mood: Thankful
listening to: Ashley Tisdale - We'll Be Together

Hello Everyone! I can't believe it's been a whole month since I've lasted updated... I've been back to the doctors I had to have 10 tubes of blood drawn the other day and my tests didn't come back good :( my kidney function was high higher than it's ever been and my vitamin d was low and now I have vitamin d deficiency it was 14 and normal is 30 so that's just something else for me to have to worry about *Sigh* Mom bought me some gummy vitamin's I'm hoping those will bring up my vitamin d! When I went to the kidney drs he told mom to give me vitamin's and see if it helps and when I went to the thyroid drs he gave me some meds for my cold that I have my tyroid is normal thank God! it's just everything else that's been messed up now Please say a prayer for me that next time all my test will come back normal thanks. Last time I wrote about My Pawpaw well he's starting to feel so much better now! I don't think the drs are gonna have to take his toe off after all and I'm so happy :D Thanks to everyone that prayed for him because the prayers worked! thanks again Let's see what else has been going on, My friend Michelle is leaving this Friday for the Summer Friday is her Birthday I was hoping I'd get to see her before she left :( But it doesn't look like I'll get to, I'll be worried about Michelle, flying on a plane by herself I'm sure she'll be alright, But you know me I always worry about everything! Aunt Sue and Uncle Johnny will be here Friday and I think Mawmaw Graham will be here too, I can't wait to see all of them it will be good for all of us to get together I haven't seen Mawmaw Graham since Ron passed away and that's really sad to say. Next week is My cousin Jerri's wedding it's on the 16 the day Ron passed away and she invited us to come and I hope we get to go if something don't come up we are Isn't it odd how one day can bring happiness to one person and sorrow to another meaning Jerri getting married is happiness and Ron dying is our sorrow, you know? Life is a funny thing sometimes huh? Each day brings something new happening to me I'm learning more and more about myself everyday and learning that the friends I thought would always be around aren't and God brings people into your life when your at your lowest and when you need them the most there is always an Angel in disguise watching over you I do believe that, and I know they're watching over me God bought them in my life right when I needed them I was just too blind to see. My Angel Oracle I read tonight said the same thing and I thought that was so odd? Because I was thinking the same thing! It said "Maybe a friend has done something that really hurt you and now you feel disconnected from people you once relied on Maybe you have lost a loved one through death and you feel your heart is breaking You are not alone with what you are feeling!" it also said a lot more I was in shock! It said "This Angel is with you to bring about reconciliation or a new, and healthier circle of friends that are truly friends for you :) This Angel is with you right now to help you understand that death is not an end... and that the love you have shared with the person who has crossed is still very much alive, and well... and that it will help you to feel this connection you still share with them" I think that means Ron. I also think that's a good sign, I needed a sign somekind of ray of hope and I got it! What are the chances that I'd draw that card? one in a million that's why it's a sign I've waited a long time to get a sign, and I finally got one! the one I needed for so long... I feel like a weight has been lifted off of me I can breathe again thank God! You know the saying is true that, "God works in mysterious ways" yes he sure does Like I said before life is funny sometimes, and good things happen when you least expect them to happen :) you never know what can happen in the blink of an eye rather it be good or bad you just gotta have faith and hold on and pray that it will be alright that everything will work out in the end, and if it doesn't work out then it's not the end what's broken will be put back together again and it's not the end. I'm so blessed and thankful for everything I've got a lot more I want to write about before I go, you know I have to write about *everything else* that's been going on for starters, My friend Olivia left Ashley Tisdale Online because she said you never know who your talking to on the computer well, I agree with that and it is so true But I choose to trust My friends thought she trusted us I think she did, But maybe her mom and dad told her to not be on there anymore or someone said something to her either way, that's not like Olivia after all she made all of us signs saying she's glad we're all friends and that she loves us and stuff, you know? that's just so odd? Whatever the reason she left I will miss her and for that short time I was happy to call her My friend <3 and I wish her the best! and I hope she comes back someday. Speaking of Ashley Tisdale I started my own Ashley site I'll post the link to it later! I also got a new Greatest Journal My name there is ashtisdalefan if you have it add me! I've been working on my boards I now have 6 message boards Alanis', Ashley's, Darren's, Keith's, Melanie C, and Tori's and I co-mod a Ashley board with my friends Alyssa and Issa so I stay busy! I just started my Alanis, Darren, and Melanie C board I've had my Tori board since last year, But hadn't fixed it and I decited to fix it up! I need members I don't have that many I need to make banners and promote them I will when I have time I barely have time to updated once a month anymore UGH!! I'm so sorry about that But I can't stop my life I barely have free time for myself lol!and since everyone is coming in this weekend I really doubt I'll have any free time. I did have some free time Tuesday, and I went shopping! I bought Big & Rich's new CD and some Mary-Kate and Ashley Vanilla Pear lipgloss and some Bonne Bell Fanta lipgloss and some Secret Sparkle deodorant and Charlie a toy and me some sandles and a few weeks ago I bought Linkin Park's new CD and Gretchen Wilson's new CD! When I go shopping I shop til I drop and now I'm almost broke But got what I want. Mom bought me some High School Musical lipgloss with Ashley on them I love them and some Bonne Bell Cherry Coke lipgloss and Dad bought me some lipglosses and a lot of other stuff a keychain with my birthstone on it that I love and an S necklace for Shannon I've been wearing it all week :) I need to take some new pics lol! I will whenever I have free time maybe I will this weekend with my camera phone ok? :) Well now that TV season is over I'm bored I can't believe Apollo won Dancing With The Stars my Aunt Sue loves him I was hoping Joey would win I'm sad he didn't lol! I was hoping him and Ian and Billy Ray would be the final 3!! But Ian and Billy didn't make it, it was between Apollo and Joey and I was for Joey all the way it's too bad I would have loved to seen him and Ian or him and Billy Ray battle it out! oh well... Next year I heard Tori Spelling is doing the show I wish Jason would be on there :) But he'll be busy with his BabyGirl (yes they're having a girl) and naming it Shannon Just kidding again lol! But they are having a BabyGirl Tiffany said on TV they were! I also heard Mel B is doing Dancing With The Stars Emma Bunton did the show over in London I wish Mel C would be on there and Darren and Keith that'd be so cool :) In other TV news on Celeb Fit Club Dustin's still being an ass that's no surprize tho and on Charmed School Bootz left So I think the next to leave will be Pumpkin? lol! Jordin won American Idol I knew she would...But I still wish Blake would have won He will be like Clay Aiken and sale million's of CD's I know I'll be buying Blake's CD <3 ER is over for another season boohoo! What will I do without ER? Watch reruns lol! Shane West is a damn good actor! I would love to see him on another season of ER or even do his own TV show? ER won't be the same without him! I'll sure miss him. I'm gonna try to work on my GreatestJournal layout soon I want to try to find a pic of Ashley from the MTV Movie Awards and work on my journal layout and fix it up! One more thing Happy Belated B-Day Ella! and Happy B-Day Michelle! Love ya both Well I'm gonna go look for Ashley pics. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. <3

