So once again, it was been way too long since I have last posted. Almost another year has gone by and all of the life that goes with it. I think I will just devote this entry to school stuff...but we will see how that goes.

So I believe I was in summer classes the last time I wrote. Since then I have put in one semester at Mansfield University and am currently half way through another. I love it at Mansfield. I finally feel like its a school that I belong to. I have friends that are both from my home town and other places. I also have amazing teachers. So far, I have at least tolerated all my teachers...and when they weren't my favorite it was mostly due to the fact I didn't like the subject they were teaching. Anyway, I love the teachers in me degree programs; they are great people and great teachers.

I am now majoring in both English and French. However, I am getting a B.A. in both rather than a B.S.E. It was a huge decision to drop my Education major, but I am so glad that I did. The Education program just wan't the place that I belonged. As of right now I plan on going on to Grad School for English, though nothing is really difinite. I am way too indecisive for my own good. One day I lean towards foreign languages and think about going into linguistics. Then, the next day I really enjoy literature discussions and think about goint that way. Other days I lean towards grammar and writing. So far, I still feel like I will be teaching...but hopefully at the college level. I just don't know exactly yet. I surprise myself everyday. For example, I used to think that I hated American Literature. But now that I am in my second Am Lit class, I am really enjoying it and I am not loving British Lit class as much. I also surprise myself in French often. It amazes me how it just clicks. I love when things just make sense.

All in all I am just really proud of myself. I live in ruts, and I hate change. I can't believe I actually changed my major. It may not seem like a huge deal, but basically I laughed a comfortable, stable life and picked a path that is much more unpredictable. I am aslo really surprised how happy this has made me. I finally feel like I am starting to find myself in all of this unknown.

Well i think that is enough for now. I am hoping to talk about other things besides school, but I am not making any promises.

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since its been three weeks since my last entry, I thought I should update. French 2 is all done...I am happy and sad at the same time. I am so glad I don't have to get up early and drive to Mansfield everyday...but I am really going to miss my girls and the teacher. When you only have a class of 6, you get pretty tight with everyone. I think there are 3 of us that are taking French 3 in the fall, and its with the same teacher...so I am looking forward to that. Yesterday, my teacher wanted to talk to me after class. She asked me what I planned on doing with languages. Currently I am just an English Ed major, but as stated before I am considering picking up French. Well she told me that I am truly gifted when it comes to languages and that I should definitely pursue them. i was floored! Like her words were that some people are good at languages and some people have a gift and she hopes that I would use that gift. She said I should seriously consider going abroad and learning more than one language. I am going to go through French 3 and 4 next year before deciding anything for sure, but I am considering double majoring in English and French education. I also wouldn't mind learning Italian. It was so awesome to hear her say that...to hear a woman that can speak 5 different languages say you have a gift for languages...its just awesome.

in other news, work is seriously frustrating me...the boss hired a new person and suddenly she has more hours than the rest of us. She already has a full time job somewhere else and now she is getting all of our hours...we are all frustrated.
I worked two hours last night, and I am not scheduled agian until next Tuesday...we talked to Nate (husband of the boss). I mean they are both technically our bosses, but he is not in charge of scheduling and stuff like that. I also got in a fight with my mom about work...again. She said for the second time, WE really need to find you another job. I was like not WE, ME...and she got bent out of shape for me talking back to her. My parents just don't understand that I am my own person and I make my own decisions...I don't have to have their approval anymore. They try to tell me what I can and can't do with my money...Hello its me that is working for it and it has My name on the paycheck...so I have the right to do what I want with it. I am already talking to a girl from my French class and if I can afford it...I am moving in an appartment with her in December. I just have to take that step sometime...so I am going to do it. Another thing that upset me was I told my mom what my French teacher said...and she didn't say anything...she just changed the subject. it hurt because I thought that was something awesome and it wasn't even a blip on her radar. They just want me to go to Mansfield and then work in Troy. I don't even know how they will react if I figure out how i can go abroad...but they didn't like me going to college an hour away last year...so I can imagine what they would say about going to a different country.

I think thats enough venting for the time being...i will update when there is more to come

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So as soon as I say I want to start writing on a regular basis, I don't write for weeks. I have no clue how I used to write in this thing like everyday...because I just don't have the ambition to do that now.

So since the last entry, I have started and almost completed my first summer class. Its Intro to French 1 and it was 3 weeks of monday-thursday for 3 1/2 hours a day. It really isn't as bad as it sounds. Most of the time I am like, wow its time to go already? I really like French, I have met some cool people and the teacher is awesome. My final is tomorrow and then its on to Intro to French 2 for 3 weeks. Then I will have half of my language requirement taken care of. Its really weird to me that at Lock Haven I didn't have to take any foreign languages and at Mansfield I have to take 4 levels of a language. Its ok though, because I really like it. I am thinking about declaring a French minor just because I am already required to take 12 credits. I haven't really decided yet though and I probably won't for some time.

Work has been ok, it has its good and bad times. Kelly and I don't get to work together very often, which sucks. I have opened my own checking account tho and my parents can't touch it. Words can't describe how that makes me feel. Its just the first step to getting out from under my parents. There is this girl in my French class that is looking for a new roommate for the spring semester. If her and I continue to stay close and i can afford it, I am soo moving in with her.

Ryan is, well, wonderful. Prom was amazing. We hang out when ever possible and talk on the phone every night...but we aren't dating. I know, we might as well be, but we aren't and I think its going to stay that way. It really doesn't matter to me, he makes me happy and we have such a good time together so I really could care less about a label. Seth has calmed down...he was a complete jerk about Prom even while we were there, but now him and Ryan are talking again and I guess he has no problem with Ryan and I hanging out. So I guess its ok for your friend to hang out with your ex, but not ok to take her to prom...I don't know. I do know that I am over Seth...well like 95%. Sometimes a memory flashes thru my head and I am like "wow i miss him," but then it passes. However, I am tons and tons better than I was a month ago...so that makes me happy.

I think thats really all for now, I will attempt to write about more things tomorrow, but no promises.

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so this entry will probably have nothing to do with Ryan's birthday, but today is the day and I couldn't think of any other title...so happy birthday Ryan!

So this is my last week of classes. i am so pumped about that. Next week I only have to be here on Weds, and Thurs day so this also my last full week of Lock Hell!!
I have read my past entries and I was so ready and like excited to be going here. How things change. I am definitely not going to miss this place, or many of the people either.

So in other news, I have started working at our ice cream shop in Troy. Its interesting. My cheerleading coach from high school bought it and offered both Kelly and me jobs. Kelly and I are hoping to get to work together a lot. We both went in different times this past Saturday to start training, but this Saturday we go in at the same time. I never expected it to be difficult. Its just a lot to remember. You never make anything the same way and its just takes some getting used to.

Last week was so full of petty drama, it drove me nuts. I really don't feel like writing all the details, but it involved me going to prom, and Seth having a problem with it. I don't know if everything has been solved yet. Ryan said he wanted to talk to Seth about it. Ryan has yet to say anything to me about it, and I really don't feel like bringing it up.

So thats pretty much all that has been going on with me. Sadly I must get going to my World History class, but I am going to keep trying to write on a regular basis.

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