This is the second time i typed this entry. what the hell. I dont know what ive pressed but the whole entry had jus gone in split seconds.

Fine. i retype.

What a stupid day ahead of me,
Lets start off with my ID orientation stuffs, it's such a flop.
We must go thru a series of torture before getting our new timetable.
yeah...playing games that were so outdated, moronified. Why cant we get our timetable and go? I know the orientation leader had spent time planning it, too bad, im not enjoying any stuff out of it.
Fifi and I thought that arriving late can help us skip the game part. So we were 2 hours late. Holycrap, just in time for game -_- bad timing.
Standing there in the crowd just makes me feel so....so....so....silly.

The only thing that brighten up my day is that Fifi and i will be in the same class again!!! But some dissapointed cos mandy is in different class. Dont worry mandy, i'll ask Sam to take care of u!

The whole moronified thing end ard 12.30, was suppose to meet jo as we needa head down to terrence office and discuss some stuff but missy jo cant make it.
Thought of hanging out with friends,
Sam in Hong Kong,
Wilson in Bangkok,
Dewei as usual, loyal to the sch. orientation leader.
Rainie, Michelle, Clarissa. No advance appointment.
Then i realized...my circles of friends is that BIG.
Nowhere to go, i head back home...and took a nong nap. A nong nong nap.lol
From 3 to 8 man..5 hrs of nap is too heavy for me...too lifeless.

im leading such a lifeless life. nothing seems to interest me -_-
Guess some shopping needs to be done in order to cure myself.

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Sometimes I think i should trust everyone around me,
sometimes I dont...

Sometimes I think I'm important,
sometimes I dont...

Sometimes I give in
sometimes I dont...

Sometimes I feel comfortable with you,
sometimes I dont...

Too many sometimes? There's more...

sometimes people just take things for granted.
sometimes true feelings have been neglected.

We shouldnt treat everyone so nice cos some really dont deserve that treatment.

This is what i heard from a goodfriend. Well, I agree with that. We cant possibly treat every single human around us nice. To me, there's always a level to it.
be it passeryby, schoolmates, friends, best friends or even buddies, all should be treated differently. U might be thinking, whats the difference between friend and best friend? arent they all friends? should treat them all nice right?
Sorry, I cant.

Frankly speaking, i dont have much friends. In fact, i dont need to many friends.
What for I've got tonns of friends but only a few or perhaps none understand me? This makes a friendship so superficial. Im not asking for superficial friendship, not hi-bye friends, not friends who send me only goodnight sms and most importantly, not friends who make use of one another. I hate superficial.
I dont mind having little friends cos within those lil close friends, they understand me, they wont leave me stranded, I know we can depend on each other and most importantly, I trust them. Rather spending time on superficial friendship, the time should be given to these close friends. Friendship should be treated seriously.

I treat every single friendship seriously, and i expect to get what i deserve in return, not favour or money, but trust and respect. Im not perfect, and no one can expect me to be perfect. But why...why do i have this feeling that u're trying to make me perfect? I tend to be forgetful at times, forget the words u've told me... but does it mean that u're not important? It makes me feel that all these while, the stuff i've done are not appreciated.

I guess u've sense something wrong with me today. Sorry i lied to u by saying im fine. I just dont know how to tell u straight as i dont wanna make stuff difficult when we see each other after that.


Sometimes...u just need to understand.

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The work today require lotsa PR skill and unfortunately i'm mega bad at it.
Looking around i see everyone attending to customers, 'popularity-not-so-good' me feels kinda strange at times, standing alone in the middle of nowhere -_- . It's always like that, im seriously not suitable in customer service line.
Forget bout the PR thingy... what make me really sick is the so called manager.
Though she help me do some free threading(damn pain but shiok)

SHE'S BITCHIFIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She got what it takes to be a bitch. She can be supa nasty to anyone if she's having some mood swing.BITCH! If she's slightly happy... she can be nice which i find it really fake. hahaha.. and what makes me wanna puke is she calls everyone darling!
HELLO BITCH? 5 mins ago i suppose u r scolding your so-called darling? BITCH

And what can we do if she's having her fucking mood swing? like fools, we need to smile, in order to survive longer. Fuck... im having some split personality now... perhaps turning into some evil monster soon. How can i smile when some bitch had just yell at me? is it so difficult to be myself in this kinda workin society?

ahhh... whatever shit. Im still me... i'll hate if it requires and love if it's deserved

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Happy Happy 20th birthday joelle ;-) stay happy always...

Started off with a bad day, the 3 of us come up with an idea to give her a surprise at sentosa with a cake, but guess wat? the plan is screwed up... because jo and me got work to rush, thought we could finish in time and meet wil and dewei. We agree to meet at 11.30...poor wilson and dewei, already waiting for us at the beach. I feel sooo bad, till now im still feeling extremely guilty, cos shouldnt have let them wait for so long. I sulked my face throughout work...well, sorry...couldnt help it, I cant control my mood.