Much Love,

Shan

We'll be together come whatever
Not just staring at the stars
Just remember
That no one else could tell us who we are
We'll be together so don't ever
Stop listening to your heart
'Cause I can't turn mine off

*We'll Be Together* ~ Ashley Tisdale ~

My Ashley Site:
http://www.xoxstaringatthestars.co.nr

My Greatest Journal:
http://ashtisdalefan.greatestjournal.com

~ Big & Rich ~



~ Gretchen Wilson ~



Linkin Park

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mood: worried
listening to: Billy Ray Cyrus - Ready, Set, Don't Go

My Dad had 3 Grand Mal Seizures and we had to take him to the ER I'm so worried He started feeling bad on Sunday he couldn't stand up his legs were too shakey to But he felt better that night, so we thought he was well, this morning he got sick the same thing his legs were shakey, and he couldn't stand up, and he kept falling the next thing me and mom knew dad started screaming his body started shaking! I thought he was dead...I was crying and mom said to go and get our friend Benny I hollared at him and he came over and brought another guy with him named Mike and they brought dad in the front room mom called 911 and the EMT's were there Dad didn't wanna go to the hospital, But the girl EMT made him go she was tough! Dad got there and they did all kinds of test Blood test, Cat Scan, EKG, and X-Rays, and they gave him an IV seizure meds in it he had 2 more seizures while he was in the hospital and he quit breathing he didn't even know the year, the day, or date or anything for about 30 minutes then he started coming around and talked to me I told him please don't die and I loved him and hoped to see him really, really soon Mom told me and Sissy to go home for awhile that there was nothing we could do so we did But I didn't want to I started feeling bad my stomach was so upset over being worried Sissy put me and Charlie a blanket, and pillow in front of her heater and I tried to take a nap But I couldn't I watched the weather channel and it said they we may get rain / snow tomorrow then me and Sissy went to get something to eat and took it back to the hospital I was even hungry I was too worried to eat then Mom came out Mom came out and told us they were transferring Dad to the Montgomery General Hospital in Blacksburg Virginia and that made me feel better! knowing that he's in good hands and he's in God's hands pray everything will be ok Me and Sissy waited in the hospital parking lot and Mom came and told us at 12:00 to go on back on home and she said they were gonna go on and transfer him to va when we got home our back door was open and it scared me...I thought someone had broke in But everything was fine I went and I took me a bath and I got online and I looked up seizures and I wanted to let you all know what has been going on! Tomorrow Mom and Diane are going to Blacksburg please pray they have a safetrip and that my Dad won't have anymore seizures and he'll get to come home! thanks.

