mood: touched
listening to: Taylor Swift - Stay Beautiful

My friend Jimmy emailed me and told me last week he was sending me something Today I got my package from him I got a red glass rose and a blue cross necklace :) That was so sweet of him to send me those gifts! he got them from the state fair I will post pics soon! But for right now these Glitter-Graphics will just have to do! I'm gonna go email Jimmy and thank him for my gifts. I will update soon with pics.

Much Love,

Shan

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mood: tired
listening to: Jordin Sparks - Tattoo

Hello Everyone! I am so sorry it has been forever and a day since I've last updated! I'll write about my B-Day and Xmas for now, next update I'll write about other stuff My Birthday was on December the 18th and I turned 25 years old that's a milestone I told Mom in 25 more years I'll be 50 gosh I don't even wanna think about that yet! I'm just gonna enjoy living life more 25 years has come and gone so fast you know? Anyway, none of my friends came to my party Benny and Barb did But they're like family, Pawpaw and Diane came and her grand kids came with her Kayla and Kenny Mom and Dad were there and Sissy and Ginger and Charlie and I talked to Mawmaw Graham on the phone she thought I was 18 I don't think she really did it was a joke She got me a cute Turquoise Jacket and a beautiful card with Red Butterflies on it Mom and Dad got me 90210 season 3 DVD, Ashley Tisdale DVD, and her toothtunes it plays her song "Kiss The Girl" one of my favorites by her :) it's my fave color Pink! and HSM Make-Up Kit, Hannah Montana Make-Up Bag, 2 Hannah Montana T-Shirts, Blake Lewis CD, LeAnn Rimes Greatest Hits CD, Keith Urban's Greatest Hits CD, <3 Jordin Sparks CD, and A HSM card, and a card from Dad they both gave me $10.00. Sissy got me Clothes, Shoes, Bo Bice new CD, A Pink HSM Watch, A HSM Necklace, Diamond Headphones, Headbands, A Brown Jacket, Strawberry Shortcake Glitter, Vanilla Body Spray, Fortune teller keychain, A new driver for my computer, Money. Benny and Barb got me a Neck Massager, my neck hurts me all the time I'm hoping that will help I don't know why But I think it's where I stay online so much! LMAO! Pawpaw and Diane gave me $20.00 in a card and my card was so cute! it was Pink. Aunt Sue and Uncle Johnny got me A Money Blanket and Pillow, A Housecoat, and A pair Gray Gloves, A little Purple stuffed Dog, and a Giftcard from Walmart WOOT!My friend Jimmy got me a big stuffed Carebear he got me the Cheer Bear I love it! He also got me a Diamond Heart Birth Stones Necklace from JC Penny, also got me A Diamond Silver Heart Necklace, they're beautiful! Jimmy is such a great friend! :) I had a HSM Cake we ate cake, pizza, and Vanilla ice cream we all had a good time. Thanks to all my friends online who left me B-Day Messages I love you all! *hugs* <3 I missed Ron on my Birthday! :( I wish he could have been there to see me turn 25 I even missed him more on Christmas, I know it's the 2nd Christmas spent without him But still it feels strange that he's not here with us anymore it's really sad blah! I wish he was still here with us I know he's watching over us and he's in our hearts always <3...and still 2 years only feels like 2 months to me But we will all be alright. Christmas was wonderful! I got everything I wanted even stuff I never dreamed I'd get Mom and Dad got me more Make-Up some blush, HSM T-Shirts I have a lot now and A cute stuffed Monkey that prayers when you push it's hard Dad got me that, And he got me A Silver Heart clock watch Necklace I'll have to take a pic of it soon Sissy got me Clothes, Shoes, 2 Monkey PJ's, Paramore's CD, Carrie Underwood's CD, A HSM Make-Up Kit, HSM, Hannah Montana, That's So Raven, Cheetah Girls Sprays, and A NEW COMPUTER!!! I never dreamed I would get that I'm so happy with that! I'm still using my old peice of crap computer until I can get transfer all of my music? I really don't know how to do that? So if anyone could help let me know thank you!Also Sissy gave me a pair of Red socks with $40.00 dollars in them it was a surprize. Mawmaw Graham got me A Red Nitegown, Red Socks, and A Walmart gift card yay! Benny and Barbra got me Chocolate Candy yum, and a beautiful Pink Butterfly pin. After we ate Christmas dinner we went to take Pawpaw and Diane's gifts to them Pawpaw gave me my gift $25.00 what he gave me for my Birthday was enough tho, After we keft Pawpaw's we rode around to look at the Christmas lights we wanted to go to Walmart But it was closed we kind of figured it would be so we went back the next day I got One Republics CD, and a pack of Bonne Bell lipgloss, and Charlie a toy we had to wait in line not too long thank God But I won't go back for awhile. Anyway, what's everyone's plans for New Years? well me I won't be going anywhere I'll be home lol! watching Dick Clark New Years Rockin' Eve and FOX's New Years Eve with Blake Lewis, Carrie Underwood, Jonas Brothers, Miley Cyrus it'll be awesome! I hope this New Years Eve is better than the last 'cause last New Years my Pawpaw got caught for DUI But thank God he didn't have to go to jail, and everything is ok. Hope everyone has a wonderful New Year may 2008 be blessed and be the best! <3 Well, I think I've wrote enough for now, gonna go post pics, I'll update again soon.

