well i was hoping that i never had to write another entry like this...but another death has occurred in my family.

Tuesday night I had a wrestling match. When i got home, I found out that my cousin Derek and his mom were in a car accident while Derek was driving. Derek was fine, Karen was in critical condition. Well days passed and on thursday we found out that Karen had no brain activity, it was Feb. 2nd...exactly 5 months since my Grandma passed away. Karen's husband finally got home (he's in the army and was stationed in Iraq) and they removed the machines that were keeping Karen alive. I don't know if she has technically passed yet, but they are calling the time of death when we found out she was brain dead.

Derek is devastated and the rest of the family is in shock. I still can't believe this is all happening...again. Our grandma is still fresh in our minds, and now we lose another loved one. It just kills.

But i know my family can pull together once again and slowly ease the pain. We're strong, where on lacks, the others can pick up. When together, we can face the world...even if the world is against us. Life sucks sometimes, but I know we can overcome whatever obstacles God wants to throw at us next...so i guess we wondering what could possibly happen next?

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Thursday we had a match...we kicked butt...i think it was like 69-6

Friday I just hung around the house...just realxed and such...stayed up til 1 am...then was forced to get up at 10:30 the next morning because my mother needed to vacum in my room or something

So Sat I babysat for Mrs. Davison. Her kids are so cute. It was actually fairly easy...they really like movies..we watched 4...couldn't get them to do anything else...haha well Molly fell asleep around 9... Matthew around 10:30...but I was there until 12:30...so i got paid $30 dollars...which i thought was awesome...i mean i was there for 6 hrs...but i didn't do too much

Today we had a cobblestones show...it was prolly are best pop perfomance yet...i really liked it...then i went to elmira with the family...we ate at applebee's...YUM!!! now i am listening to the Seehaws and Panthers game

So lifes getting better...i knew it would...it was just getting here that was hard

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hahah i got a 92 on my chem final! can get a HELL YEA!?!? haha so yea a 92 got me a 93.6 unweighted grade so i got my A....but its a 96 weighted...oh yea...i am so happy and proud of myself...that was a hard final...he said we prolly won't have that hard of a final in college...yea i am pretty excitied!!

yea so in a much better mood today...even thou its raining and its dark...its kinda funny cuz it was so nice out like all last week when i was in such a bad mood...and now i am happy and it sucks outside...anywayz this is the last day of the semester so i brought in breakfest pizza for chem...i am gunna miss that man so much...he has taught be so much about life...not chemistry...hahah...well a bit of that too...but i am gunna take AP chem next year...so no school tomorrow or friday and new semester on Monday...i do have an English final...but its mostly on the books we read...and we get to use our notebooks for the authors...i am not worried...i have a 99 in that class...yea i should have a really good GPA this semester...maybe i can move up to third...maybe...maybe not

well pretty much all for now...but i think Brittany is finally back!

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yea i tend to just stare off into space and blink alot now...haha

i understood the orgnaic chemistry and the easy stuff from chem 1...but everything else took some definite thinking...i mean i got some of them eventually but i am not sure if they are right...all i have to say is thank goodness for partial credit and thank goodness that we got too omit 5 questions...i still had some blank after those five...but i don't think i did too bad...prolly not the grade i wanted...but ill survive

in other news, early demissial today so i am only in this hell hole until one...
yea i am just sick of being here...and know all u troy graduates are gunna be like be glad ur there its not always great on the outside...yea its not always great here either...i want out...

i have come to the decision about NYU and my dream to go there...i am def. gunna apply next year...and if i get in then i will consider how much money i am gunna need and if its really worth it...if i don't get it...then there are other schools in Pa that will be much cheaper...but a friends told be that i need to take more risks...to just try and if i fail then learn from it...i am still not too excitied about the failing part...but going to NYU and living in NYC...its just what i want to do...and its my future..so if i wanna go...my parents said i can do it...but i am going to have to take out the sutdent loans and pay them back...but i do wanna try it...i mean even if i go for just one year...and hate it...then i can transfer...yea i just want to be somewhere else

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