Dear Diary,

Due to the weather in Malaysia ~ Sometimes hot~ Sometimes Cold... i had enough of my long hair that i decided to cut it Short short short.....

So yesterday i went to the hair salon with my mum... muahahah she cut and dye her hair for the 1st time after 52 years... and i told her ill take the RM60 package include, cut, blow, wash, and treatment and ill pay half... but ended up she pay all said she sponsor me... yay to me...

I used to never cut for hair for many years.. remember last time i dont cut my hair since form2 till college, and after knowing alexisng only i went to cut my hair... the reason was I HATE HAIR SALON... or I HATE TO GET MY HAIR CUT... cause i never like the style they cut...

But since i cut it short after many years, is hard to keep it long again, especially afterthe swimming pool incident my hair got so dry, and drop too.. thats really sucks.. hence.... i decided to have another SHORT hair.. muahahah...

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lol do u see the keroro model and final fantasy figurine behind me.... squall and vincent ~

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Dear Diary,

Got tagged by my more than 10 years friend renaye, so have to do lo, if not she going to cincang me with her new invented plastic knife that she believe to have super power of cincang-ing.

1. I'm obsess with the name Quinn
John Quinn by favorite vampire by Lisa Jane Smith, almost every time I see his name I got so excited. Lol because he is cool and sexy and hot. :P. Due to my obsession towards him, I even named my gaming character with his last name �s Quinn� :P. Some of my friend thought my last name is Quinn @@""

2. I love CHOCOLATE
It happened since uni life, stupid stress make me wanted to eat chocolate almost like everyday...

few weeks back, I hang out with renaye I bought 2 bar of toblerone and "feast" on it... Yum....

and sometimes I had 3 scope of chocolate ice cream just to fulfill my chocolate hunger :P

3. I LOVE GACKT CAMUI
Hahhaha, i even dream of him "ah so sweet"

4. I'm Merdeka Baby
Yup celebrating my bday on 31 august, and thus my bday always a public holiday:D �although is good to fall on public holiday and also malaysia��s bday but�K it always jam whenever place I wanted to go .... . LMAO

5. I love to bite
Erm, this applicable to all my gaming friends since I'm already famous in the guild and friend chat of starting my conversation with a bite�K. And their reply with an ouch or lick @@""

6. My nick name in the gaming world is
Vampy
Vamger - Vampire + Tiger
Quinee
AssPhone - that's the worse
Perse
Persey

7. I have plenty of teddy bears :P
Oh.. I love teddy bears,,, I been collecting lots of teddy bears now... . note to my future husband that happen to read this:D I want a room that specially design to place all my teddy bears :P

8. I love collecting books :P
I bought plenty of books (of course I finish it :p) and make it into my collection reluctant to sell it off....

Erm..... Do you know I have one whole set of Lisa Jane Smith book that consider rare�K I mean yes is so rare since all the new books by LJS are combination of few books�K like 2 in one�K but my books are stand alone :P... I think I spent more than hundreds of ringgit just on her books :P

9. I want to be vampy.
So I can bite ppl :P

10. I wanted to travel
All around the world before I die :P so I can visit all my dream places..
One of it is Egypt~ Pyramid~ provided they don't speak gaming English with me.. like [ ya man, ok or no man, plz man, team man, hhhhhh kosmk]

11. I Love Tigers and Shark
Well I bet some of you know that I love them. Sometimes I just don't understand some old folk�K they kinda condemn me for loving them @@""

I cried if tigers die
I cried if shark die
I mad if u eat shark fin
I mad if u hunt tiger
I��ll do what I can to stop human from hurting them. :P

12. do you know.
My very 1st comic book is doraemon, and my bday present for age 10 or 11 is 1-18 of sailormoon manga lol

Yes I read sailormoon :P

13. Vincent Valentine and Zell Dincht are my
DARLING. I played ff8 and I love Zell Zell cause he is cute and choke of hotdog @@"" and Vincent Valentine from ff7 cause he is Dracula and kakkoi(handsome)

14. I"m a cyber counselorWell, lots of my gamer's friends are kiddo, so they used to talk to me about their love problem @@""

Sounded like a mum hahah

15. obsess with poo?
Erm a friend of mine will always start our conversation with good morning did u poo yet, poo is smelly, mr poo and etc�K lol

we can discuss poo topic for an hour.... and everyone in the conversation will respond to our talk... lmao


COUGH COUGH COUGH.. who should i tagged? apa lah... why 10 ppl... haih
1. dilated :P
2. Kirei
3. randomjunk
4. Praetorian
5. Zanzibar
6. kuri
7. GotMilk
8. Shopping Mum
9. Simple Alex
10. Song's World

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Dear Diary,

It gonna be super long post but it for memories purpose for my future children..~

My beloved grand father pass away on the Friday 22 October 2010 (九月十五).
It was a mixture of feelings, from sadness to anger, since we were not allowed to cry out loud (to makesure that his soul is rest in peace)

I was so sad when I received the news from my mum, and I cried a little during work, and a customer walked in. That day itself, I went back home early, and had a long cry, and told myself not to cry the next day. Which indeed I did it, but not during the funeral day itself.

