Whoever that makes things happen sure don't like me. Why? Because whoever that is loves to get me upset! I am supposed to be happy to come home, I am supposed to be happy during my holidays and guess what I have to do? I have to put up with someone's selfishness the moment I come home. JERK! I wonder why people who would make me happy would always have to be so far away, so busy, so not here.

What should be the best thing to do to make some people realise that the bloody WORLD DO NOT effin REVOLVE AROUND THEM?

I'm off the pay random notes on the piano for that jerk took the only spare mouse (when he already has his own) to his gf's house and I don't think playing Diablo with the touchpad is advicable.

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No matter what happens, people need to move forward, need to get on with life, need to face whatever that will come and hit them. This is what you get when I felt like puking due to some weird flavoured mooncake on a nice overcast day, procrastinating with a goofy smile on my face for no apparent reason.

I am NOT studying for my exam tomorrow, I am reading comics! LOL! I’m gonna die. I wonder how it will turn out to be. I let myself let things slide so much lately that I am losing interest in things. I hope things don’t turn out like high school again, doing things just because they need to be done. Thank god I have my mid-term break after tomorrow, don’t we always slack when there is only ONE exam stopping you from throwing it all away. I need to refocus, get enough sleep and to have lots of fun to keep myself happy. I miss talking to people about anything and everything under the sun and learning from others. I am going to plan something in advance during my break... Nothing much, just playing around with photoshop. I’ll make the time after I sleep of my dark circles. I can’t wait to go home!!! I wanna be playing with my youngest brother. Nyaaaa Nyaaaa nyaaaaaa!!! Come back with me chocolates~~~

Shoujo mangas are MISLEADING!!!!!!!! They are just like booze, makes you feel better for a while before the weight of the world come crashing down on you. Lol! I was reading XXXholic, not some shoujo manga.. come to think of it I haven't finished reading Prince of Tennis yet..

I don’t know if I’ll be blogging after my exam, I most probably will be ironing my clothes and packing. Hahaha! Home, holidays, friend(s) – I have no idea how many people am I going to bump into when I’m back – here I come! Btw, if you guys are wondering if I have some alcohol in my system by now, No, I do not. I just drank a cup of Coca-Cola. It could be that someone spiked the mooncake..

Hugs To: AlexisNg, renaye and jolenesiah.

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There are 3 reasons for my agitation. Economics, Diablo and being a middle person! Two out of the three, I have talked about before yet I can’t help to continue whining about it because it is just so irritating!!!

I can’t play Diablo II too long on my laptop for it will restart by itself. I can play is the most up to 2 hours and I can’t play it for the next few hours. So I guess that is a good thing, I can stop the whole thing and do my assignments before starting to play all over again. After all, I think it is definitely not compatible with Vista. I shall have to wait for Diablo III before I can play without fear of my whole laptop restarting and me losing all my points. I can’t help but turn to blogging now.

I got back my economics test results yesterday and it agitated me so much that I can hardly talk to anyone without bringing it up, or rather people kept on asking me what’s wrong with me or to those who knew if I am still angry about it. It is annoying to have people who do not share the same wavelength with you at times like this. I got 6 out of 10 marks for it and I have no idea what when wrong. W hen she was discussing the paper, she NEVER told us what we did wrong or what points should have been written. Hello! I can’t bloody read your mind. I was thinking that if I were to get this kind of a lecturer I would be in a public university, not a private one. Jeez... I told another friend that if she wants a foreign lecturer to teach her, she shouldn’t be studying in Malaysia at all, she should go overseas. The grass definitely look greener on the other side!! Seriously, even during tutorials she never did specify how certain questions are to be answered. “You are the ones teaching your fellow classmates during tutorial, I will not be teaching you”. She even gave us questions that she didn’t teach for tutorials. I do not want to lose my interest in studying because of people like her. Utterly horrible!!!!!!!! Thank god I can get some information from the internet, yet when I need some further explanation it is going to be hard...

I am the middle person today, again. I am always the one who they subconsciously pick for the role. So I am to inform my mother of everything they decide and I have to go back and forth between her and the other person and when I ask the other person didn’t answer correctly and in the end I am the one being reprimanded! Fuck! Do I look like I have so much time on hand? If you want, fucking reload your phone and talk to her god damnit!

