i haven't really written about anything significant in awhile. I guess I have been busy.

yesterday was feb. 2 which means it has been a full year since my Aunt Karen was considered brain dead. I can't belive its been a year since all that happened. I remember it like it was yesterday. I came home from a wrestling match and i was told Derek and Karen were in a car accident. I remember asking if Derek was ok, and thats all i cared about, was derek and if we was alright. I remember the days going by and the rumors flying around about what happened and having to sit through school dealing with people who didn't care about my family, they just wanted the gossip...it was torture. I remember going up to the hospital on a friday and saying goodbye to Karen. We had already found out the night before that she wasn't coming back. I remember the look on Derek's face when he found out that his mother was gone. I knew then that he would never be the same. No one should have to go trought that. Its just not fair. I remember Kelly and how she helped me get through it all. She was there every step of the way. Holding me up when I wasn't sure if I could handle any more pain. I love her for that, I don't think i could ever explain how much that meant to me. I remember the funeral. And how they're wasn't a dry eye in the buidling. And I remember the party afterwards. Yea i know weird that we had a party, but Karen would have wanted it that way. The whole town donated food. Because the whole town felt the loss of Karen. Who know typing all of that would bring tears to my eyes. I guess we never truly forget pain. We just put it aside.

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so we have changed semesters so i have an all new schedule
1. AP STATS
2. AP CHEM
3. Hon. English
8. Service Learning

yea i know it sounds like soo much fun. I think i prolly should have taken an easy second semester since i have had senioritis since i was a sophmore...but i have never slacked off before...why start now?

yep so i am half way through my senior year!!

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so the past week has been completely normal...school, cheerleading and cobblestones

yea life does go on after christmas break

not really anything exciting to write about...just thought that i haven't written in awhile. Also the last essay was rather deep and i figured i needed to update and state that everything is alright, i am back to the go with the flow way of life

ill write later when i have something more interesting to write about

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So last night I rang in the new year at Terrace Lanes with Seth, Kelly, Dane, Mom, Aunt Dawn, Ashley, Arica, Aunt Cheryl and Uncle Mark. Yea it was alot of fun!

I bowled fairly well, not my best, but i beat Seth and that's all that matters. Haha, he was so sure he was going to beat me, I tried to tell him that the Rogers Clan is kick ass at bowling, but he didn't liten. Wow that was really looong sentence!!

Anyway now we are in 2007 and that is so exciting and scary at the same time. I have now entered the year that I will graduate...WOW! Since 5th grade my grade has been labeled the class of 2007...i always thought that was so far away, well its here...again WOW!

I am so excited to go to college, especially with Kelly. Lock Haven is a good school and love the English department there. I am so ready to get out of the high school cirriculum (sp?) and start focusing on what I want to do in life.

However, I am also scared out of my mind to leave this little town I call home. Troy has been my life for seventeen years. I love it here, my family is here, my friends are here, my boyfriend is here...I just can't picture living anywhere else. Now some may say, Lock Haven is only 1 & 1/2 hours away, its not like ur moving across the world. But those people don't understand Troy...we live in our own little world, things happen here that no one else cares about, but its huge to us and I will be missing that next year.

Seth and I are an interesting situation...agian some may say i am thinking that i am thinking way too far in advance, Seth and I have only been officially together for two weeks. However, we started hanging out around the end of october. soo i am saying we have been interested in each other for 2 months. Again, some may say Big Deal, but I know this kid is THE best thing that has ever happened to me, and I don't plan on letting him go anytime soon. Anyway...it scares me to think I won't be able to see him everyday. It terrifies me that we won't work out just becuase I am not in Troy anymore.

wow, glad i got that all out, i have been keeping inside for long enough. I say that I don't worry about the future, that i live one day at a time, and just go with the flow...and I usually do. But, after realizing that last night was the beginning of 2007...i decided to stop denying all of the above and finally let it all out.

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