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mood: fun

(the clue will be next to the date from now on)

went to san francisco with ciara, tracy, nikki, and angelina today. well first we drove to stonestown and took the metro to somewhere. then, after we looked around at the shops, we took the metro back to stonestown and drove to the haight. it was a cool place for, you know, people who like shopping. but still, it was interesting, seeing as how i've never been there. i didn't buy anything (because i'm not one to shop), but i killed some time talking to 'her' on the phone. for like, an hour. the phone bill is going to be a bitch, but at this point i don't care. my parents might be mad, but i'll pay the bill if i have to. i wouldn't trade what i have with her for anything.

o/` "and time goes by so slowly, and time can do so much, are you still mine?" o/`

no, that's not part of the lyrics game. i just felt like putting it there. this week. will go by. so. slowly.

i really need to cuddle.

<3

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mood:

what IS this? would i be up right now for anyone else? i think not.

well i'm sitting here on my bed with the laptop on my lap. it's 4:39 am. i don't remember the last time i've woken up so damn early. i've woken up? is that correct grammar? i know you'd correct me if you were on. i'm staring at my buddy list, waiting for that little yellow guy to appear in the doorway, with your name next to it. call me crazy ... call me obsessive ... just call me something. go online and be like "rick you're crazy" or "rick you're obsessive" and i'd be happy.

and you thought you were the one who would scare me away?

ugh, oh yeah. clue for the little, lyrics thing. umm. you guys don't need a clue. i can't think of a good one anyway.

ha! that's another thing. even though you said you don't mind, i've stopped saying "anyways" because i know it's incorrect.

i've never felt like this before. i'm so used to being let down by others. the fact that things are going my way both excites and scares me, because i know that they're not going to stay this way. but i shouldn't be thinking like this right now. the best is yet to come, right?

you're fucking contagious, you know that? now i have the sleeping problem. i woke up in the middle of the night, and couldn't go back to sleep thinking about you. not without knowing that you could be online at that very given moment. but it's fine. i'd rather be up thinking about you like i am right now than be hopelessly devoted to some other mediocre love interest like i have been for the past, um, lifetime? i don't know what the hell i'm saying. i guess what i'm trying to say is that, umm. i really, really like you. i mean, you don't understand. i've never been this crazy about someone, nor have i ever been so blunt about it. if i'm doing it all wrong, please correct me before i get too far.

i guess i've rambled long enough. perhaps i can squeeze in a couple more hours of sleep before nikki comes to pick me up and take me to the city. perhaps not. either way, i'm happy.

<3

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mood: optimistic

despite all the crappiness about not getting to go to tay's bonfire, things are looking well.

lyrics clue: dock

i'll start with the poop. so my mom drags me to sacramento to this party for this couple's 60th wedding anniversary. i admit, that's quite an accomplishment, but i have never even met this couple. it was totally pointless. i was already in a sorta crappy mood, because yet again my mother managed to tell me last minute. it was like "okay rick, dress nice, we're going to sacramento for a party!" oh. kay.

and to top things off, my mom forced me to dance with her. stupid cha cha. i was already pissed off, and then she wants me to DANCE with her? yeah. no.

i end up dancing with her anyways. but all non-enthusiastic-like.

then we get home, things are back to normal, sorta. but then i ask to go online and she's like "no, you didn't want to dance with me." what the fuck?

then she gets on my case about cleaning my room and taking out the garbage. it was one of those things where she was mad, but had nothing to be mad about, so she had to obsess over little things like that, just for the sake of being a bitch. whatever.

can you spell PMS?

but you know what? i don't care. because things are going great in rick's once non-existent love life. well, not exactly love life yet. but i met this girl. she's awesome. so easy to talk to on the phone / online, so funny, so ... perfect. i don't know. i can't explain it, but talking to her makes all this recent crap seem like tiny rat poop. and i'm going to meet up with her next week. we'll see how that goes.

i'm not going to obsess over her, seeing as how we're not going out or anything like that. but ... let's just say that this is going to be one loooong week.

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mood: ohmaga ...

hm. well, today was strange. i go on my computer after i wake up and my little 11 year old cousin IMs me. he's a little obnoxious piece of shit that won't leave me alone, and most of the screen names on my blocked list are his. but he manages to create new ones and bother me to no end. so here's a conversation (his screenname has been changed to protect his anonymity):