Much Love,

Bee

This song is to Dad <3

Ready, Set, Don't Go
(Billy Ray Cyrus)

She's gotta do what she's gotta do
And I've gotta like it or not
She's got dreams too big for this town
And she needs to give 'em a shot
Whatever they are

Looks like she's all ready to leave
Nothing left to pack
There ain't no room for me in that car
Even if she asked me to tag along
God I gotta be strong

She's at the starting line
Of the rest of her life
As ready as she's ever been
Got the hunger and the stars in her eyes
The prize is hers to win
She's waiting on my blessings
Before she hits that open road
Baby get ready
Get set
Don't go

She says things are fallen into place
Feels like they're fallen apart
I painted this big ol' smile on my face
To hide my broken heart
If only she knew
This is where I don't say
What I want so bad to say
This is where I want to
But I won't get in the way
Of her and her dreams
And spreading her wings

She's at the starting line
Of the rest of her life
As ready as she's ever been
Got the hunger and the stars in her eyes
The prize is hers to win
She's waiting on my blessings
Before she hits that open road
Baby get ready
Get set
Don't go
Don't go
Don't go

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mood: drained
listening to: Ferras - Don't Give Up

Hey Everyone! I haven't made a real update in forever my life has been super busy But first I should let everyone know that my Dad is doing better now thank God :) he still has a lot of weight he needs to gain...But he hasn't had anymore seizures! So, that's the best news! Thanks again for everyone who has said a prayer for Dad keep on praying for him and us, and I'll keep you all updated on how he's doing ok? My Aunt Sue and Uncle Johnny are here so are my cousin's Patti and Jamie and all of my other cousin's I can't even name them all there's so many! I didn't get to see them But once while they were here But they were busy and we have been busy! Friday Mawmaw Graham and Aunt Arba came up to visit Arba said my cousin Angie has been sick said she almost had a stroke it was because of her Asthma medicine I have been so worried about her she's doing better But keep her in your prayers. Saturday Pawpaw and Diane came up with her sister Jane and Jane's husband Jim we sit outside and had a fire and I gave Pawpaw his B-Day stuff his B-Day is today he's 65 Happy B-Day, Pawpaw! Love ya! anyway I plan on calling him later on today to wish him a Happy B-Day! he hasn't been feeling good lately I have been worried the drs think he might have a blockage somewhere so please say a prayer for him. Sunday I didn't do anything, it was a rainy day and I slept most of the day *yawns* me and Sissy sit outside and me, her, and Mom went to Moe's and got Milkshakes when we came back me and Sissy rode around the park and told my cousin Jacob bye and I'd see him next time next summer he's only 9 years old But he's so sweet too bad we didn't get to spend that much time together there's always next year. Today is Monday, like I said I don't have anything planned besides calling Pawpaw! we took some new pics and I plan on posting those *sometime* in the near future other than that, there's been nothing else going on... like I posted the 16th made 2 years since Ron died! :( and Ron's Aunt Livie passed away my great great Aunt :( But once good thing has happenend my cousin Jerri is having a baby I'm so happy. I ended up calling Pawpaw and wishing him a Happy B-Day! he said he had a party! I told him I'd love to have some cake But me and Sissy was gonna go and go to the store and we couldn't come over (I told a little white lie I wanted to surprize him) So, we went over there and Jane and Jimmy was there and Diane we all ate cake and Pawpaw was so happy to see me! I'm really happy we went over to see him! :) he gave me a bracelet, some rings, and a pair of sunglasses, he's always so sweet! and Diane and Jimmy bought me some candy...from a girl that was selling stuff for her school that was so sweet of them :) before that Sissy bought me a drink from Taco Bell it has real Strawberries in it I could live on Stawberry flavored stuff haha Sissy is so sweet to me too, we always have fun with eachother when we got out I wish we could have stayed longer But it was late and Sissy had to stop at Riteaid and to get water, after that we came home it was almost 9:30 when we got home we ate dinner and Aunt Sue and Patty came over and they stayed for alittle while I just added a little bit to this entry I didn't want to retype another journal entry. Again sorry for not updating like I used to But my life stays busy I don't have time I do read everything you all post tho I hope everyone is doing well and life is good I'll try to update again soon But my soon is months from now you all know that lol! One more thing check out Ferras and Katy Perry they're amazing 2 of my favorites! and for everyone on Live Journal, Insane Journal, and NuTang I just wanted to let everyone know that I got a new account on melodramatic.com and deviantart my name is myyourheart So, if anyone has accounts at those sites add me ok? thanks! leave me some comments I'd love to hear how everyone's summer has been so far? Anyway, I'm gonna go listen to music and finish posting those new pics I promised.

Much Love,

Bee

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