hmmm i am so Glad its friday, school is been torture

so tonight i am going tanning and then to the baseball game, its against canton, so we will hopefully win....then i dunno what i am doing, prolly working on my history, we got it back today, it needs alot of work.

saturday i am going up to get my dress again...i went up on weds and they tucked one side, and not the other...crackheads anyway...they have screwed 3 girls' dresses so far.

Sunday i have a cobblestones show...then i am not sure what i am doing, might just stay home and relax

hmmm i think thats all...i might get on this weekend, i dunno....until then Peace

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haha haven't written in so long that i thought i would let u all know that i am still living.

so not mcuh as been going on...school is well school, but its almost over, the seniors have twelve days left, so that means we have about twenty. Cheerleading tryouts have come and gone. Kelly and I are on both Football and Wrestling. I don't really want to do Wrestling, but it was the only way i could get kelly to try out for football. Prom is a few weeks away....I AM SO EXCITIED. Gary and I are going together. We are going out to dinner first with Kelly and Dane. Then i think we are going to Kelsey Connell's party afterwards. more about all of that later. Then the day after prom i have three cobblestones shows. yea cobblestones has been really hetic. we have had a show (or two, or three) every weekend since april...yea its getting rather old. but shore trip is coming up and it will all be worth it. I am going to Show Choir Camp again this year, that should be fun. Been hanging out with Kel alot, She's great, I Love her.

Oh yea I got my License!!! I am SO happy. I now drive to school, so no more worrying about rides or riding the bus. I love it, not depending on my parents to take me everywhere is real nice. I can do more things. They like it to because they don't have to take me to all my practices and shows and such.

Well i think thats all for now, i might get on later tonight just to write more in detail about soemthings. I definitely need to write more often. until then..peace

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i really haven't solved anything...but i honestly don't care
hahah i am in one of those just go with the flow moods...and i like it, its just so laid back, not really any stress...haha hope it lasts awhile, but i doubt it

so the problem is that I like Gary (aka the guy that played me before) again. Yea I know dumb Brittany...got hurt, but did I learn anything...hell no. I guess i really never got over him, I just kinda put all those feelings in the back of my head. Then him and Erin broke up..and well all those feelings came back again. We hung out friday...and thats what i was confused about, can't really figure out if he likes me or not...but i am not gunna worry about it

so what else is going on in my life...not much
just school, which is good for once...i seem to be doing good in everything. The quarter changes next monday and i only change Concepts of Clothing for Service Learning. Hopefully I can work with Mrs. Grantier.

hmmm...i also haven't been getting along with my parents too well lately. I don't know i guess i just don't agree with how they are trying to raise me. Somedays I feel like they are never gunna let me grow up, and others i feel like they are taking the nest right out from under me. I honestly think they don't care where I go to college, as long as it doesn't cost too much. They always seem to find something wrong with the schools I like, but they seem to love Mansfield (a state school about 20 min. from here) theres nothing wrong with Mansfield, but i need to get out on my own and experince things...or i will never learn things for myself. But i wanna grow up on my own time...not when they want me too. I am also very different from them. I have way more friends and inmore activities than they were. This means I do alot of things they never did, which they don't like. I constantly hear "I never did that when I was ur age" or "When I was in High School"...yea its a pain in the ass...I am different then them...I wish they would get that...and since i am an only child, I am the only one they have to look after...thats alot of pressure.

What brought all of this on was today we were watching a movie that said something about a father getting to know his 7 yr old daughter...i was like shes ur kid, and u don't even know her....and kelly said well ur parents don't know u...and thats the truth...i am not sure whos fault that is, I mean I don't really talk to them, but they want me to be the kid they want, not who i am...yea its weird...

well i wrote way more than i thought i would...interesting...anyway i don't know when i will write again...i still like nutang and get on to read stuff, but i hardly ever feel like writing anymore...which is odd cuz this is like therapy to me....we'll see...maybe i can start writing more agian...sure makes me feel alot better.

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i should really write...so many thoughts rushing thru my head...and instead of helping, all my thoughts are just confusing me more...yea sometimes life just sux
so its late so i am not gunna go into details...and i am not quite sure what i want to say...or if i want to write anything at all, cuz i am just sure if i want to remember this weekend

yea i am really confused...and it seems like none of my friends know what to do to try and help me fix the situation...i guess we'll just see i feel tomorrow...maybe church will give me a new meaning to life...ahh that would be great

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