happiness, anger, sadness, i feel none.

am i turning eremophobic?


i smile no more.

i hide in my shell like a mollusk,

the presence of humans around me causes anxiety

will i be crushed?

shall i be strong and continue my journey or shall i hide once more?

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In the insanity of my mind, i'm a depressed person stuck in a little black box. the little blackbox has a peep hole to let me see the beautiful light outside...the rays and the beautiful wonders of life, the new beginning. it shines in the tiny hole of my little black box and sometimes makes me feel better.

my little black box has no doors, only that little peep hole. occasionally i will put my finger out, wringle it and enjoy the warmth of the light. i pray that one day... i pray that one day i will be able to break loose from the little black box and i will be able to spread my arms and embrace the warm rays of light again. i long to hold you close and maybe this would all go away, this burning sensation inside my mind ,my aching bleeding heart and the silent screams that torment my soul

but no one knows. no one bothers. many times, passer bys will think my little black box is a part of trash, they strike me with a vigorous blow to the wall.. blocking the light away from me. this causes so much sorrow in me.i wish i could be part of this world! but no one would regard me as part of it. i would tear, but no one can see it, i am stuck in my little black box.

then one day, some people took me up from the corner. i was so delighted! these people brought me home. they put me in a garden. i heard new voices, voices of grand parents, happy children clapping away. i was warm, i felt new. i could see the ray of light in my little peep hole again. I was ecstatic!

but alas... i was wrong.. they had only wanted to use me to step on to paint the fence around the house. the voices that i heard were voices exclaiming how beautifully painted the fence was.

i was thrown in the trash the very next day... no more light, no more clapping, no more laughter...i was sneered at... i was unwanted again... i failed to see through my little peep hole.. there's no more new beginning, only the end.




it's the void, my dark quiet void.

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i have decided to pick up some extra skills. skills that will benefit me and my future. i will spend all my free time learning and nothing else. I will cut down my shopping and save money. i will bring jolie for more walks. I am washing my hands of everything else. all material things only bring disappointment.

what is my small suffering compared to those who are suffering from the aftermath of the tsunami? its nothing. whatever i do now, i will think of them and think how lucky i am to be alive, with a roof over my head, a radio to listen to, and good food to eat. I hope all of the victims will be able to brace themselves and rebuild their country. I really wish i can go there to be a volunteer but i have to think of my family.

may god bless all of you. may god give you the strength to face each new day with new hopes and promises of a new beginning. may god bring all the lost souls of the disaster up to heaven to be with him. may god also bless the volunteers, the doctors, nurses and all helping out, bless them with strength and good health.

this natural disaster has made me seen another side of life. what may be here today might be gone tomorrow. we all have what we have today because of god. he gives and he takes. treasure what you have, expecially those around you, for you will never know how long you will have them with you. give and take, forgive and forget.

I have also seen tons of singaporeans helping out, carrying bags of clothes, boxes of food, donating and contributing to the victims. its very heart warming to see young and old doing their small parts. i saw a very small girl, carrying a bag of clothes that might just weigh as much as her... i saw senior folks at the supermarket buying boxes of food to donate... its all so encouraging. it makes me want to do more for them.

thank you, all of you

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u disappoint me, all of you. i see despair and i see the end..

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i am so dead tired.. but i shall not be broadcasting what i did, because i believe that doing deeds of such doesn't need to be broadcasted on loudspeakers to let people know what you have done.

Do your little share! 1 can of milk helps, 1 packet of noodles helps. This is not about how rich you are, but how much you can afford. Give more if you can afford more, give lesser if you can't afford that much. Its the thought that counts.

imagine we are the ones, hanging onto trees to survive. Your house has been washed away by the tidal wave, you are cold and hungry. EVERYONE around you has been washed away and you cant find them. how you'd wish someone will give you a cup of warm milk or a packet of biscuits

this is all karma. and i strongly believe in karma. who knows one day we might need help from all these people.

do a good deed for the start of 2005. help them today!!

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please do your share and help the victims of the tidal wave disaster. Old clothes, blankets, rice, flour, biscuits, milk powder, noodles, sugar, salt etc can be donated. Please do not donate food stuff with a short expiry date and no pork please

Do your bit to help them, imagine yourself as one of them and how happy you would be to receive a warm bowl of rice that would keep away your hunger, every little bit counts. God bless you for your kind deeds.

enough said.. i am going home to get my bags of old clothes.

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For those of you who want to make a donation in aid of the tidal wave victims but are unsure how to. I think it will be better if you pool donations from friends before making the trip down to the various donation-collection points.

The Sri Lankan Airlines is conducting a donation drive. This is convenient for those who work in the CBD as their office is onCecil Street:

"For small parcels/items, we would appreciate you sending your donations down to our office at133 Cecil Street,KeckSengTower, #13-02,Singapore069535.

For medium-sized and large donations, let us know at sin_sales@srilankanaero and we will make arrangements to collect items from your office either with our personal vehicles or with a logistics operator.

 Items that are still in urgent need are medical supplies, water treatment, food and tents. These items will get the highest priority to be flown toSri Lankafor relief work. Our current list of items needed is now as follow:tents; food (Pre-cooked or ready-to-eat meal packs); water purification tablets; wheat flour, rice & other staples; drugs: paracetamol, anti-biotics, wound dressing, suture material, disposable syringes, vitamins, and vaccinations for diarrhea, cholera and malaria; intravenous infusions (saline & Dextrose); portable generators.

 

Our grateful thanks,

Johann Wijesinghe

Manager Singapore andIndonesia

SriLankanAirlines"

 
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The Singapore Red Cross is also accepting donations through various ways (http://www.redcross.org.sg/press_bayofbengal_appeal.htm):

"The public can send their donations:

1) By cheque
Please address the cheque to "Singapore Red Cross Society" and indicate behind the cheque "Tidal Waves Asia". Include name, address and telephone number at the back of the cheque as a receipt will be sent to you. Post the Cheque to:SingaporeRed Cross, Red Cross House,15Penang Lane,Singapore238486

2) Donors may wish to come personally to make a donation (either by cash or by cheque) at the Red Cross House,15 Penang Lanebetween9.00am to 5.30pmon weekdays and from9.30amto12.30pmon Saturdays.

3) Donors may also make on-line donation at DBS website @ https://internet-banking.dbs.com.sg

For more information, please contact us @ 6334 9152 / 6334 9153 / 6336 0269."

 
you can also donate online at Mercy Relief (http://www.mercyrelief.org/asiatidal.html).

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