Had a GREAT wake up call! Someone donated $50 to the Art4TH Fundraiser putting the Paypal account balance at $91~waiting on $10 paypal check to clear which will put it at $101~received $8 from Doni which will put it at $108!!Paypal took out some fees from the previous donations so the total amount donated so far was around $120~no problem I can make up for it. I get paid next Friday and will put that check plus my tips made Monday and Tuesday~if I have enough~ in the bank and THEN I will have enought to file articles of incorporation with the GA Secretary of State!! PAYPAL will probably take out another fee on the $10 check so I want to be able to put some of my own money into it to make up for all the fees. I am so excited!!!!! The Art4TH Zine will be up later tonight and will have all the donors who donated either by check/money order or Paypal and the incentives they will receive!

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My mother and I went out to eat tonight~an early celebration for her birthday. We chose Baraonda since it's down the street from us kinda sorta. The service was EXCELLENT and Danny, our waiter did outstanding service. We wanted a restaraunt similar to Monjunis~in my hometown of Shreveport, I miss it so~but Baraonda topped it. Their food is so good that I will swear by it! LOL. Anyway, Kudos to Baraonda in Atlanta~

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On the train among the crowd, I saw my ex. His hair was streaked with silver and for a moment, I didn't recognize him. Then it clicked.

I broke up with him for a reason, several actually.

One was because he was drinking a lot of alchohol and using it as an excuse to miss classes. He claimed he was sick and at first I believed him. Until one day he was wasted and going on about how I was being abusive. He even bragged about how he told his friends I was abusive. It's interesting because he told me his family was abusive toward him.

I did yell, scream, and cry a lot. I was angry. He was skipping classes and I envied him. Here he was not even an American citizen but going to OUR schools on a Visa and he was just throwing it away. And I couldn't afford to get into school. To go to GA State I need to have taken an SAT or a PSAT and I haven't. I didn't have the money to in high school and I don't have the money for the classes or the tests now.

I had to threaten to call Immigration on him because he wouldn't stop emailing me and he posted a lot of comments on here, the Art4TH Blog which is meant for Art4TheHomeless~not a chatline. He would use Art4TH to get to me and try to get me back. I am not having it.

He would email me and tell me that he saw me on the train or that he wished that i would be at my stop and that he really misses me. Oh well.

I am posting this now, because I know he goes to my sites--or used to.


In fact, he is probably reading this now. If you are, please don't contact me. I hope that you have moved on because I have. Thank you for not talking to me on the train. In fact thanks for stopping the harassment. I only smiled at you out of habit. I smile at everyone. It comes from working in customer service. So please dont take that as an initiative to start the emails.


My promise still stands true: If you do start back harassing me I will call Immigration. I have their number in my phone.

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I won't be able to participate in person, but will WALK IT OUT with Dani and Tim in spirit on September 26, 2009 on their walk for homelessness and abuse victims.

Add them on Facebook @ http://www.facebook.com/walkitoutfundraisers?ref=nf

Their website is http://www.walkitoutfundraisers.com/

They Need SPONSORS and SUPPORT!

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Darkness parts with the grace of fog~
Revealing depths of your being~
As our eyes lock~
Moments are frozen and forgotten~
Only to be remembered after the passing~
Of millennia~
Candlelight flickers in the damp air~
You smile~
Forever painting your image~
In my memory~
Déjà vu takes my hand again~
A trip through time~
Accompanied by distance voices of~
Saxophone and Shehnai~
For one more dance~
With you~

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There was another shooting tonight and this time I was outside and witnessed part of it. I didn't stick around to see the rest I ran inside and hit the floor.

The area I live in is part of Downtown Atlanta. We live right across the street from the Metro Atlanta Task Force for the Homeless. Courtland avenue between Pine and North Avenues is the home of several homeless drug dealers who use the bathroom on the sidewalks and shoot each other.

The police do nothing about it. I called 911 not once, but twice. No police were sent.

Why?

Because the Atlanta PD don't give a fuck as to what goes on here.

The majority of the homeless here are crack addicts and the drug dealers.

And I am asked why I help the homeless. Because not EVERY homeless person is a crack addict who will knife you for a piece of rock or a homeless drug dealer. If that were the case then you may as well call me a crack addict since I was homeless at the ages of 9, 10, 11 & some of my adult years.

I also saw the guy who grabbed my ass a couple weeks ago. His face is jacked up. He didn't mess with me but he gave me a dirty look.

Why don't we move? Because we can't afford to. Our apartment complex is really a hotel where we pay rent by the month and all the utilities are included. It's 5 minutes away from the ER that my mother goes to and a short walk to my job. We do have 24 hour security but safety isn't guaranteed once we leave the
premises.

I carry a corkscrew with a wicked little blade that I keep really sharp. I haven't had the opportunity to use it, but I am not afraid to if I have to. I will fight and take as many down with me as I can.

When I get the money, I may buy a taser gun and some mace.

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Coming in from Grady Hospital, we went to the Quiznos on 138 Peachtree Street NW right across the street from the GA Pacific building. It's store number #2689

Mom is in a wheel chair and we thought we would try the deal they had going on with the buy one get one for $1.00

NO One offered to help us when we struggled in the door. No one welcomed and as I pulled Mom in I notice the woman behind the counter scowling at us as if she were like " Ugh, a disabled person"

When she took our order, she was hostile and acted as if she didn't want to fix our sandwiches. I asked her about the deal and tried to engage in conversation with her but her responses were gruff as if she didn't want to talk.

She gave my mother a really nasty look and I felt as if we weren't welcome in the store because she was in a wheelchair.

Mom said she felt discriminated against and didn't want leave because she was hungry so we stayed.

No one helped us make space for her to sit at one of the tables and no one thanked us when we left. NO one opened the door and the food tasted shitty.

I am never going to Quiznos again and have filed a complaint and I want my $11.20 back.

We got the combos for the sandwiches which is why it's so high.

Ugh..

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I used to go down to SRAC all the time to either paint with the Peter Pan project they have for the Christmas in the Sky event (2004??) and I was a member of the Literary Panel. I remember the smell of paint in that building and drinking the free wine and painting my heart out. It was fun. All was in the name of art and helping the Shreveport-Bossier City artists find their niche.

That building is gone.

An arsonist took it upon himself to annihilate our community's art center. Why? I have no clue. there was another building besides SRAC that was hit. Why do people seek to destroy?

Everything was burned down to the ground and everything was lost.

I don't get paid until September 4th~my next check~ but I will give SRAC some $$ from my own pocket. It won't be much but it will be something.

It totally depends on how much Art4TH fundraiser raises but the majority of that money will be going to Art4TH and paying the costs of starting a non profit organization.

SRAC is having a thing today @ 5 Louisiana time, I would love to go, but I am here in Atlanta, so I will be there in spirit and here on my end, I will support them. After all, SRAC supported me when I first started out as an artist

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