anyone heard this song before? i really like it alot, one should listen to songs like that when you are feeling down, it will probably make you feel a wee bit better.

tho in actual fact, the sun has been hiding behind the clouds, coming out to peep for awhile and then going back again. oh well, this world aint perfect.

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i was teaching roger some french last night, i realised i wasnt that bad! tho i think i am the worst in class. out of 10 words, i knew 7. hey! that aint too bad for a beginner! but its sure tough to sound french. i sounded like a ah lian speaking french, which makes it french-lish.

here are some stuff i found on the dictionary,

c'est un beau type = he is/it is a handsome guy

c'est une jolie fille = she is/it is a pretty girl (so now you know what my dog's name jolie means)

tomorrow if i am still awake after finishing my french class, i will go to the library at the esplanade to check out the foreign movies (Dvds) I hope they have a good selection, cos i simply love watching foreign flims.

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i have work piling up! geez when will i ever finish them, stress stress stress! i aint thinking now, so i am just typing some crap. my head is going ding dong and my brain is swaying in it.

might be back with more tonight.

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i always thought that women can nag better than men. bah! but i am wrong, the older men i know are good naggers! i got nagged at by my uncle just 30 mins ago to have a church wedding as soon as possible.

i was like, hallo?! where do you want me to get the money? you think its that simple to have a wedding ceremony? you might just want a church wedding but what about the other party's parents? they might want to have a big wedding banquet, photo shoots, etc etc...

its really not that simple. i have goose pimples thinking of all the trouble we have to go through just to make other people happy. i mean, whats the point man? why cant i just remain the way i am now? i just want to save and get my own flat someday, but forget about all the other crumblesome stuff. i am really not interested.

it was the re-run of the teletubbies. he repeated over and over again to get married. ain't i officially married in the eyes of the law now? after the 3rd time of repeating the same thing, i got pissed and decided to look at the television. yes, probably it was rude, but i couldn't give a hoot anymore. it was driving me up the wall, they just dont understand the difficulty that i have.

i am so sick and tired of all these, i wish i can vanish from this earth. Like pam said, if marriage was that cheap, i'll probably be married twice by now! this irritates me to the core. I hope i'll never be stuck in any of these marriage debate ever again!

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always look on the bright side of life. I may not have my friends anymore, but i have gained new friends. thanks pam and agnes!

being the optimistic person i am, i woke up today and started a brand new day. I went to class, sleepy as usual. the same old classmates, the same lecturer, the same smart alec girl, it sort of makes me feel comforted that i still have people around me.

geraldine the name that i have not heard being called for a long time, was called at least 10 times today to answer questions. I was sub-consiously made to believe there are still people who remember me.

I get merci! (s) for answering questions right. see! at least someone appreciates my effort for doing something.

I guess french class is the only place i get appreciated, noticed, wanted and definately not alone well, that's better than nothing, right?

After class, 2 of my classmates were exchanging numbers, i hung around abit. I needed the company.

I wanted to ask for their numbers but i was too embarassed cos i didn't really know them that well. then i heard, "hey geraldine! what's yours?" mine? you mean you really want my number? gosh, that was one of the finest thing i have heard in months. It was like, an achivement! i made a friend!

My other classmate wanted my number too. Holycow! now i have 2 new friends! I walked to the bus stop with one of them and realised she was a lecturer at lasalle for theatrical and drama. wow!

Even though the conversation was short and sweet but its really good to have someone to talk to, finally!

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there is really no point crying over split milk, no point reasoning with a ignorant fool. we all have to move on, standing in the same spot will not make your friends come back, nor will standing there let you have new friends. you've got to move your butt and walk out of that comfort zone, then you will see new things and meet new people.

And you will probably then discover, that maybe the new world without them is a more beautiful & a better place to live in!

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had the most tiring afternoon in orchard today. shopping for a gift for genesis's 1st birthday. in the end i bought a fisherprice toy. like one of those wheelburrow, with cubes, to train her motor skills and for her to pull along when she learns how to walk. sorry baby, the barney stuff just wasnt as interesting.

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i read pam's blog and i sense a sort of familarity in what she wrote. often i have felt the same way, un noticed, un appreciated, unwanted & alone.

but i guess that's part and parcel of life man, people gain new friends and they slowly discard you, because they have more interesting topics to talk about with their new found friend.

am i just a spare tyre in your car boot?

occasionally, you will open your boot and check if the spare has punctured, you spend no more than 1 minute with the tyre.

unless your current tyre suddenly punctured on a bumpy road, then you hurry and come looking for the spare. but by then the spare has already become mouldy and air is slowly leaking from it.

are bfs and gfs the sole cause of the problem?

actually i would think so, one by one my friends have left me to be with their partner. it deeply saddens me that i am no longer in their league. not even an hour of their time is left for me anymore.

they have to check on their partner's schedule, they have to meet their partner for dinner, they can't meet you unless their partner has something urgent to attend to the last minute.

the more absurd ones, they even have to seek their partner's permission. do i look like i will kidnap you and store you in the shopping centre's storeroom and thus making you unable to meet your partner after? the even better ones will meet you and then while you are talking away, he/she will start exchanging sms-es with their partner. am i that miserable to be with?

who am i?

unfortunately i am not spiderman, with great powers comes greater resonsibilities.

i am just a nobody, with great relationships comes greater solitude.

thank you for letting me know my worth in this world.

The worst solitude is to be destitute of sincere friendship” (Francis Bacon)

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look at these french rugby guys!! OMG! i think i have just found a new hobby. to watch french rugby!



sexy? wait! wait till you see this!


















and this,







and my FAV pic of all,





so CUTE! ok i am determined to master my french now!

drool....

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Anger...
Acting out in anger and haste is never the answer... this little story helps to explain why... 

Once there was a little boy who had a bad temper.
His father gave him a bag of nails, and told him that everytime that he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.

The first day, the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence.
Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered that it was easier to hold his temper  than drive the nails into the fence.

Finally, the day came when the boy did not lose his temper at all.
He told his father, and the father suggested, that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to control his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone.

The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence.

He said "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man, and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there."

are we often in the same stituation as this boy?

blabbering out words of anger that hurt others?

think twice, even trice, before you speak, you might leave a wound in someone's heart that may never heal.

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i have decided i must live a new life, a new lifestyle! some resolutions i have decided to make.

- work, work, and work very hard! save money and fulfil one of my dream to own my own flat.

- spend $0 buying stuff for others, for people who dont appreciate it

- wash my hands clean. (like ceaser did) yes, au revoir to you

- learn something new. maybe html!

- spend my time doing more meaningful things, like clicking on the digital charities on the left to help accumulate more donations. I am sure those orphans and people in the 3rd world countries will appreciate my time spent better. :) and i will feel happier.


Benjamin Franklin
The heart of a fool is in his mouth, but the mouth of the wise man is in his heart.

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