Wow thanks for all the comments on that last post! All of you are right. Right now I am just enjoying life for every moment and am putting my faith in God for him to worry about my future. As for art, I am getting more time to spend painting and drawing and it feels good. My paintbrushes are no longer lonely lol.

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My back hurts now. I am okay though, and alive and that is what counts. It reminded me to be more focused so I am definetly going to work on finishing this blog. Art 4 The Homeless will help those who want to connect with their local shelters.

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I have gotten a LOT of comments on Myspace and even an email. Here is the email I recieved from my former friend. Yeah, he dumped me LOL.

From epppppie

"You should be pissed off at yourself.

Body:
IF you choose to believe blatant propaganda that tells you that the US is faced with enemies that seek our destruction, then you are at fault for contributing to the global atmosphere of hate. Do you even know that the US spends more on its military that the rest of the world COMBINED? Who then do we need to fear? No other nation or combination of nations would even think about attacking us. And yet you believe that Russia and Iran and Cuba might attack us? We have a base on Cuba, as you surely must know. Where is the Cuban base in the US? Did you know that Russia is surrounded by US military operations, bases and allies? Where are the Russian allies surrounding us? Cuba? Maybe? Maybe Venezuela. And none of those nations have any reason to attack us. Did you know that Venezuela sends us heating oil to help POOR PEOPLE get through the winter? Did you even know that? I would have thought you would, since you claim to be concerned about the poor.

You should be pissed off at your own ignorance."


Now, where in the post did I mention Venezuela?

It seems to me that I touched a nerve. I am glad his true colors showed and that he is no longer on my friends list. I did try to reply to him, but he blocked me, which showed me that he was very cowardly, as posted by Elegance on myspace, and that he has some serious insecurity problems.

So I want to ask each of you to pray for him and ask God to work on his heart. I am not going to humiliate him on the web or try to "get back" at him, that is pointless.

He was the only one who opposed the post. All the other comments were agreeing and supportive on both Myspace and Nutang.

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My Zazzle Gallery has been selling art! I only get so much royalty from the sales and have made around $15! Not much, but better than last year when I got paid $2.00 and some change that I just put with a sale to help out.

Anyway, the shelter that will benefit is the Atlanta Task Force for the Homeless. If you would like to purchase art to help the homeless, you can choose from the panel below!


create & buy custom products at Zazzle

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This has got to stop. My ex keeps emailing me and telling me he loves me. If he did, he wouldn't have disrespected me over and over again so yeah, I dumped him. He keeps emailing me since I won't let anyone off of Nutang comment on my blog and his emails are starting to border on harrassment. So Aditya, since you read my blog,I am saying this here and now.

STOP

I wish to be left alone and if you don't I will have to take legal action. I don't want to, but I will. Leave me the hell alone.

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I am so sick of this.

I met this guy last year and we dated kinda sorta. I fell hard, but in the end it just didn't work.

He attended GSU and the little things kept adding up. He was very disrespectful and then he liked to play this little guilt trips on me saying that I am abusive and that I am the reason he is failing college. He would skip class and complain about going to school. He was always sick and always had some kind of reason to blame someone else because of his problems. In other words, he was immature.

This guy is from India and is here on a student visa...wow I wish I had that opportunity: free college in another country...

Toward the end of our relationship he would brag about how he would want to take this other woman out or that he would tell his friends that I am abusive and poor and then get upset then they made fun of him because I was his girl.

Anyway, I got tired of it and broke it off. He still emails me and I am always telling him to leave me alone. It's over and I am done. He keeps up with this blog and my website and myspace and I feel as if it's stalking yet since I am nonprofit, there is really nothing I can do about it. I can't make him not type in my website or anything like that.

Just recently my mother was in the hospital and he sent me an email today. I wouldn't even be blogging about this except for the fact that he said a few things like "I removed your email because I am scared of you" and "I think I saw you the other day"

This is totally creepy and not cool.

I do appreciate his prayers for my mother, but I don't like the "I think I saw you the other day" or the fact that he said he is scared of me.

He started the email "not stalking or harassing but"

ugh this totally disgusts me. He also said he is my guarding angel though unwanted...

dude if you were anything I would say you were a demon, not an angel. No offense, but this is how I feel.

And he mentioned that he won't send me emails unless "I allow him to" but he emailed me on MySpace....

First of all, I am not your mother and you are a grown man. Get the "I am not allowed or I am allowed" concept out of your head. You are 30 years old and should act like it. I broke up with you because you

1. disrespected me
2. accused me of abusing you when I didn't
3. accused me of your failing classes and the semester before me it was your sister's fault you failed
4. actually told me that you told your friends that I was abusing you and then told me that they said that you should dump me but you wouldn't because you would feel bad or something along that area. I don't need pity
5. When I did try to help you study you didn't want to and then would again blame me for failing your classes
6. actually told me not to go to work because it was an evil place...what the fuck? and if I didn't go to work I was to make money how? I still have my job and I love it and the people I work with

You do have some good qualities..you did help us out when we needed food and you helped out my mother when she was on the streets. In face you reunited us but that doesn't mean that I owe you anything.

Anyways, I appreciate your prayers but please stop with the "I saw you" emails because that IS stalking and that IS illegal and it WILL get you ARRESTED.

I may be in the wrong, but personally, I don't want you involved with Art4TH or any aspects in my life. If you want to help the homeless, that's great, just don't harass me in the process.

Just to let you know, I saved every email you sent and if you send one more I will add it and contact GSU Police then the Atlanta Police. Actually, I have already spoken with someone and they told me to let them know if you try to contact me again, but since your email was basically about supporting my mother, I won't. Not because I don't want to, but I want to be fair. I want to give you a chance to leave me alone just like I gave you all those chances when we were together. It's over. Move on. Forget me.

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A new day has come. A new month has come, and a New Year is once again upon us. I barely had time to say good bye to 2008 when 2009 came and went. So as we embrace 2010, I want to say this to everyone:

Thank you, my friends and online friends, thank you, Lord Jesus, thank you, who are supportive of Art4TH.

I give thanks that I have a roof over my head, my mother is alive, and I am in contact with her cousin and his wife. I ask God to bless them. I thank God for my job and my coworkers who are like a little family.


For all the people who have turned their back on my friendship, I ask God to bless you doubly for you were in my life for a reason.

For all you who I have offended, I did not intend to offend. I apologize and ask for forgiveness. And I also forgive myself.

In 2010, I will not harbor guilt of past sins and will now harbor resentment of sins against me. What is done, is done. The only thing we can do is move on and I choose to move on with love in my heart, not hate or bitterness.

I ask that God blesses each and everyone of you who are reading this. Happy New Year everyone. Let us treasure each moment we have with our loved ones this year.

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I have a job. My mother is safe. My bosses are good people. I have a roof over my head. We have food and don't go hungry. We have soap, shampoo, and other toiletries and we don't have to worry about that discomfort.

Life is good. I am glad that we made it. I am slightly worried that something bad is on the horizon because of the good things that have been happening, but life is short and I will enjoy the special moments that I still have with my mom. Oh yea, my mom has a boyfriend who is only 4 years older than me. He loves her with everything. I am glad for them.

They met on the streets a year ago when I was in Job Corps and he took care of her. I trust him.

I just wanted to post a thanks to God for making things okay.

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