Im so sad.

Guess today is my saddest day of the month ;-(

Why do i needa put in double effort to achieve what i want all the time?
even if i put in all my effort, i might get nothing in return
whereas some people could just get what they want so easily.
Sometimes i feel like the guy above me is trying to be funny.
Why mess up my life like this? I feel so dejected....totally.

To that guy above which i dont even know he exsist. if he does, and happen to have a blog that connected to the mortal world, read this clearly

IT'S JUS A ADIDAS JACKET I REALLY LOVE.
IT'S LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT!
U DONT WANNA ME TO HAVE THE GUY I LIKE. FORGET IT
AND NOW...

YOU DONT WANT ME TO HAVE THE JACKET I LIKE

Well, seems like the whole adidas outlets have run out of stock for size 38.
SO WHAT? IM BIG SIZE I NEEDA SIZE 38 CANNOT HUH!?!
so i see, the jacket are plainly design for bloody midgets!!!!

You guys might think im making a big fuss out of it...
but thats me, when i really like something, i will try all my best to get it.
I've been aiming that jacket for like 1 month? Reason why i dun wanna buy when i first saw it is because im fucking broke. get it?

WHY, WHY, WHY do i always have to try soooooooooooooo fucking damn hard to get the things i like? WHY?! expectation too high? NO. thats so not true.

Im really angry, yeah, fucking angry.
I wish i could be god one day and i'll make everyone disappear
(be glad i never say die)
i'll only keep the one i love. No one on earth except us.
Everything will remain unchange. Except theres no human beside me and my loves
Then i will have plenty of jackets,plenty of clothes, plenty of everything!

fucking cool. Dont comment bout that, i dun need comment, its only a wish and it wont come true.

I dont know how to end this entry... so i'll jus say... fuck.fag.fick.

And yeah... i will never give up. i getting it no maater what! fuck

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Ive got tonns of photo in my com, but hell i'm rushing some proposal, will upload really soon! hahaha.. cant wait to see right? too bad, i'm a busy girl! lol

Last weekend is really fun, its wil and ruiyi's bday. yeah, my beoved buddies.
So much to update, so lil time... arhhh! I will be back!

to be continue.....

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It's saturday, yeah..weekend finally ;-)
And i'm gonna bluff myself that im enjoying my saturday.

I'm coughing my lungs out,
I'm desperate to go out,
and I'm at home ;-)

Mum say im sick and i cant go out. This makes me feel so much better, knowing that its not because i dont have partner to go out with, its just that my mum ask me to stay at home cos im sick. Yeah, deceiving.
Truth is: I jus dont have a partner to go out with.

Where do i really belong? I mean, sometimes when u wanna go out or something, u will sure call that one person, that him or her or whoever that u normally hang out with...In my case, I dont know who should i call?

Dozen of neglected smses have been sent to my respective friends who i thought we belong to a group.

No reply

So i see, im fading off and no one can see me and my fading smses.

Okay, im not perfect, i cant act like i reply to all da smses my friends sent to me. And i cant deny the fact that i do feel that lil bit dissapointment that i dont have a 24/7 soulmate. Maybe im a girl who dont need one?
Soulmates should be able to chat on da phone whereas for me, i dont do phonecalls, I dontchat on phone. Soulmates should be able to talk whatever shit under the sun but i cant. I dont do secret sharing. Soulmates should share weekends together but i cant, cos i cant reach anyone!
I find myself so hard to please at times. I'm tooooooo temperamental
I swear i'm gonna be the first person who died of moodswing in this world.
No, my pms is over, im jus plainly feeling very moody, period
I simply hate that feeling of not having that someone when i actually need one.

When im feeling bored, i expect someone to feel bored with me.
When im feeling down, i expect to make someone be down with me.
When im feeling angry, i make sure someone will be that victim to bear my shit.

Orite, perhaps all i need is jus a freaking need a robot which listen to whatever shit i say.Get me one. Thanks.

I wish i can type on and on and on and on....
so i dont have to think of wat to do after typing this entry ;-(
im so ylenol

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I believe my life will be pretty damn good without you around.

Is it kharma? Perhaps i did bad stuffs in my past life that i have to wash these sins away by having you around me?

Take her away mom.

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Im sick, and im missing all my dear friends...so much so much ;-(

I wonder if u guys still rememeber this pretty lady over here. ehem...

Work till so late today and i needa walk thru that lonely street all alone~
cold, lonely and pathetic.
[By all means, go ahead and puke, as ive mentioned: EMO NIGHT!]

Sigh~ Sigh~Sigh

Everyone needs some care and concern right?
Where's mine?

My brain is burning! Pour me some love. Thanks.

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I think it's retribution, I've make fun of people too much.

They are getting some less on the front part...

Its getting kinda obvious,

No, it cant be happening to me,

God, stop making fun of me,

First u make me tall, now u wanna make me bald!?

Yes, i suspect i might be going bald. MIGHT BE

Something must be done.

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Its only 12.55am, and im getting freaking sleepy -__-
[ Didnt sleep well last night, or i shall say, i nv sleep at all, as im too excited]

Too excited as today is da first of work. Lotsa things run thru my mind,
thing like how is the boss? will i get scolding on my first day? or even worst, will i get to reach da office not? [ cos i dun really know where the office was located at first]

But guess what, things went pretty well.
The location of da office is good, its super near my house [ its walking dist frm bugis, its near Arab street] Those shophouses office? YEAH! ITS MY IDEAL WORKPLACE LA! SHOPHOUSE SO COOL! hahaaa...

I reach da office on time ;-) [my working hours: 9am - 6pm. weekdays only.]
Its an interior and architecture firm, its more on architecture. Overall, the office... not bad la.. kinda cool. I've got my own desk and com ;-)

U guys must be thinking, first day of work, should be relaxing. BIG WRONG! I've got tonns of autocad drawings to edit. Im not complaining, I find it good instead. Im hoping that they will give me more work, so time can pass faster, and I'll get to learn more stuffs! Indeed, I came across quite alot of problems and im really lucky enough to have some helpful and patience colleauges. They spent time explaining da detail drawings to me, and even gave me books to refer...

Man, everything is sailing so smoothly...I hope situation can maintain like for the next 27 days. *God bless

I've learn lotsa new useful cad's command today! its really helpful....

My first day of work, a really fulfilling one ;-)

and its 1.18am, freaking sleepy -__-

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Try something new today.
Straight hair. No, not reborn.
Its straight, and soft.
Run out of natural expression, bear with that spastic looks
See da hair. thanks ;-)




Reason why the pic is not that clear its because lao niang no make up plus theres a hugeeee pimple on my chin. FAG

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