humm i now look at the face of death and i have a choice to make, and death right now is looking so very tasty, humm the pain is not relaving the pain so lets just make it all go away in a matter of secends. its just all that i have to look forward to now, that i have been betraded by the only person i have loved and now i have nothing to look at tward in life. and i have nothing to wait for in life, and death is waiting with a prize packege it looks so tasty the prizes, intrusting how life and death have a strugle tell your misarible and then life just gives up, *looks around to relize that no one realy cares any more* humm thats what i always thot, no one realy cared about me thay never have and i dont see any one realy going to care about me, i just found out that the one person that would always care hates me and only used me for her sick perposes. i loved her i still do but i dont know what to think right now, i thot after that fight we had that it was over but after she met him, she just completly chainged, she is not the person i fell in love with, and she is just totle diff, cas when i lent a hand out she used the hand to help me up with her, but now... now she tryed to kill me with it, i miss the old her, the one that tuck my hand as we walked throw my yard, to the gest house, the one that asked me if i was being a gentlemen or just flurting with her, and i told her to pick on and she sead "flurting with her" and kissed me our first kiss. the one that let me help her throw her problems when she bearly knew me. the one that i injoyed holding in my arms wail we both cryed, yes every time i held you i was in tears i never let you see them cas i was afread you would think diff of me if you did, but i cryed for the fact that i beleaved i found some one that i could love and loved me back just as equily. but i guess i was wrong i was so baddly wronge and now i wish i could take it all back, i wish i could take it back and then me and steff might still betogether, i wish i could take it all back so that i would have not got into truble like i did, and if i had gone to jail and you would have pulled this shit wail i was there i would have fucked you up, well thats all i have today and i hope some one learns from there mistakes and fix them. ttyl peace out all. bye

shit happenz
what i have learned:shit happens....wether u want it to or not....and quote i live by....there is no way to remedy love,but to love more....I dont really know you but we have a lot in common....i been there...and now im here....~hugz~take carez hun
» WiCkEdFaIrIeZ on 2004-09-18 08:35:02

*smiles*
well we do a lot more then i had relized :P yea i read your las entry intrusting how life works. *sigh* and i almost lost it all from something i had stupidly chose and i have to relize that the girl i fell in love with is no longer living, and i have to relize if i ever want her back i have to comply change and im not sure if i want that. but im not sure if i realy want to live with the what i have become becas of this. *sigh* this is the reson i left skool cas of the crap, but im going back cas i miss the crap. but oh well humm, you know what im just going to wash my hands clean of this cas im trying to get with some eals and i hope that she has a good life with out me, and i hope she get what she needs. ttyl peace out all
» hatchetwarrior on 2004-09-18 05:31:45

hey hun
well for one thing...yes u can use the poem just give me some propz...for another nobody is worth changin over. if they cant love u the way u r than they arent worth being with.~hugz~The only person you have become is someone who is between being who they were and finding out who they r going to be later on. Im still trying to figure me out. Im almost 20 years old! It might take me a lifetime to figure it out and if it does o well. Ill deal with it. At least ill be true to myself and thats all that matters.And she will be ok just like the "guy"i was with is ok now.And just a suggestion....take it slow with this new person. Dont rush into it. I know its hard to do(im having problems rushing with myself)But U need some recoop time. To find YOU again before you try to let someone else in to be a part of it with u....just a suggestion...~hugz~take carez**lata
» WiCkEdFaIrIeZ on 2004-09-20 09:06:34

hay thinks you know what your tolking about
hay i might just bring you most my problems cas you know just what to say to me to make me feel better, your just like me ppl come to you for there problems, im pritty good with problem solving, but if its my own then im clueless, ty for letting me us the poums and i always give props its my thing, i dont claim it if its not mine, well ttyl peace out.
» hatchetwarrior on 2004-09-20 09:00:06

~smilez~
sure u can...I do the same...feel like no is listening and just turn to suicide as an answer...but that doesnt help...not when u have so much to offer...thx for the hugz hun...i feel really crappy tonight....**lata
» WiCkEdFaIrIeZ on 2004-09-21 09:25:15

awww im sorry
yea suiside is not going to help me at all, and besinds i know that suiside is not the anser to my problems and im over her now i dont care what happends to her now, its not my problem. so i dont give a rats ass, im sorry you feel like crap i dont think you the only one that feels that wat. ttyl peace out
» hatchetwarrior on 2004-09-22 03:16:51

heh
feelin like crap too huh?lol well josherz came over today and i ended up crying and we talked about it...and im feeling a lil better about it.Can you believe we got carded when we bought some stupid white out!?!?!?!?I thought that was so freaking dumb.O well it gave me something to laugh at tee hee. Well i guess ill catch ya laters...you need to get like a chatterbox or something lol otherwise ur going to hve like 50 comments on here!lmao**lata
» WiCkEdFaIrIeZ on 2004-09-22 08:34:02

lol its all good i might do i but im going to think about it.
lol hay im going to add you to my yahoo chat so i can tolk to you more k im nc_cervidal yep yep ttyl byes have fun
» hatchetwarrior on 2004-09-23 02:28:49

hey
hey u dorky dorky dorky guy that i know! haha!
» badmonkey21 on 2004-09-26 03:31:07

haha
i'll poke you in the eye! haha!
» badmonkey21 on 2004-09-26 03:31:30

lol
yes im a dork *.O and try to risite poking me in the eye :P so was up humm??
» hatchetwarrior on 2004-09-26 07:33:08

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