Last night was the BOYZ II MEN concert! It was sooo damn good! I was very impressed and the tickets were WORTH IT! It was Gail, Jess, Mel, John, Danae & friend, Heidi & I at the concert. We had a really good time...I love them sooo much! hehe. They sang the Boys to men classics like 'End of the road', 'down on bended knee', 'Mama', a few motown classics and their new stuff. It was rocking, the crowd was up and dancing and everyone was excited. hehe. I regret not bringing my digi, but hopefully my friends will send me some pics ;)

Only 3 of the BOYZ II MEN showed, but it was still excellent! Tash was performing too, a friend I know from highschool...she is becoming a star..and it's so cool to know someone who is soo talented! :) Then 'Random' sang on stage, they are from ' X-FACTOR' the tv reality show, they were good too.

The songs of BOYZ II MEN just move me so much, it reminds me of my primary school, highschool years... The song 'Mama' really made me cry for some reason. I guess it has always touched my heart and reminds me of what my mother has done for me all these years bringing me and my brothers up.

I ended up with a headache at the end of the concert because I was screaming, plus I only got to sleep at 6:30 in the morning that day, cuz I was chatting to F & his bro, Carlos. Also before the concert I hung around Tiff and Yo in the city. I have had such an awesome weekend, but just really tired now... I think I may be falling sick cuz of my lack of rest. :/

wELL....If I do manage to get some pics, I will put them up. I've just been humming BOYZ II MEN songs all morning. hehe...

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mood: like an elephant

I hate feeling this way...when you think your own body has expanded like a balloon. And you just feel sick and disgusted when looking at yourself in the mirror and pictures. I'm having one of those phases at the moment. :/ Even though my friends tell me 'you have lost weight', it sounds sooo untrue...about the way I see myself. I don't want to go back to that low self-esteem girl again..

It must be because I have not been to the gym in 9months! When 2 years before I had been going consistently. I'm thinking of joinin up again, but just thinking of how hectic my life is already...I could only fit my workouts during lunch. Funny how I rant about how appearance isn't the most important aspect of the person, yet I wish it for myself. It's terrible, but the truth in this world - looking more appealing attracts more opportunities. :/ How shite is that? But does looking nice really make you happy? hmmm...

I had a busy weekend. Had a 19th on friday & a 21st on Sat. Father's day on sun, and I'm just buggered. :/ Imagine me bouncing around again...hehe after all these months of being a granny. To join the gym or not to join? That is the question..

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I wish people weren't so "false nice" to each other, but they should tell each other the truth when meeting for the first time. It eliminates all the false barriers. My work mate and I agree that ppl should just say it how it is...and not bullshit, cuz it will only make things worse in the future. When the initial perception of someone is not the real deal, it tends to disappoint. I realise that I am not my 100% self when meeting ppl face on. If they knew me they would probably find me to be a bitch. I can be introverted, perfectionist, controlling, workaholic, argumentative, blunt, sarcastic, emotional, hard, cold, impatient...I could go on but I won't hehe.

My current conversations lately have been with guys and ladies about meeting the 'right one', a lot of the time they say they want the other half to love them for who they are. They are all their straight forward 'unfavourable' qualities at the beginning of their r'ships. I reckon I was upfront with my 2nd rship, I gave F my weaknesses and he was ready to deal with them. As for my first bf, it was kept very "polite".

So in a way...being polite in the first instances of the rship the other person does not get to know the 'real you', therefore setting up a failure in future of the rship. It is good to be upfront about yourself...prepares the other half, opens up communication. But if the person is not ready to cop whateva you dish out about yourself, they are not worth being with. Cuz some ppl can be ignorant, judge you immediately and not strong enough to make it work.

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listening to: my love for you - the game

Thanks to Jen's sweet comments, I decided to perm my hair. I am now known as 'curly' at work. hehe. I know my last entry was a total contradiction about having a nice appearance...but if you guys know me...you know I am a shape changer when it comes to my hair - meaning I get urges to change it every now and then, cuz of my fluctuating personality hehe. Here are some pics..let me know what you think and BE HONEST!


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mood: narky

Why are ppl so afraid of showing their real selves to the closest ppl they love. When they are the ppl that you place your deepest love and trust in. I find that I cannot talk to my family about certain topics and even keep quiet about it within conversations with my best friends and my boyfriend. They often get frustrated at me cuz they have no idea what I am thinking...but they get the vibe of how I am feeling. It's funny cuz I can tell random ppl how I feel, like over the net...those friends who are on the other side of the world...even to common folk who I do not associate as much. I feel that by getting a external perspective of myself from others least closest to me, they will not place me in a mould.

You can often find comfort in strangers, who give you a glimpse of their life and of their thoughts, and they teach you something you dont know as yet. I love my family, bf and friends but sometimes it is good to be alone from ppl who 'know you'. In actual fact I dont want anyone to 'know me'...I want to keep a lil of myself to me... :)

At work, the guys are gossiping about me and interested to know me. I get teased everytime I go to work! But I get peeved off by the fact that they would not want to know me 5 yrs ago, when I was in highschool. Image is such a BIG thing now a days. Even though I look after my appearance it does not ultimately rule my life. And it is not the most important reason to get to know a person. It just gets on my nerves when girls' only aim in life is to be stick thin, be on the cover of a magazine and marry a rich husband to take her on shopping sprees. Hmm...and I am referring to someone in particular...but i wont say hehe...

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