz I think it is getting boring and the place really stinks! Ive only just noticed...

I can't be bothered making up any new year's resolutions becuz I think I am just going to break them. Or there is no point, just make a promise to yourself, not some resolution cuz these things r meant to be broken but promises well...there is some moral content attached to it. Just hoping for good health n success/prosperity to everyone!

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