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stupidcousin (11:48:17 AM): Sup
LifelessEyelid (11:48:25 AM): ...
LifelessEyelid (11:48:30 AM): WHAT DO YOU WANT.
stupidcousin (11:48:32 AM): Guess who I am
LifelessEyelid (11:48:34 AM): matthew
stupidcousin (11:48:37 AM): no
LifelessEyelid (11:48:39 AM): now stop bothering me.
LifelessEyelid (11:48:43 AM): do you think i'm stupid?
stupidcousin (11:48:43 AM): WHy6
stupidcousin (11:48:54 AM): WHy do you want me to stop bothering me
LifelessEyelid (11:49:06 AM): because. why do you keep bothering me?
stupidcousin (11:49:14 AM): Im not
stupidcousin (11:49:24 AM): Why yuo being such a smart **
stupidcousin (11:49:26 AM): *
LifelessEyelid (11:49:44 AM): i'm not being a smart***
stupidcousin (11:50:04 AM): Yuo always having attitude
stupidcousin (11:50:14 AM): Thats why no one in the family likes yo..............................
LifelessEyelid (11:50:22 AM): i don't care if no one in the family likes me.
stupidcousin (11:50:42 AM): with yuor gay self
stupidcousin (11:50:45 AM): your*
LifelessEyelid (11:50:53 AM): shut the fuck up.
stupidcousin (11:50:59 AM): Your gay
stupidcousin (11:51:11 AM): You like guys
stupidcousin (11:51:13 AM): ,,,,,,
LifelessEyelid (11:51:25 AM): okay, first of all, asshole, it's "you're gay".
stupidcousin (11:51:34 AM): STOP BEING SMART!
LifelessEyelid (11:51:35 AM): if you're going to insult me, try using correct grammar, fuckface.
stupidcousin (11:51:43 AM): yo mama
LifelessEyelid (11:52:01 AM): real creative, stupidass.
stupidcousin (11:52:08 AM): Your so dumb yuo triped over a cordless phone....
stupidcousin (11:52:16 AM): YOUR
LifelessEyelid (11:52:43 AM): haha. you know, that could be funny. except, i heard that one before. so ... no.
stupidcousin (11:52:54 AM): haha no........
stupidcousin (11:53:16 AM): With yo rainbow self
LifelessEyelid (11:54:00 AM): looks like someone is having a little self-image problem themselves.
stupidcousin (11:54:08 AM): Yup you are
LifelessEyelid (11:54:41 AM): um, no. you, my friend, are having doubts about your sexuality, so you go and make fun of other people just to make yourself feel better.
stupidcousin (11:54:55 AM): I know you are but what am I
stupidcousin (11:54:57 AM): I know you are but what am I
stupidcousin (11:54:57 AM): I know you are but what am I
stupidcousin (11:54:58 AM): I know you are but what am I
stupidcousin (11:55:06 AM): I know you are but what am I........
stupidcousin (11:55:08 AM): I know you are but what am I........
LifelessEyelid (11:55:08 AM): real mature.
stupidcousin (11:55:11 AM): I know you are but what am I........
stupidcousin (11:55:12 AM): I know you are but what am I........
stupidcousin (11:55:17 AM): SO HA!
LifelessEyelid (11:55:27 AM): wow matthew? how do you DO that? it's like, you type reall fast or something!
stupidcousin (11:55:38 AM): Yup i do
stupidcousin (11:55:40 AM): woww
stupidcousin (11:55:41 AM): I know you are but what am I........
stupidcousin (11:55:42 AM): I know you are but what am I........
stupidcousin (11:56:19 AM): YOu need to take off that rainbow shirt you faggot
LifelessEyelid (11:56:43 AM): i'm not wearing one, but it's nice to see that you're learning new words at that shitty school of yours.
stupidcousin (11:57:10 AM): You school is for SPECIAL kids
LifelessEyelid (11:57:34 AM): you're such a fucking dumbass, it amazes me to no end.
LifelessEyelid (11:57:40 AM): how do you manage to breathe?
stupidcousin (11:57:56 AM): ummm i open my mouth
stupidcousin (11:58:01 AM): and breathe
LifelessEyelid (11:58:26 AM): really? when did you learn to do it all by yourself?
stupidcousin (11:58:40 AM): STFU
stupidcousin (11:58:42 AM): AH
stupidcousin (11:59:08 AM): When I see you at a party im gonna beat you up
LifelessEyelid (11:59:14 AM): yeah fucking right.
stupidcousin (11:59:23 AM): i mean straight up
stupidcousin (11:59:46 AM): Ricky don't hate me cause im cool
LifelessEyelid (11:59:50 AM): you know, matthew, you'll never do anything in life. you'll go to high school, play some football, get shitty grades, and then what?
LifelessEyelid (12:00:00 PM): repeat the following: "do you want fries with that?"
LifelessEyelid (12:00:08 PM): you're going to be using it a lot in the future.
stupidcousin (12:00:15 PM): do you want fries with that
stupidcousin (12:00:18 PM): do you want fries with that
stupidcousin (12:00:19 PM): do you want fries with that
stupidcousin (12:00:20 PM): do you want fries with that
stupidcousin (12:00:20 PM): do you want fries with that
stupidcousin (12:00:21 PM): do you want fries with that
stupidcousin (12:01:07 PM): Your gay
stupidcousin (12:01:25 PM): RETARD
stupidcousin (12:01:32 PM): STOP JACKING OFF

LifelessEyelid (12:01:50 PM): did you just learn what that was yesterday, you fucking asshole?
stupidcousin (12:02:06 PM): no
LifelessEyelid (12:02:20 PM): "huh huh, hey matthew, do you know what jacking off is? huh huh, now go use that word every chance you get to make you look cool, kay?"
stupidcousin (12:02:47 PM): And I know what does that mean kae?
stupidcousin signed off at 12:03:37 PM.
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Session concluded at 12:05:08 PM
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this, is kinda weird. i never swear in front of my family members, but this little guy ... he just pushed me over the line. whatever.

on to other news. saw shrek 2 last night with ciara, tay, nikki, dan, and matt. it was pretty funny. then we went to go play pool (we've been playing pool a lot). and yeah. then i go home and take a nap, and ciara calls me, telling me to get my ass over to her house for a little get-together. so we get there, there's some talking, some music, some starbucks, some ditching, some dancing, and yeah. fun night.

then i get home, talk to amy's and sonia's friend from michigan, and our detective minds prove a conspiracy theory. it was kinda fun.

you guys don't really need a clue for this entry's lyrics, they're kinda easy.

well, we're all going to play pool again today at 8, so i better go ask my mom if i can go. i swear, if i'm not a pool guru by the end of this summer ...

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