well things have happend to me im just going to fill you in with the resent, the girl i have been trying to get with is finly mine, im so happy cas i care about her alot, and she sead that she has liked me sence we met, and she sead she loved me tolk about worm and fuzzy inside. I cant beleave she sead that, i was like holy shit yayayayayay thats all i got to say about that is yay, well any way i asked her out last night and she sead yes actily her anser was more like "YES!!!" i was like realy shes all "yea i love you" it made me cry ~wipes a tear away~. so im happy she made my day 2 days in a row so yea well thats about all i just like to put that up there, she so great its great :D:D like it alot that im now going out with her well thats all i got this danm site dont have a cat im so sad. oh well ttyl byes all peace out, zero out

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do we ever find out what love is, do we ever find the true meaning of love, do we ever find what we call true love, its a question i have always asked my self, have i ever fond what we have always looked for in our lives??? do we ever find what we are looking for?? i came danm close to it and i never relized that it was that close, just after i some one that i thot i loved and loved me i relized that the person that i had loved was always there i was to danm blinded by my own weaknesses to see it, i was to prowed of myself to see what i had done to my self, her and every one that was in contacet to us no matter how long thay were, just after finding out this i lost that which i loved the most and would give anything to have, i would kill my self just to have her back, i will do anything to have her im my arms right know, i would sell my soul to the devil if it ment i could take back what i did if it ment i never met her i would be happy, i just wish i never wished for her i just wish i never fote for her, i just wish i never let her kiss me the way she did, the weakness of a girls totch is what got me in this mess, only if i never helped her move, i would still be with steff and i would not have to worrie about it any more, i would not be in the pain im in, and i prbibly would not be here now. and i would not have to be in the perdicerment im in, or forced with the disistion im in, and the pain would just stop, and the pain would not be there, i sould have never done what i did and i hate my self for it but i lernd never to trust a woman you berly know

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humm i now look at the face of death and i have a choice to make, and death right now is looking so very tasty, humm the pain is not relaving the pain so lets just make it all go away in a matter of secends. its just all that i have to look forward to now, that i have been betraded by the only person i have loved and now i have nothing to look at tward in life. and i have nothing to wait for in life, and death is waiting with a prize packege it looks so tasty the prizes, intrusting how life and death have a strugle tell your misarible and then life just gives up, *looks around to relize that no one realy cares any more* humm thats what i always thot, no one realy cared about me thay never have and i dont see any one realy going to care about me, i just found out that the one person that would always care hates me and only used me for her sick perposes. i loved her i still do but i dont know what to think right now, i thot after that fight we had that it was over but after she met him, she just completly chainged, she is not the person i fell in love with, and she is just totle diff, cas when i lent a hand out she used the hand to help me up with her, but now... now she tryed to kill me with it, i miss the old her, the one that tuck my hand as we walked throw my yard, to the gest house, the one that asked me if i was being a gentlemen or just flurting with her, and i told her to pick on and she sead "flurting with her" and kissed me our first kiss. the one that let me help her throw her problems when she bearly knew me. the one that i injoyed holding in my arms wail we both cryed, yes every time i held you i was in tears i never let you see them cas i was afread you would think diff of me if you did, but i cryed for the fact that i beleaved i found some one that i could love and loved me back just as equily. but i guess i was wrong i was so baddly wronge and now i wish i could take it all back, i wish i could take it back and then me and steff might still betogether, i wish i could take it all back so that i would have not got into truble like i did, and if i had gone to jail and you would have pulled this shit wail i was there i would have fucked you up, well thats all i have today and i hope some one learns from there mistakes and fix them. ttyl peace out all. bye

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god ppl why do you all have to be so mean, aspesily you lori your so fucking gerr about stuff, i just lend a hand and you try to kill me wit it. *sigh* why did i expect anything less from you humm. *sigh* just some times i like to know my real friends, the ones closest to me are the ones to back stab me. and i sould have known that you would be the one to fuck me the worst. no no dont say anything just think what you have done, just think what you have done to hurt me. just think what you have acomplesed on hurting me the way you did. i dont get it its always the ones i love the most, but i guess i brot it apon my self. just look at the man you all have made me a man that hates all and would get pleaser from killing you all in the most horific ways. just look at me i went from a kid that liked to play and have fun to a man that likes to kill and and hate, a man with a cold heart. a man with nothing to look forward to but death. a man that will always be feared and remeberd as a legend, a legend that ppl wished never was found.

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well i now have a job (its great)<~~~~ theres a realy hot chick that works there with me (oh my god she is hella hot espesily for an asian and thay are HOT) :D but yea i have a job now so i will soon have cash in this poket, and i start collage in jan. and i im still not sure what im going to do in it thow i still have 4 mounths to think about it so yea... but any way i have been pritty good except i havent tolk to steff in like 2 mounths. so im realy down about that but im moving on i have sent her a cabiazillion letters and no anser so im just like fuck it im done. but im good other then that. kinda been bored. so now that i have a job i hope im not so fucking bored. :D so im going to be great. i hope. i like the job even thow its only started to day but the girls i get to tolk to boy you tolk about creaming on your self. DANM, :D ppl are so jeales of me. :D but its all good. well thats all that has happend to me lately so ttyl peace out all have a good day all byes Zero out

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oh im mad as hell right now this bitch start tolking shit on me and now i have to go camit a homside in this bitch, he sead my clan sux and he called a good friend of mine a bitch and now he is harrasing ppl i know , so now i have to kill a bitch ass puck whore . see you guys (and gales) lata zero out

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