I finally got this post up after trying for 3 times! Yesh!!!

Hugs To randomjunk, lazypuppy, renaye, AmbyrJayde, bluetopaz and kevin14.

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According to my deduction, I will only have to attend 2 classes the whole of next week, which sucks because I need to stay a week longer for that class. So I’ve decided to skip that whole day entirely and go home a week earlier than my mid term break. After all, it is Hari Raya next Wednesday and Thursday and my only class on Friday is being replaced. It should be no harm skipping that English class and tutorial Economics. She doesn’t teach during tutorial, I will have a friend to help me with what I’ve missed on that day, so I guess it is good. Yay! Home for two weeks instead of one!

I should be finding a part time job mid next month after I come back from my mid term break because I’ve made plans with my friend. I know I’ve been talking about this for the past month or so, sorry about that. I should be able to cope with it and it will help me reduce procrastination. I heard that the more time constraint you have, the more efficient you will be. I wonder how it will turn out for me. Hopefully there will be a good outcome.

Oh right, I nearly kissed a car’s ass when I was driving my mother’s automatic loaf of bread last Saturday. I was at a junction and the car in front which have passed the junction, had to stop so that the car in front of it could turn into a parking space. I didn’t notice them stopping as I was busy trying not to bang the motorcyclist on the left in case it just sped out. Gave my brother a near heart attack! It was funny yet it proves how horrible my driving is. I really need to start gallivanting with the car like someone more often.

I also, nearly won some money, which I think could be about 5-20 grand, I don’t know... You need at least 4 correct numbers to get a part of the prize money. I got 3 numbers correct and if I were to buy 26 instead of 36, then I’d get the 4 chosen numbers out of the 7 you need to win the jackpot. Although that, I bought it at the wrong place, so, there really is nothing but frustration if I were to get the 4 numbers correct. I hope I’ll get it some day; I will dump them all into fixed deposit and mutual fund. I am not surprised if I end up being a gambler the moment I turn 21.

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I'm home for the second time this year. It is nice yet it hurts. Sorry about my previous post, it is the time of the year again. It's been 2 years and I still miss him.

Lately, cravings have eluded me. I have absolutely no craving for any kind of food. When it is to time to eat, I decide by asking myself how hungry am I? If I am not so hungry, I’ll settle for bread or cereal, or ice-cream. If I am hungry, I’ll still have no idea what I want to eat. I would be nice if I could just forget the need to eat. I could save a lot of money and precious time since I need not sit down and ponder on what I want to eat. It is like I am sick but I’m not. Well I am feeling that flu but it is not the really bad ones. How could I blame the sickness when I have no idea what I want to eat at all times?

I’m waiting for some people to come back so that I can go out drinking with. Also waiting for some people to come back with my chocolates! Waiting for someone’s parcel to arrive so that I’ll sort worrying about some idiot opening my mails and waiting for a miracle to happen! I’m no doubt still waiting for the sky to turn green and the grass to turn blue. This life is full of waiting for things to happen. I want to make things happen but I wonder how much can a pair of hands do.

Oh by the way, some people reading this blog just has to understand this thing about me: I treat you, the way you treat me. If I ever think that you are rude to me, I will be rude to you after a while. Even if I dislike you in any way, at first, I would try to treat you indifferently because I believe that first impressions never really lasts but if you continue irritating me to the extreme, you shouldn't blame me for being rude to you. Also, if you ever mistreat people who are important to me, I can hardly be nice to you.

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listening to: Leona Lewis - Better in Time

If I am not here, I don't need to face them everyday and their irregular mood swings

If I'm not here, I won't have to relive the pain

If I'm not here, I would probably be less miserable

If I'm not here, they'd probably be smarter

If I'm not here, they would have more freedom

If I'm not here, everyone's probably having more money

If I am not here, everyone's probably having a happier life

If I'm not here, everyone will have one less problem in their lives

If I am not here......... No one will need to remind me to be more selfish and less considerate.

Being rude on purpose shouldn't be an occasional indulgence.

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