Well... here's a story i came up with last night on how i met my Older Brother figure, Darren. It's what i wrote on his friendster testimonial hahah.. hope u like! The story is really about how we met haha..okay enough..here read it: da-re-ren aka my brah. i met this very interesting species in an area of live-in-boxes people called an apartment, where i spent about four years in captivity by these tribal people, whom we now know as parents. I spent my days sitting on stairs with this species, which i soon learned the named to be DARREN pronounced [deh-rin]. We built a great bond by makin fun of these annoying monkies that lived in the tribe unit and also spending summer nights outside the living cuarters where we both felt like a humungo oven. The two of us along with the "parents" escaped the terrible place of those wretch-ed "apartments", but soon found ourselves in lack of communication. Alas,the species, Darren and I soon went on to the same and new prison known as high school, where we then again meet. From then on we have become much closer and more and more learned much of eachother. One thing i never realized until about a couple years ago was that, he too was human like me..only a Really Eccentric Nerdish human being, but although he is that, I still love him because he's like an older brother which i wish i had. More memories between the two of us along with other humans we call friends are being made. One last thing to add on.. Darren has this habbit of sounding like a lion and so on his behalf, i would like you all to RAAAR with a wonderful, friendly, eccentric, fun, loving CHUNK of a COOL KIDD. THE ENNNDDDD!

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well. it's a good thing nutang is back. i thought it was gonna pull a 3-day-er like xanga did a week ago. anyways...how's everything with everyone? GOOD i hope. as for me today was cool...not literally but it was just chill. went to BOOMERS with my momz, bro and lil sister. it was kinda boring since i wasn't in the mood for anything. well this week's the last week of summer vacation before school starts all over again..but i'm lookin forward to this year..i mean, WHY NOT?! I'M A SENIOR! woohoo!!! hahaha...yesh. ahh well..i guess i'll edit this when i think of wat else i did today.... LATER DAYZ

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hello. yesterday was steven's funeral. woke up bright and early to get ready. dropped of my bro "D" at jeff's house so that he could attend mikey's wedding. i went back home and brother [darren] and eileenO picked me up. we headed over to meet up with the cool kiddz: ranee, jayr, vee, eileen b. , gilbert, jackie, johnathan and gerino at his [gerino's] pad. these people are so cool..hahh. We waited for their friend jayr to get to gerino's pad, then we left to go to st. micheal's where the mass for steven was held. we were like one of the first people to get there, so we waited for everyone to get there. as we waited, the cool kidz were all in a circle talking and crackin jokes. then it was time for the mass. the mass was really good especially the choir that was singing and that one girl..she worked it. the songs were good and her voice just made it better and touched everyone even more when she sang Ave Maria. The mass brought many tears.

Afterwards we walked steven outside the church to be put in the funeral car. Seeing his friends carry his coffin made me feel really sad cuz they were carrying their best friend's coffin n all. after that, everyone drove to La Vista Cemetary where steven was to be burried. during the burial, everyone of course were just cryin...we put flowers on his coffin..then when it was time to lower him down, everyone was just ballin their eyes out. I've never been to a funeral [i have but that's when i was small and didn't really understand what's happening] and this was just really really sad. i cried even more as i watched his family, marivic cry..and more when baby airianne started to cry. I cried in brother's arms. It's just so hard to say goodbye.

Later on, the funeral was over we all stood in a circle, then they decided to leave and head out to the crash site, but before that the cool kiddz still talked to steven for a while. then they gathered around in a cirlcle again [haha what's with the circles aye?].
Then finally we all left. headed to the crash site where jayr and ranee xplained what happened. we stayed there for a bit. got to chat with eileen b for a short one. she seems like a really "rad" person. then we all headed to steven's pad, but i had to go home.

got dropped off home, ate...took a short nap then headed over to jeff's house to take "D's" drums, "D" and Aleck to Hilton to play at the wedding reception.
i was out the house from 8:00 am to 8:00 pm. I was so beat! I didn't get to go back to steven's cuz i was just really tired. but it was kinda fun being really tired cuz it meant something and it was worth it. phewwww! so much things all in one day huh?! then at home at around 9 i was sleepin then at around 10 "D" called me to pick him up. On our way back home, i was exiting to woodman and i started to cry once again. hehh. okie dokie cool catz..till next time. take care, don't speed...ONE LOVE
LATER DAYZ