Chinese Funeral, often consists of 3 days, 5 days or 7 days, depends on the house owner or the will of the dead.

My grandpa's was a 5 days memorial, which each day consists of different activities. The first day they discovered he pass away, a lot of people were to contact, from relative to people who handle the funeral.

It is very important to respect a Chinese's funeral, to the dead and also the family, so those visitors must wear light colour while attending paying a visit. Especially no RED or PINK during that period of time. (I saw some insensitive old lady wearing FRESH RED, it really a very unpleasant act!)

All the daughters and son + grandchildren have to dress in white and black pants, and at the left shoulder we have to pin something to show our "status". Those who followed grandpa's surname (Son, daughter in law, daughter) will have to click on "har" - i really dont know what is that in english, and (Son's children have to click on Har with dark blue cloth) while (Daughter's children have to click on Dark blue and Yellow Cloth) Relatives are Dark Green, and sisters to my grand father is Dark Red.

According to my mum, they will have to feed my grandpa rice, before placing him into the coffin. They will dress my grandpa and everything. My grandpa was dress in a suit of coat, He is such a Handsome guy, we always argue that we are not pure Chinese, maybe part of Mongolian which contributed to his wonderful face features.

Anyway, since the 1st day I'm not there and not sure of what's going on, but I see alot of "gold and Silver" and "Buddha Hand" - All in papers were place inside the coffin together with my grandpa. His coffin is a very modern western coffin, with a see through glass.

According to mum, they hired monk to pray for the 1st 2 nights (only a very short period of time involved)

2nd day, I was there, we reach there quite late, 1920 (I was driving and speeding! but cannot manage to reach at 1900 sharp when the praying by the monk start) So we missed out the prayer.

Upon reaching, I went to burn an incense for my grandpa, telling him I'm here. Whole day it was purely eat and gathering because nothing much to do besides helping them to fold the "gold and silver paper" for the whole night.

Alot of relative were there, everyone is paying their respect to my grandpa, and it became a family gathering, no one was crying on the 2nd night, instead a lot of laughter.

On the 3rd day we reach early because a lot of ceremony involved, where we refer it as "Going to class" because the "Sai Kong - a Taoist" will start ringing the bell, and all the daughters and sons, grandchildren must gather at the front of Sai Kong, and start listening to the prayer. This circles repeated many times. We have to sit there with an incense and do what we were told to do.

We have to walk and make a circle at the coffin for many times until 11pm (on and off).

But around 2100, my uncle invited a group of people from Buddhist society to give a Buddhist Prayer, we have to read the prayer from the books (A lot of Mandarin Character that I never seen before) It was the longest process, and the prayer was very nice.

On the 4th night (Last night) We have to be there very early before 1800, because the prayer by Sai Kong will start sharp at 1800 or it will be bad if it was late. The prayer was longer compared to the 3rd night, because we have to pray at the "house" and also the dead ancestors.

The process repeated until before 0000. During the process, we still have to make a circle at the coffin. The most interesting part is "crossing the bridge".

Each of the daughters and sons + grandchildren were given 14 coins to be used for "crossing the bridge" , the make a small bridge at the compound and we were required to move up the bridge and said "Ah Chor, Ah Kong, Kuay Keo" (Ancestor and Grandpa, cross the bridge) while doing so , we have to throw 2 coins into the bowl provided. The process repeated for 7 times.

B4 the clock strike 0000, we bring everything we wanted to burn for grandpa (paper house, paper money, paper gold, and everything) to an empty land, we have to make into a circle and once it was in fire we have to call "Ah Kong Zip Chu" (grandpa go in the house), and later we have to move back home without turning back. (go into the house from behind, and wash our face and hand)

5th day morning, is the worse morning ever, because was the day we have to bury our grandpa. I keep walking near the coffin for the past 4 days to look at my grandpa, because we were pretty close. We reach there in the morning right before any prayers.

We were told to see our grandpa for the very last time before they close the coffin, yes by that time, majorities of us were having tears at the tip of our eyes. 4 nails were knocked into the coffin to show "closure", while doing so, the Sai Kong will said something good and we have to answer "HO" - Good. and later we have to circle the coffin, again, and yes I started crying silently.

Later, we were not allow to go into the house anymore until we were to return home from the bury ground. We have to sit infront of the table full of offerings from the sons, daughters and relative and friends. we have to pray and bow our head for 12times.

