I can feel it. Building up inside of me. A kind of aggression, but good for you. Taking control. "It's my life!" he cried. "Take that!" Finally able to do what had always been planned, then sacrificed, now alive again.

Snowballing. I don't mean the process of squishing soft wet snow between your gloved fingers forming finger-printed lumps of snow. I mean...the accumulation, the slipping and sliding of things going too fast, snatching more kisses than there are left in the Hershey's bag because they're just too good and you know soon there will be none left and you can't decide if that is a good or bad thing and you keep taking them anyway because they're so good, too good to be bad so you keep eating it anyway. This accumulation just keeps going and you see the bottom of the bag but isn't empty yet and you don't know when it will be.

re: ha, hating the world is not childish behavior, and yet, you told me to grow up. thus, i prove your request invalid. besides, i wasn't serious about hating the world. maybe if i was depressed or something... then again, i'm not the one with the word "Alone" plastered on my blog background... :)
» thaitanic on 2010-01-28 09:25:17

sorry i didn't comment on this blog, i don't know the feeling of experiencing the snowball effect/hershey kiss conundrum.

i'm trying to think of what to say, but i'm not sure if you think the snowballing is a good things or a bad thing. i think around your age things do start snowballing, but it's normal, and in my opinion, it's a good thing, and a good way to get your life moving.

cheers,
sank
» thaitanic on 2010-01-28 10:56:29

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