in this world you find so meny unexpected thing, people, & places. in my live i didnt think i would find some one that compleated me so. its as if a dream that has come true. a persion quite littorly out of the blue. i dont know where you came from or where your going, but i wish to be apart of it still. your absolutly amazing, its suprizing. but in the sercomstance, i cant beleave your true. there to be, where did you come from? my dreams? your exsactly the persion i have been looking for. its a suprize to know that you exsist. a loveing and careing persion there befor my eyes. you can so easly read my mind, and me, yours. so meny questions race in my head. like, why are you here? how are you here? for what reasion have you come to me like you have? its a shock, a scare. though i am glad you there. befor me you stand, and so meny things i wish to do to you. but know this. you're absalutly amazing, never leave, never cry. in your arms you will stay, tell the day i die.

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withen all of our wishes throughout life, you never realy look back to what you miss from the past. its a shock to see how much you would have liked to have that toy a little longer, or that RC car, you never look back apon the past unless somthing bad had happend to you. theres always somthing that haunts you for a large protion of your life. some longer then others. but what if the one thing that haunted you was that "thing" that you wish you still had? it becomes so very difficalt to forget somthing so tragic in your life. but its even more impossible to fogive that object that betrade you, wether it be a dog or a trutle or even a sibling or loved one. some thing that you cared about had not even given you the opportunity to express your self to it, or ignored you all to gether. how would one get over such things? is it honistly that difficalt to find that one thing in this world that would actily love you for you, or is all just a farce? can we not just live a happy life? or dose everyday have to be torturous, no matter how hard we try. i will admet, i have spent my hole life trying to please others, and i have expected nothing in return. but yet i see all thease people giving nothing to others and thay get all thay have ever wanted. is that what life is realy about, taking all you can and giving nothing in return? is that what this world is like? is that what we sould do. cause if so i would rather rot in hell then to live in this inmorral world, if there is one persion, one thing in this would that can actily see compleatly through the diseption this world has casted into sociaty, then please, find me. i would love to meet you. one true good soul that would beleave, and love one for who and what thay are, and would not change them to there liking. some one that would be there and suport them selfs and others through there tough times. and would fight for the things thay beleave in and there loved ones. is that so much to ask in this world? i know its all a test. but for goodness sake, isnt everyone intitled to love another? shouldn't we all be loved by another? then tell me where is all the love gone? just another day in the world, just another day to search for one to love. in the end. we all find that one, that will die with us.

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hello all, its been awail i know... but i have not forgoten about nutang... some of my best work is on nutang. but anyway, i have not talked to my nutang buddys in forever. how has all been?
i have been good, not to much going on in my life at the momment... i moved to iowa. and im living with a friend, still lonly, and single... but thats not a suprize to anyone now is it. but what ever. i dont realy need to be with a girl to be happy i suppose. looking for a job. but everything is so cheap out here its insane. i wish things where this cheap in vegas. but what ever. but other then that nothing new on this end. and unforchinetly no new poetry this time... :\ i know im lame but im sure you'll live. anyway if i come up with somthing i will post it for all to read. anyway have fun all... peace.

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be for all of this i used to dream of you, be for all of this i used to hope for you, be for all of this i used to be in love with you, but now as i look out to the world i had with you i wonder was it all worth it in the end? i wonder to my self should i have done all that i did? even with all the pain and hate, all the suffering that i did, did i still deserve what you did? was it honestly necessary for you to do what you did to me? was it the right thing for you to do that to me? was it right of you to even think of such a thing? why could you just be honest with me? why couldn't you just tell me the truth, told me that you no longer loved me, why could you just tell me that you wanted to be with him and not me... you think that i would have become angry? do you think that i would have freaked out... no i would not have even if you would have told me the truth, yes i would have hurt, but i would still have loved you more for your honesty then for you to go off and cheat and steal what was not yours, just tell me the damn truth and i would have been just fine... but no you had to go behind my back... you had to fucken lie to me... you could not just tell me "hay... things arnt working out like i thought they would have... no longer love you like i did be for..." but you had to go behind my back and fuck me over like that... what did you have to go off and do a disrespectful thing like that? i wish you would have told me the truth... i wish that things would have ended up different. but they didn't, instead of us becoming really good friends, we ended up hating each other, and thats not what i wanted... i wanted us to be able to be there for each others hard ship... but instead you had to lie to me like i was just some little kid that didn't deserve the truth... but little do you know that i ended up better then you... in the end i became the make you always wanted but now I'm no longer there for you to thrive off my up bringing... now, you have to pay the consequences of your actions, instead of having a real man in your life. some one that is going to do something with them damn self... you end up with a little boy that has nothing going for him self... so now that this is all sead and over with, when i get to the end of my road i will have more in my self then most people will dream of... you have no clue where I'm going in my life... you have no idea the things I'm going to achieve. this is my world now... i have full control over what happens to me... do you know what your going to do with your self? do you know were your going to be in the next 10 years? how about 2? i dought it highly... your not getting any were if you dont start to straiten up your act and quit acting like a child and get on with your life and stop hangen out with those little kids you call friends cause all there going to do is hold you down and keep you from achieving your dreams. good bye to you, i have nothing more to say this time. i hope you eventually learn what i have learned... live is not about how much drugs you can do... not how much alcohol it takes to get fucked up... or how my guys you can fuck in a life time... its about how much good you can do with your life... and how much you can change another person... i hope you learn... i really do learn...

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Why do people commit suicide?



Why do people cut themselves?



Why do girls become anerexic and belimec?



Why do kids bring guns to school?



Why do kids get depressed...so they start using meds, and abusing them?



Why do girls feel the need to act like sluts to impress guys?



Why cant people show their sexuality freely, without worrying about being judged?

In the Bill Of Rights, it says we have FREEDOM OF SPEECH! So why are we so afraid to speak up for ourselves?



I KNOW WHY!

Cliques

"Gangstas"

"Preps"

"Nerds"

"Goths"

"Emos"

"Scene//Hardcore kids"

"Punks"


^^^AND THATS NOT EVEN HALF OF THEM!

Society in general


We live in a world where if your not skinny, not beautiful, not sexy, not straight...your tortured, abused, and humiliated. We say that we are all equal but, there is still racism, sexism, and people judging others based on there religion, color, size, heritage, ect.

IS THIS AMERICAN?




IS THIS THE NATION WE LIVE IN AND FIGHT WARS TO SUPPORT?



I AM SICK OF IT!
Stereotypes, and everything else.
I want to live in a good place, without suicide, rape, murder, and JUDGEMENT!



IF THIS HAD ANY AFFECT ON YOU REPOST IT!

No, a ghost will not rape your dog.
You wont have relashionship problems
No you wont die in 7 days.
BUT you will have the guilt on your shoulders that you didnt try to get the message across.
I want to stop the madness.
If I only reached out to 1 or 2 people thats fine.
At least MY concience is clear...HOW ABOUT YOURS?

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