the shitfest continues.
maybe god really does dislike a pottymouth.
maybe fates decided i need just a little more toughening up.
maybe im just a loser? ya thats it...

i quit vs today. that was the least of my troubles.
my sales sucked today.
i didnt get approved for financing on my camera, so even if i can afford film to shoot for the next couple weeks god knows when ill be able to get it processed...let alone all the jobs i STILL cant take because everyone wants digital, and the waste of goddamned time and money...nevermind...ill just shoot this one til it dies or i cant afford it anymore and then fuck it...it shouldnt be this hard...
theres more, but its really pointless....

anyone with credit wanna cosign me?

im goin to bed soon so i can forget today existed...

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I survived the 12 hour fast...barely..I started to drop on the way to Quest but there was no way I was making it that far only to wuss out...luckily, they took me in pretty quickly, and I was able to run and get food immediately following. I do have to say, that's the fastest anyone's ever found my vein and filled all the vials. She was great! I hardly even felt it!

After that I bummed around Center City for a while. Went over to see the tree in Rittenhouse. I'm slightly disappointed they don't have the coloured balls up this year. I guess everything has to change eventually.

When I got home I tried to pay the rent only to discover the office was closed.

After dinner Chris and I put on A Christmas Story and decorated the tree! Saturday we'll have lights up! My sparkly garland snowflake light is really pretty in our window, though.

Work was pretty run-of-the-mill today. I had a couple good sales. Thank GODS pay day is coming up.

AND now for something completely different....

shower time.

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Last night we were supposed to do a couple things, but one of the buildings in our complex was gutted by what appeared to be a 4-alarm fire. There were firetrucks everywhere, which meant we couldn't get out of our parking lot. So...I took pictures. They're currently loading, and I'll post some eventually. Once my interest in the fire waned we decided to come back in and watch Elf. Heh. I love that movie. It was really nice sitting in the glow of Christmas lights with a big mug of Target English Toffee Cocoa and a big bowl of popcorn. I felt so comfortable I never wanted to go to bed.

But! I had to be up to be at work by 8am...crap! Work was...work. Nothing too impressive or eventful. I'm reaching the point of being completely burned out, and it's getting harder and harder for me to get excited for it. Mleh. Tis the season. 7 more days.

Chris and I are debating the movies again tonight..barring any additional conflagrations. We'll see. Tomorrows another 8am shift. Grant me patience...

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i cleaned my fuckin ass off today...seriously...but our apartment looks spectacular! all we have to do for thursday is the floors, and those can wait so they can sparkle! we got a bunch of wings from the new place on main st. they were awesome! ralph came over and hang out for a bit, and after the game we all went to party america to get plates and turkey-ish stuff for thursday. our apartment is going to look great! then we get to start on christmas! im excited that we get to decorate this year! last year we spent christmas eve at chris' mom's so there was no reason to really decorate anything. this year they're coming here. we get to get a tree and everything. anywho, once back here we wacthed a movie, and now chris is out picking up chad and getting pizza. heh sunday is no diet day.

so i've reached that age. the age where all my friends are getting engaged. today i heard about the 6th one in like a month. congrats guys! next year im gonna be a bridesmaid again the day before my bday...i really hope this isnt cursing me to be "always a bridesmaid, never a bride" cuz well...id like to get married before im 50...


*warning ranty section*
i realized today how much i actually dislike my job. now, i love the kids. i love photography. but i dont like people who assume because i work at the mall im either not a real photographer OR that it gives them the right to treat me like an idiot/slave/whatever. you know, im not selling you a shirt. im using skill, hard work, and creativity to take pictures of children youve already done something to upset. im sorry i can mindcontrol them, im sorry its your only day off, and im sorry "she's nevr like this", but im not a miracle worker....im also not a whipping girl, so dont make me the scapegoat to your shitty day. all this and i still do everything i can to make sure these kids have an enjoyable experience, that theyre happy to be there, and that i at least try to get them to smile. i feel like nothing i do is ever good enough for anyone there. my managers dont seem to have any faith in me, and honestly im starting to lose faith in myself. im tired of always struggling with it. not the job itself, just the fact that i cant please anyone, ever. ok...

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Yesterday Chad and I cleaned like nobody's business. This place is startin to look pretty good! Went to the doctor only to find out that my ear canals are abnormal...apparently, like most of my other orifaces, they're really small and hard to see into. She gave me antibiotics though, so I'm happy! Hopefully it'll fix this.

Man, I've got an hour before I have to leave for work, and I'm bored.... I officialy reapplied to the airline today, so that's out of my hands now. My voice is starting to sound normal again. Huzzah!

Man, my day's been really boring hah...I'm gonna go write for while.

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...we have a Christmas tree!

Tonight was a nice little adventure.
I've been working my ass off lately, and there's really no end in sight.
I don't have tomorrow off like I thought I did, and in stead of getting Monday off for my endo appointment, I have to be in 5-cl...luckily I have Wednesday off!

So tonight we went to get our Christmas tree...
we wandered around Big Lots and Walmart for the perfect assortment of ornaments and such...our tree will look awesome!
Then we hit Home Depot for the actual tree...between teeth chattering and hands numbing (winter has arrived, folks!) we found a great tree for < $20!

since I have to be in so damned early tomorrow we didn't get to decorate it yet...but definitely tomorrow after my shoot with Lauren! Yay!

It smells like yule!

now..sleep.

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