Much Love,

Shan

Tattoo
(Jordin Sparks)

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later
I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger
I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

Just like a tattoo I'll always have you
I'll always have you I'll always have you

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

Just like a tattoo I'll always have you
I'll always have you I'll always have you

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

Just like a tattoo I'll always have you
I'll always have you I'll always have you

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mood: scared
listening to: OneRepublic - Stop And Stare

Stop And Stare
(OneRepublic)

This town is colder now
I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move
I'm shaking off the rust
I've got my heart set on
Anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself
Counting up the years
Steady hands just take the wheel
Never glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal
For the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving
But I go nowhere
Yeah I know that
Everyone gets scared
But I've become
What I can't be
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why
You're here not there
And you'd give anything
To get what's fair
But fair ain't
What you really need
Can you see what I see

They're trying to come back
All my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags
I never thought I could
Steady feet don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving
But I go nowhere
Yeah I know that
Everyone gets scared
But I've become
What I can't be
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why
You're here not there
And you'd give anything
To get what's fair
But fair ain't
What you really need
You don't need

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mood: worried
listening to: Billy Ray Cyrus - Ready, Set, Don't Go

My Dad had 3 Grand Mal Seizures and we had to take him to the ER I'm so worried He started feeling bad on Sunday he couldn't stand up his legs were too shakey to But he felt better that night, so we thought he was well, this morning he got sick the same thing his legs were shakey, and he couldn't stand up, and he kept falling the next thing me and mom knew dad started screaming his body started shaking! I thought he was dead...I was crying and mom said to go and get our friend Benny I hollared at him and he came over and brought another guy with him named Mike and they brought dad in the front room mom called 911 and the EMT's were there Dad didn't wanna go to the hospital, But the girl EMT made him go she was tough! Dad got there and they did all kinds of test Blood test, Cat Scan, EKG, and X-Rays, and they gave him an IV seizure meds in it he had 2 more seizures while he was in the hospital and he quit breathing he didn't even know the year, the day, or date or anything for about 30 minutes then he started coming around and talked to me I told him please don't die and I loved him and hoped to see him really, really soon Mom told me and Sissy to go home for awhile that there was nothing we could do so we did But I didn't want to I started feeling bad my stomach was so upset over being worried Sissy put me and Charlie a blanket, and pillow in front of her heater and I tried to take a nap But I couldn't I watched the weather channel and it said they we may get rain / snow tomorrow then me and Sissy went to get something to eat and took it back to the hospital I was even hungry I was too worried to eat then Mom came out Mom came out and told us they were transferring Dad to the Montgomery General Hospital in Blacksburg Virginia and that made me feel better! knowing that he's in good hands and he's in God's hands pray everything will be ok Me and Sissy waited in the hospital parking lot and Mom came and told us at 12:00 to go on back on home and she said they were gonna go on and transfer him to va when we got home our back door was open and it scared me...I thought someone had broke in But everything was fine I went and I took me a bath and I got online and I looked up seizures and I wanted to let you all know what has been going on! Tomorrow Mom and Diane are going to Blacksburg please pray they have a safetrip and that my Dad won't have anymore seizures and he'll get to come home! thanks.

Much Love,

Bee

This song is to Dad <3

Ready, Set, Don't Go
(Billy Ray Cyrus)

She's gotta do what she's gotta do
And I've gotta like it or not
She's got dreams too big for this town
And she needs to give 'em a shot
Whatever they are

Looks like she's all ready to leave
Nothing left to pack
There ain't no room for me in that car
Even if she asked me to tag along
God I gotta be strong

She's at the starting line
Of the rest of her life
As ready as she's ever been
Got the hunger and the stars in her eyes
The prize is hers to win
She's waiting on my blessings
Before she hits that open road
Baby get ready
Get set
Don't go

She says things are fallen into place
Feels like they're fallen apart
I painted this big ol' smile on my face
To hide my broken heart
If only she knew
This is where I don't say
What I want so bad to say
This is where I want to
But I won't get in the way
Of her and her dreams
And spreading her wings