So end up, outing cancel...no surprise...no sweaty pics ;-(

After that, jo and me we made a pact, after work we needa pamper ourelves with nice food...sakae sushi,carl's junior,crystal jade... all the nice nice food comes into our mind. And yeah, those food stayed in our mind only. Too much stuff to finish... big feast gone, we ended up eating some random nasi lemak..not bad la, quite nice.

Things got better after dinner ;-) we start cracking again...
we chat so much while working... discussing all the drama show and stuff, and indeed time past real fast. We tend to work faster when we talked..heee
Da boss and he's family are real friendly... dont mind working for them again...lol

Finally...everything is done by 10pm... (btw, i start at 11am!)
hahaha... birthday plan still on of cos...celebrated jo birthday in kbox( hope u like the cake)
some lousy birthday planner i am right? i'll try to be creative nxt time.

ahhhh~ work again tml! with jo...yep...AGAIN! but diff job this time...
Some hardworking we are right? one common goal we have. Save for holiday trip!
Hong kong..wait for me

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Yeah...finally... my turn to accompany joelle at work ;-)
That sweet girl, always help me out during my work...some free labour -_-
it's time for shan to return this favour!

As usual...I'm late. Told joelle I'll reach around 5...end up i reach at 7 (im sorry!)
Time seems to past so fast when im working with dear jo.
We chat, We eat, We check out pirated dvds.*opps
In the end, we cant finish da work, gotta head back down tml morning at 8! Hopefully, I can reach on time.

Suffering from insomnia these days. why? perhaps thats the side effect of rotting myself at home. It's time to set some goals.

Oh ya...im going sentosa tml with buddies4 after my work. Buddies4: jo,wil,dewei & me ;-) Will upload some sweaty pics soon...hahaa
It's ChillOuT Time Again!!!

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Yeah! finally I stepped out of my house. Through the pics below, u will get to know how outstanding I am during work. 3 thanks.




BIG Thanks to missy lin for accompany me thru the 1 final crucial hour! loveyasomuch

Anyway, this shop is closing on 9th June. Any boss wanna employ me then?
I'll be outstanding i promise ;-)

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Weather: windy/cold
Shan's mood: :-S some depress

78 hours have pass and i never once step out of my house ;-)

Shan's sunday:

4.37 PM -- Rise and Shine
5.01 PM -- Watch American Idol, repeated (katherine mchphee is in! yeppie!)
5.30 PM -- Watch Jurassic Park.The Lost World -_-
6.15 PM -- Eat, Bath , Rot
7.15 PM -- Still watching Jurassic Park (till 8 Pm)
7.30 PM -- Something Bad happen... blood were shed. Im sorry derrick
8.00 PM -- Still feel very bad. while feeling bad, I watch Spore idol autidion.SUX
( some respect for the contestant. Respect them becos they
are such a fool yet nv realize it )
9.01 PM -- Watch my Fav show! Needing You
( watch it 101 times, i still find it so nice ;-) sammi rox )
11.37PM -- Watch some serial killer hong kong drama series. Nice!
12.45PM -- show end. toilet break
1.00 AM -- Watch dvd.a japanese movie, NaNa... nice nice nice.
Mika Nakashima is so cool!!!
3.43 AM -- rotting on bed
4.03 AM -- typing this entry

See that important role my TV and dvd player is playing? they are the greatest invention in the whole wide world.

Coping at home for 78 hours did make me feel depress. My popularity is sliding down!!!!

Movie, coffee, chillout...ANYONE??????????

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Yepppie... finally a new blog skin!!
Big thanks to my boring Saturday which brings me the urge to give my blog a new look ;-) see that girl in my new blogskin? Denise Ho. She rox totally and she's my ideal lesbian partner.lol (sammi can be my sister)

Suppose to meet mardum fifi to chill at mt faber but last min she couldnt make it, guess she went to meet her ahmad at lucky plaza. hehee.(im kidding mardum fifi!!)
That's single life i guess, stuck at home almost every beautiful weekend. It's a routine for me...and I'm really getting use to it. It's not a bad thing afterall, at least i can get to accompany my family and create more blogskins. So what's the big deal of having a date on weekend rite? okay. self-deceiving over here
I'm going 19 soon, then 20...21...22. I finally understand why women wanna hide their age from others. Cos the feeling of being old sucks.

Nice to see some good friends in love river (u know who u are.hehe)
Friends at my age are already synchronized swimming in that river while lao niang is still rowing that lil sampan, waiting for some Mr nice soul to push her down.
wont be happening soon as my sampan is working reeeeal well.

hahaa... enough of my sampan craps... it's 5.26am. off to bed!

Ending off with a pic of my ideal lesbian partner ;-)


denise rox

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