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i'm back. well as you all know this week hasn't been it's best. Today was registration for us seniors and it was okay. i rode with alvin. we got there, stood in line then found out that i had to pay my fine before i could register [that's what i heard]. so i asked alvin if i could take his car to go to maryann's pad to pick up the money she owes me for my book that she lost. so i went to her house, no one home. drove back to school and there she was. but still no money in hand. so there we were standing there and trippen about our fines and stuff. we then decided to go to mcdonalds cuz maryann, maria and these two other chicks were hunger.
I didn't really want to go cuz yeh, but i was like "what the heck". right when i got into the parking lot, right away i saw steven's parking spaces outlined in white and it was basically a memorial for him...tears were buildin up inside me but i held it in for a while, but when i got inside mcdonalds i just cried. i looked ahead the counter and suddenly spotted his picture. i couldn't hold the tears in any longer..one of the employees were like "please don't cry anymore..we shed enough tears" [in like a rude way] and it kinda pissed me off...yanoe i'm like "hello? so..just cuz u shed tears that means i can't?" argh..anyways...i couldn't help bein inside so i went back in the car cryin..it's gonna be hard for me and anyone else who knew steven to go to mcdonalds as i'm guessin. I sware when i walked in there, i just keep thinkin i'm gonna see him again and that this whole tragedy is just a terrible dream. well imma go to the veiwing today since i didn't get to go yesterday..then tomorrow i'll most likely go to the funeral...till next time..take care all.
LATER DAYZ

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today started off ok then progressed into sad. i was online at about three this afternoon when my frend gerino IMed me.

gerino: did u hear what happened?
apple:to?
gerino: steven
apple: no what happened?
gerino: he's dead
apple: what?! how?
gerino: car accident. he was speeding....



right then and there i didn't wanna believe him. at first i was thinkin "yeh right.stop messin around", but then again i thought "gerino would never speak like that about anyone he cared about especially someone he considered a brother." so right there i started to tear.
it sucks to have to believe that someone u met back when u were a freshman n actually know at a level is actually gone. All i could ever think about is "what now?" i mean i'm so sorry that he passed away and left his best friend, parents and friends BUT the one most thing that really made me cry is the fact that he left his 6 month old babygirl.

this is yet another time where i wish i knew the person A WHOLE LOT MORE and also to thank him for that one time [i'm not gonna go into that..] so i don't kno i guess imma just let some things out.

to steven: i know i don't know you well enough to say a whole lot of great stuff about you and other stuff that i know your best friend gerino would say, but I'm still appauled by the fact that your no longer here with those whom you've known and met through out your short life. To me your still one cool dude. I remember that I met you my freshman year and you were a junior with gerino and i know we didn't speak to each other much. shoot..we actually only talked..hmm 3 times this whole time since i've met you, and said our "hi's and hello's" once in a while when i saw you around especially at work. But yet i still held a space for you in my heart as a friend even though we didn't get to build upon that, BUT i'm thankful to have met you. Heh i remember when i actually had a conversation with you on the phone along with gerino two years ago and u mentioning that i was only "a baby" since i was only fifteen..hehh... and the other time when I was mad at gerino for something and you came to talk to me after school :-). I never got the chance to say THANK YOU for that one time at McDonalds with that stupid Dwayne guy. Thanks for talkin to him about that..I know i should've thanked you before, but ehh i'm stupid at times and I now regret I didn't thank you before. You will be greatly missed by all you met, knew and loved.

i'll always remember you saying this: "That's just DuhWayyne!"

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isnt' it just weird how someone could say " i'm scared of getting into a relationship or start talkin to somebody again cuz i don't wanna get hurt", but yet..what they don't realize is, when they [person1] let someone know how they feel, then don't do nothin about it...it hurts the other person's [person2] feelings who felt the same way about them. But of course person2 didn't think much about it cuz yannoe..ehh.
Then one day suddenly person2 sees someone else[person3] talkin to person1 [somewhere online, blogs, chats, etc.] in a bf/gf type of way and so, person2 starts to thinking.."hmm..i thought person1 didn't wanna get into the whole relationship thing because they're afraid of getting hurt, but yet here goes person3 callin person1 'baby' n all that other stuff.."

so imediately...person2 feels bad. the sooner you know it, PERSON1 just hurt person2's feelings. I think where i'm tryin to get at here is: Person1 was just so selfcentered and only cared about how ''they'' didn't wanna be hurt. which is really BULL SHITbecause in reality, they didn't give person2 a chance to show them how they are...and is being a HYPOCRITE!!about what they call FEELINGS.

Which now brings me to this thought: guys only care about THEMSELVES n all the other crap that goes with that [ego,'image',etc] and girls are more open minded about things, REALLY care about others' feelings and thoughts even though we tend to be more sensitive and emotional than guys, not to mention sometimes selfcentered, but selfcenteredness only qualifies for those girls that the guys portray as "HOTT, FINE, etc." and not to mention what they call " TRICKS n BROADS " and their "HOES n BITCHES"

so to sum it all up: GUYS are assholes and GIRLS can be assholes too [generally speakin], can and will be fake.

LAST THOUGHT: BOYS, can't live with them, can't live without them....AND SO DEAL WITH IT! and same goes VICE VERSA.

THIS WORLD IS JUST FULL OF WEIRD THINGS THAT JUST CAN'T SEEM TO BE EXPLAINED.

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