She's at the starting line
Of the rest of her life
As ready as she's ever been
Got the hunger and the stars in her eyes
The prize is hers to win
She's waiting on my blessings
Before she hits that open road
Baby get ready
Get set
Don't go
Don't go
Don't go

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mood: drained
listening to: Ferras - Don't Give Up

Hey Everyone! I haven't made a real update in forever my life has been super busy But first I should let everyone know that my Dad is doing better now thank God :) he still has a lot of weight he needs to gain...But he hasn't had anymore seizures! So, that's the best news! Thanks again for everyone who has said a prayer for Dad keep on praying for him and us, and I'll keep you all updated on how he's doing ok? My Aunt Sue and Uncle Johnny are here so are my cousin's Patti and Jamie and all of my other cousin's I can't even name them all there's so many! I didn't get to see them But once while they were here But they were busy and we have been busy! Friday Mawmaw Graham and Aunt Arba came up to visit Arba said my cousin Angie has been sick said she almost had a stroke it was because of her Asthma medicine I have been so worried about her she's doing better But keep her in your prayers. Saturday Pawpaw and Diane came up with her sister Jane and Jane's husband Jim we sit outside and had a fire and I gave Pawpaw his B-Day stuff his B-Day is today he's 65 Happy B-Day, Pawpaw! Love ya! anyway I plan on calling him later on today to wish him a Happy B-Day! he hasn't been feeling good lately I have been worried the drs think he might have a blockage somewhere so please say a prayer for him. Sunday I didn't do anything, it was a rainy day and I slept most of the day *yawns* me and Sissy sit outside and me, her, and Mom went to Moe's and got Milkshakes when we came back me and Sissy rode around the park and told my cousin Jacob bye and I'd see him next time next summer he's only 9 years old But he's so sweet too bad we didn't get to spend that much time together there's always next year. Today is Monday, like I said I don't have anything planned besides calling Pawpaw! we took some new pics and I plan on posting those *sometime* in the near future other than that, there's been nothing else going on... like I posted the 16th made 2 years since Ron died! :( and Ron's Aunt Livie passed away my great great Aunt :( But once good thing has happenend my cousin Jerri is having a baby I'm so happy. I ended up calling Pawpaw and wishing him a Happy B-Day! he said he had a party! I told him I'd love to have some cake But me and Sissy was gonna go and go to the store and we couldn't come over (I told a little white lie I wanted to surprize him) So, we went over there and Jane and Jimmy was there and Diane we all ate cake and Pawpaw was so happy to see me! I'm really happy we went over to see him! :) he gave me a bracelet, some rings, and a pair of sunglasses, he's always so sweet! and Diane and Jimmy bought me some candy...from a girl that was selling stuff for her school that was so sweet of them :) before that Sissy bought me a drink from Taco Bell it has real Strawberries in it I could live on Stawberry flavored stuff haha Sissy is so sweet to me too, we always have fun with eachother when we got out I wish we could have stayed longer But it was late and Sissy had to stop at Riteaid and to get water, after that we came home it was almost 9:30 when we got home we ate dinner and Aunt Sue and Patty came over and they stayed for alittle while I just added a little bit to this entry I didn't want to retype another journal entry. Again sorry for not updating like I used to But my life stays busy I don't have time I do read everything you all post tho I hope everyone is doing well and life is good I'll try to update again soon But my soon is months from now you all know that lol! One more thing check out Ferras and Katy Perry they're amazing 2 of my favorites! and for everyone on Live Journal, Insane Journal, and NuTang I just wanted to let everyone know that I got a new account on melodramatic.com and deviantart my name is myyourheart So, if anyone has accounts at those sites add me ok? thanks! leave me some comments I'd love to hear how everyone's summer has been so far? Anyway, I'm gonna go listen to music and finish posting those new pics I promised.

Much Love,

Bee

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mood: sleepy
listening to: Keith Urban - Jeans On

My weekend was good, I didn't do anything until Sunday, we had a family cookout at Aunt Sue's for Patty, and for Jamie 'cause they are going back home on Monday It was just Aunt Sue, Benny, Barbra, Jamie, Patty, Sissy, Dad, Mom, Me, Our Dogs Charlie, Chewy, and Ginger we ate meatballs, hot dogs, hamburgers, and potatoes we stayed late and then we went to Walmart to get Sissy a battery for her car her battery was dead, and her car wouldn't start I wanted to look around Walmart but Mom had to get back before it got dark to put Sissy's battery in it's fixed now yay! Anyway when we got home I got my IPod and went out to swing and it started to rain! and I had to come in and got online I just wanted to make a quick update on how my weekend went. How was everyone's weekend? I hope it was a great one.

Much Love,

Bee

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mood: happy
listening to: Ferras - Soul Rock



Happy Birthday, Ferras!!! <3
Hope your day is wonderful.
Love ya,
Bee

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