hmm today was like 60 degrees...hello warm weather, i have missed you soo

soo not too much going on. Just school and the occasional cobblestones show. Somethings have been stressful and flustering, but overall i have been relatively happy. The things that stress me out just don't seem to be worth this week. I just rant to someone for a few minutes and then it doesn't bother me anymore. I guess I am just back to the "roll with the punches, go with the flow" type of outlook on life. School is going well. My senior exit interview was good. They said I was confident, and answered questions well, and that I have a nice smile. Everyday is another day closer to graduation, I am so excited. I am ready to get out of high school. I am taking Kelly with me, so the hardest goodbye doesn't have to happen. I am only going about an hour away, so I shall be home on alot of weekends. So I shouldn't miss my family too bad. And Seth and I don't Have to see each other everyday, so I think we should be fine. Speaking of Seth, our 3 months is on Friday. Its gone by so quickly yet so slow...if that makes any sense. I feel like we just celebrated our 2 months, but it seems like if I sit there and think about how long we have been together, it goes slower. Yea It makes sense in my head, I guess that all that matters. Well I really didn't have that much to write about, I just hadn't wrote anything in awhile and I felt the need. Sorry that this is just one big blah, I didn't feel like separating every topic into a different paragraph. I just felt like writing some random stuff down.

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just wanted to update because i haven't in awhile.

Everything is back to normal, I am no longer being psycho...which is always a good thing.

Seth and I are good again. I spent Friday and Saturday night with him. And it just made me realize that i still do have feelings for him and that he does make me happy. I also talked to him alittle bit about some of the things that were driving me crazy. He was gald I told him, becuase he didn't realize how much they bothered me. I am just glad that I figured everything and i am not so stressed.

Cheerleading tryouts were on saturday. I watched/helped out with tryouts from 7:45 am to 4:30pm...yea thats a long time to watch the same dance routine and cheer over and over and over again.

Tomorrow is my senior exit interview. I am kind of excited becasue I get to tell them what I thought of my four years in their high school. Trust me, I am so ready to let my opinions be known.

Um, I don't think I really have anything else to write about. And I really don't remember what else was in my last entry so I could further update on it. I need to go get ready for Cobblestones and such.

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yep it's friday night and i am home sitting on a computer...haha i know, so exciting. But i actually don't mind it. This week seems like it has been long and draining, it really wasn't but it feels like it. I think its just the mood i have been in...i have been just alright all week, ya know kinda blah, just living, that mood. Its not fun.

So this week we got progess reports. I have a 95 in AP stats, 101 in AP Chem and a 97 in English. Yea I know not bad. I am so stoked about the 101...i love chem, i have missed it so. GPAs have also come out. Keaton passed 3 of us, and he is now third, kinda disappoints me a bit, if my Stats grade wasn't so low, he wouldn't have passed me. Anyway, that leaves me 4th or 5th, depending on whether i passed Becky. I hope so because I want to go up, not down.

To go along with the blah mood, I thought about taking a break from my boyfriend. And I am not sure why. I just all of a sudden wasn't happy, and he was annoying me this weekend. It's weird like i would think about purposely avoiding him, and then my next thought would be, thats not normal, why are u thinking such things...it was just way weird. Anyway I thought about it all and I couldn't just not see him anymore. He has become such a normal part of my life and I don't what I would do if I didn't have him around. So, after coming to that conclusion, and having a really fun night with kelly (lifted me out of my blah mood) I have stopped having those crazy thoughts. I am still indifferent to him (which is still bad) but thats slowly starting to go away. Again I am not sure why i am feeling like this, i just hope it goes away soon, becuase I really do love him.

In other news, Lent has started and I have given up Chocolate (maybe this could be the cause of all my problems. This has been my hardest Lent ever, and it hasn't even been a week yet. Its because I have chocolate daily. I always have chocolate milk at lunch and i ususally come home and have a few pieces of dove chocolate for comfort. Yea its gunna be a long 40 days.

So I didn't think I had that much to write, but it was kinda nice to get everything out there. Thats all for now I believe.

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yes, i have fallen in love...its time i admit it

that one phrase scares me soo much. I have been with Seth for two months, and as i am sure i have mentioned before he is THE sweetest guy i met. But, i am still afraid my heart is going to broken again. I guess its just that i am not used to happiness when it comes to relationships. However, I love him all the same. I am just hoping and praying that this lasts. I don't ever want it to end. Next year will be hard, with me in Lock Haven and he is still here in Troy, but I want it to work...sooo much.

yea so those are my recent thoughts

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