Later we were divided into male and female, while the Sai Kong called other relative to offer their last praying. 1st with "Son in Law" then relative, friends and etc.

We did some donation to the societies too, I think is my grandpa's will.

Later the coffin was move into the van, and we have to follow the van in walking until a certain distant before we took bus to the bury ground.

The arrangement was "Son In Law, Grandson in law in front of the coffin with black umbrellas" , "coffin" "4 sons" "4 Daughters + Daughter In Law" and followed by Grandchildren and relatives.

It was a funny moment when we were required to say "Ah Kong Kuay Keo" whenever we cross the bridge to the bury ground.

We reach the bury ground, and my uncles (4sons) have to pray at the front to I think sort of inform the "God" there that my grandpa was going to stay here now.

We have to take away the pint cloth and give it to Sai Kong at the bury ground, when moving in the coffin, we were not allow to look at it, until everything is nicely place into the ground.

One last prayer, and coffin circling. Then we were asked to grab some soil to throw into the ground and said "Ah Kong Tui Chu" (Grandpa go back home). We were asked to wash our hands and face with flower's water (mix flower into water).

Get in the bus, we have our journey home (My big uncle carrying the "Hiao Lo" (a place to put in incense for grandpa) we were required to say "Ah Kong Kuay Keo" when crossing the bridge again.

Once we reach home, we have to wash our hands and face with Flower's water again and go into the house by saying "Ah Kong Zip Chu" and pray for and get a red string. Red String means you can wear red now, those who do not get the red string "like my aunt and uncle" will do so on the 7th day. (today!)

According to Chinese belief, on the 7th day , the soul will come back to pay a visit for the last time, before they were told to drink a cup of tea that will used to wash away all the memories of the present life.

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My grandpa funeral was quite fun in a way.
1. we had family gathering
2. we just laughed and don't cry until the very last day
3. Do you ever see a photographer during the funeral????? especially Chinese Funeral??
4. The place was so crowded with friends and relative
5. we were like pig.. because we EAT ALOT... (Supper Supper Supper) since the chef was a brilliant chef... the FOODS were too yummy to resists..
6. I ended up become the photographer when my uncle was busy.. hahaha
7. We keep walking near to the coffin to look at my grandpa
8. We visited toilet many times!!!!
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I miss you grandpa, you will always in our heart...

<3 Your Grand Daughter~

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Lady Moon,
Shine the night,
Give us light,
To walkthrough the night,

Lady moon,
Change her style
Every night,
To decorate the sky.

On the 15th day,
Lady Moon’s
Precious days,
Because is her prettiest day.

Lady Moon,
We love you
Because you bring us
Light during the night,

Dark Cloud move
Closed to you,
My Lady moon
Because you give them light.

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Dear Diary,

Il Divo is coming to Malaysia soon which is on the 16 January 2007, and sadly i dont get to go because the price for the ticket is way too expensive for a student ... just imagine Rm2000- Rm500...

Well this poem is going to reflect what i felt when i heard the news that RM2000 is actually sold out.. duh just imagine... Malaysian are so rich.... ahhh i hope one of the il divo members actually read this.. whaha... Yup this monday im going to get their latest album.. say me boring or what i do not mind because their voice are just superbly powerful... especially Carlos Marin.. which i fall in love with his voice...

well for those who do not know what or who is Il Divo.. here is their pics :D
Before that, the members consist of American tenor David Miller, Swiss tenor Urs Buhler, a French pop singer named Sebastien Izambard, and Spanish baritone Carlos Marin.

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When I first heard
I am so glad
I jumped around
To show my happiness

Soon later I found out
I have to pay a price
To see you
And my heart breaks

My heart feels sour
My heart feels sad
As if it was stab
By a sharp blade

It even worse
When I know
Someone willing to pay the price
Just to see you

Although I want
Although I wish for
But I'm not wealthy
As compare to them

Maybe I just have to stand
At a very far end
Just to see you
Just to hear you

Or maybe I just get you
In a form of mirror
So I can listen to you
Although I can’t see you

But this is my wish
To see you live
Too bad the situation does not allow
So I just have to surrender

I wish you all the best
Sing out loud
And please those who paid
Because they love you just like I do.

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Hope you enjoy :D

Specially thanks to all my friends that leave me a note :D and you know who u are... :D

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Dear Diary,
Today i had decided to switch my blog here because :-
1. My friend introduced it to me.
2. She claims that it is userfriendly
3. I do not need to crack my brain with all the html codes.
4. I sick of blogspot
5. I need some changes.
6. To be continue.....




Ps: I been typing this same old entry for 4 times... because i still new to all the "buttons" and i actually submitted it to "publish writing" <-- this shows that im so blur...

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